1/100 Days (1st Sept 2022)

9/05/22

Did not sleep at all last night.

I have an early exam the day after tomorrow early in the morning, so I am trying to fix my sleep schedule. Sleep would be wonderful, but desperate times require for desperate measures. Went on a long walk to clear my mind, and now i am studying in a Starbucks, enjoying the chill music in the background. Ordered an iced chai latte for the first time (usually i get it hot) and it is heavenly.

Hope I won't fall asleep while in public :)

8/100 days of productivity

Study until you think you are perfect and then study some more because you are never perfect.

I love getting the highest grades in class.

3.09.2022

My life these days.

from duty— squeezing in some studying before I sleep.

Some pictures from recent studies and working from home. Now I'm done with taking classes for the rest of my phd, but that means it's officially time to start studying for my qualifying exam. My goal was to finish the first draft of my proposal by the end of this month but it's been so hard to make myself work on it for some reason. We'll see what happens.

⭐ 17.06.2024 // I DID IT!! I DID IT GUYS!!! I STUDIED 10 HOURSSSSS!!!!

I'm tired but especially extremely motivated by the fact that I was able to achieve that much. Like, a few years ago I would never have thought that it would be possible for me to do it EVER. It says so much about my recovery journey and it's awesome. Like I'm able for the first time in YEARS to manage studying a lot of hours, doing a minimum of self care, answering people's texts, planning events for later AND be able to function like a human (so not be overly tired by it). It means a lot for me. I still have progress to make in some domains tho, who doesn't, but it's still amazing

(And honestly Tumblr has something to do with it, I met amazing mutuals here and maybe the "do it scared, do it bad, do it tired" helped me in my journey after all ahah)

PS : my cat didn't want to sleep in my room today so I don't have any pictures of her yet :(( (but she killed a mouse today, ig she had other priorities)

Really is demanding, but the satisfaction afterwards is truly something else

Yep, school is demanding.

University feels...

• darkness can be beautiful

• but blind love can be ugly

Sometimes i forget

The one i study in the mirror

Is none other than myself

And i surprise myself

With how kind i am

When the mirror shows

Nothing but a stranger