05|09|2022

day 1/100 - 100 days of productivity

- went on an early morning run and watched the sun rise on my way back

- started my internship at the district court. they gave us a rough schedule for the first two weeks and I think it’s going to be very interesting

- worked from home after I got back from the the internship

- did some grocery shopping

and that’s it for day 1. pretty productive day so.. good start.

Life lately:

Studying after duty because we have exams every weekend again

Went through Something but we are moving from it now

Currently in OB rotation now! I’m still adjusting.

Emotionally, I’m getting better. I’m trying to take care of myself more.

Life has been hard lately but one step at a time, one task at a time.

friday | october 4

i'll spend the weekend catching up on readings and prepping for my first exam of the term, but friday evenings are the time to curl up with a good book and forget about homework.

Remember what life is all about

I was so concerned with my final year of college, finals, entry exams, that it felt like i was going through life head bowed, just walking on autopilot and staring only at the ground

I need to remember to enjoy life more often

The exams will be there, the time will pass anyway

So i choose to spend my free time remembering that there's life outside of university and the oh-so-important future

Smell the flowers, sit in the sun, go for a walk in the rain, watch children play, dance in your room, feed some ducks or squirrels (do some research about what is ok to feed them beforehand though)

Remember what life is really about

We're all just humans

And to be human means to make mistakes.

And that's perfectly ok.

Learning to embrace making mistakes means learning to love yourself a little bit more (and at the end of the day, that's what really matters)

2/6 exams to go

Autoimmune and rare diseases rotation 📚✨

— political culture of east asia notes

This is so important and always a great reminder!

Information is worth almost nothing if you're not in the (physical or mental) state to use it.

To answer qotd: im struggling with giving up on the "bright kid" mentality. Learning and understanding new things require time and energy and active and constant studying. I'm aware of that. But i sometimes still feel frustrated and stressed out when I don't instantly know or understand a concept.

It's been a process getting better and letting go of the way things used to be, but it now means that i am always excited to learn new things and it feels so rewarding to know stuff because i worked hard for it!

october 5 /24

Self-love, right now, is taking up a large portion of my brain. I don’t have a ton to say about it, but I know that over the years spent on academia pulling all-nighters and placing so much emphasis on blame I’ve learned that having mercy for yourself is so important. I’ve had great mentors and teachers that have taught me that flexibility and balance is so much more important than a 4.0 GPA. So, moving forward since I last spoke to you guys all those years ago, I’ve put in a serious effort to not run myself down. And, I’m proud of being able to see the world as a place to enjoy as well as a place to progress slowly and efficiently towards my goals. I’ve been taking more time off to spend with friends, to connect with new people, to do yoga and singing and reading, all while balancing school and my career goals. It’s been a difficult task, but I’m glad I’m taking it on. Here’s a picture of me halfway through my choir session, learning Laura Jēkasbone’s “Jumalo” 🎵. Always show yourself mercy!

QOTD: what is something you often stress about, when you know you shouldn’t?

🎧 lie still and fade — exist strategy

📖 A Swim in a Pond in the Rain — George Saunders

~7/100

01.08.2022 // i'm actually super excited to start working on my first assignments. so why is it that i can't bring myself to start? 🤔

🎧: my jinji by sunset rollercoaster

↳ 09.09.22. / Friday

Oh I am definitely gonna have to re-learn how to take nice desk/study pictures. Anyways, today I’m reviewing my early TESOL program notes to refresh myself on some grammar and sneaking in a quick DuoLingo session. I don’t use Duo as my primary study material for any language, but I find it particularly helpful for Mandarin because it forces me to read/review characters every day. I simply don’t have time every day to hit my textbooks the way I want to, but I can always do a Duo lesson or two. Also, I am competitive and want to get to a year-long Duo streak lol.