Hey, Long Time No See!

No matter how busy you may think you are, you must find time for reading, or surrender yourself to self-chosen ignorance.

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9/04/22

Going back to university to take the exams I've been dreading.

I hardly feel prepared, but I dont know if any amount of studying would've made me feel prepared. Missed my dorm, missed going to the library to study, so these are gonna be a few bittersweet days!

What do you do to prepare for exams?

7/100 days of productivity

Today felt like it would never end.

Had an exam in the morning, coffe break, continued studying, had another exam in the afternoon, and then went ikea shopping.

First exam: good, i felt great about my performance, got me excited for life :)

Second exam: i blanked. I was tired, burnt-out, unfocused, and for the life of me, i could not focus enough to properly answer the questions. I did... Poorly, for lack of better words.

Not feeling great, but shopping did help make me feel a bit better

10/100 days of productivity

| 10 june 2024 |

back at the library to continue on with my paper,, my dad gave me his headphones that he barely uses (they're like 6 years old). I just had to buy new ear coverings and they look almost new! I think I might put some stickers on it to make it look less gray 🤔

🎧 tumbao - goyo

Shy guy semi shooting his shot

Draw the personification of the, “haha,, jk,,, unless,,,?” Meme

Just because you have to study to achieve your dreams doesn't mean it can't be enjoyable

College has been a whole process for me. I did not know how to study, i did not know how to put effort into the right things, and most importantly, i did not know how to accept that my actions (or lack of) were the problem.

It took me years, but I've learned to accept that it's ok for me to need to study to be good when it comes to a subject, that college is a place for learning, not for being instantly good at something.

And now i can finally say that, without the subconscious frustration, i truly do enjoy learning new things, studying new subjects, and studying for the sake of knowing more, not just to pass exams.

It takes work, but it's all worth it.

• darkness can be beautiful

• but blind love can be ugly

03.11.2022

Motivation is a tricky thing

It took me 4 weeks since college started to get back in the studying mood. I tried to stay on top of my work and, to be honest, i failed miserably. Recently i got the urge to study, i missed the feeling.

So, here I am, back again, wasting my time on Tumblr, because it makes me (in some weird way) more productive

⭐ 17.06.2024 // I DID IT!! I DID IT GUYS!!! I STUDIED 10 HOURSSSSS!!!!

I'm tired but especially extremely motivated by the fact that I was able to achieve that much. Like, a few years ago I would never have thought that it would be possible for me to do it EVER. It says so much about my recovery journey and it's awesome. Like I'm able for the first time in YEARS to manage studying a lot of hours, doing a minimum of self care, answering people's texts, planning events for later AND be able to function like a human (so not be overly tired by it). It means a lot for me. I still have progress to make in some domains tho, who doesn't, but it's still amazing

(And honestly Tumblr has something to do with it, I met amazing mutuals here and maybe the "do it scared, do it bad, do it tired" helped me in my journey after all ahah)

PS : my cat didn't want to sleep in my room today so I don't have any pictures of her yet :(( (but she killed a mouse today, ig she had other priorities)