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Little things can make a big difference

For me it's about color schemes

I generally enjoy studying but oh boy do i love doing it when i can annotate a book with a pretty color scheme.

Makes me want to look for deeper meaning into the text, to draw diagrams and make small summaries.

Today's goal is finding small reasons for happiness in everything and anything

I'm the kind of a person who adores walking in the rain and the scent of wet earth loves coffee, stays up late at night, doesn't meddle in others' affairs, laughs at the notion of love despite believing in it, and a friend of all and yet feels lonely, prefers to be absent but present rather than present but absent, doesn't know how to hate someone but good in the departure

06.26.24

good morning!!! happy wednesday 🌸 we had our adcon this morning. our lectures were asynch so I had my car cleaned and now I’m staying at my fave café studying before my afternoon lecture. 2 days left before clerkship ends!!!!! 🎀

Taking breaks is also being productive

Studying constantly only leads to burnout. Go take a walk. Feed some ducks. Admire a pretty building. Try to cook something new.

You might feel guilty at first, but nothing in excess is ever good, not even studying.

Dont forget to live life

fucking hate thar when you go to uni you have to actually do and turn in work like some kind of seventh grader. you should be able to just listen to the lecture & vibe

This is so important and always a great reminder!

Information is worth almost nothing if you're not in the (physical or mental) state to use it.

To answer qotd: im struggling with giving up on the "bright kid" mentality. Learning and understanding new things require time and energy and active and constant studying. I'm aware of that. But i sometimes still feel frustrated and stressed out when I don't instantly know or understand a concept.

It's been a process getting better and letting go of the way things used to be, but it now means that i am always excited to learn new things and it feels so rewarding to know stuff because i worked hard for it!

october 5 /24

Self-love, right now, is taking up a large portion of my brain. I don’t have a ton to say about it, but I know that over the years spent on academia pulling all-nighters and placing so much emphasis on blame I’ve learned that having mercy for yourself is so important. I’ve had great mentors and teachers that have taught me that flexibility and balance is so much more important than a 4.0 GPA. So, moving forward since I last spoke to you guys all those years ago, I’ve put in a serious effort to not run myself down. And, I’m proud of being able to see the world as a place to enjoy as well as a place to progress slowly and efficiently towards my goals. I’ve been taking more time off to spend with friends, to connect with new people, to do yoga and singing and reading, all while balancing school and my career goals. It’s been a difficult task, but I’m glad I’m taking it on. Here’s a picture of me halfway through my choir session, learning Laura Jēkasbone’s “Jumalo” 🎵. Always show yourself mercy!

QOTD: what is something you often stress about, when you know you shouldn’t?

🎧 lie still and fade — exist strategy

📖 A Swim in a Pond in the Rain — George Saunders

Today felt like it would never end.

Had an exam in the morning, coffe break, continued studying, had another exam in the afternoon, and then went ikea shopping.

First exam: good, i felt great about my performance, got me excited for life :)

Second exam: i blanked. I was tired, burnt-out, unfocused, and for the life of me, i could not focus enough to properly answer the questions. I did... Poorly, for lack of better words.

Not feeling great, but shopping did help make me feel a bit better

10/100 days of productivity