How Wonderful It Is, To Be Silent With Someone.

Why am I single? Am I stopping myself from falling in love? Or am I truly just not falling for anyone? I don’t know which option I fear more. If the first is true, then I may be dooming myself to a life alone. If it’s the second, well, that wouldn’t be my fault, would it? But it’s no less discouraging to think that no one in my world could ever interest me. I get crushes sometimes, yes, but (and this sounds weird) I can’t even tell how serious they are. I second-guess my own feelings constantly. Do I really like this person, or am I just fooling myself? All too often, it feels like I’m imagining I like them just because I like the idea of being madly in love. It’s more about the idea than the actual person. I can create an image around a person that obscures who they really are, and pretty soon I’m in love with the image, but all the while in my gut I know that the image is not accurate and what I’m actually in love with is an illusion. That’s not true love. I know that. So I don’t allow myself to actually engage with the person, because I know it’s not what I think it is. In that sense, I guess you could say I do keep myself from falling in love… but not without reason. You see, in every case, I see red flags. Even beyond the smokescreen of the fantasy image I create around a person, these red flags are always visible to my deeper instinct. And when I say “red flags,” I mean intrinsic qualities or ingrained habits that I do not want in a romantic partner. Things that the person obviously either could not or would not change. Things that I am ultimately just not okay with. They stand out to my subconscious mind, flashing cold warning lights, spelling doom for any hope of a relationship with that person. If I didn’t see these kinds of red flags, I like to think that I would do it. I would move forward. I would give the person a chance. But when I see these kinds of things beforehand, plain as day… I mean, am I supposed to ignore them? So far, I have not been able to do that. I know what I want, and I know what I do not want. Why should I walk straight into a situation that I know is not what I want? Won’t I be kicking myself later for making such a stupid move, eyes wide open? At the end of the day, I wonder: Will there ever be someone who doesn’t strike me as full of warning signs, someone I won’t have to invent a mostly false image around so that I can pretend to have a crush on them? Will I just end up caving in and dating someone who is below my standards? Am I keeping myself from happiness, or sparing myself genuine heartache and wasted time? As always, the standard answer to all my life’s questions resurfaces: I don’t know.

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‘The Northern Constellations’ from Middleton’s Celestial Atlas (1842)

I do my best thinking at night when everyone else is sleeping. No interruptions. No noise. I like the feeling of being awake when no one else is.

Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places  (via thequotejournals)

Secret Letters (Chat Noir/Adrien Agreste x Reader)

Authors Note: Hello everyone! I feel there isn’t enough Chat Noir/ Adrien Agreste x Reader works out there, so I thought I would post something. I hope you like! Key: (Y/N) = Your name (E/C) = Eye Color (H/L) = Hair Length (H/C) = Hair color (N/D) = Non Dominant Hand

(Y/N) read the note in her hand with a smile on her face.

Not a day goes by without me thinking of you. I always wish you well, and I wish those who do you harm, harm as well. I will do anything to protect you, my love, and that is incontestable. Sweet dreams tonight, From, your secret admirer…

(Y/N)’s smile widened as she examined the familiar loopy, yet somehow firm, handwriting. Carefully folding the letter back up, she placed it gently into her purse, then continued to get her stuff like normal. Walking out of the school with a little spring in her step, she didn’t notice a certain famous model watching her leave.

(Y/N) plopped onto her bed, an old box on her lap. Taking off the lid, it was clear some of the letters had seen better days. (Y/N) laid the most recent letter inside side, then picked up the most crumpled one. Smoothing out the many folds, she re-read it.

Dear (Y/N), You probably don’t know me, but ever since I saw you on the first day of school, your regal (E/C) eyes sparkling with absolute joy, your (H/L) (H/C) hair styled simply yet elegantly, your outfit thrown together messily but somehow the most fashionable thing in the room, I have had Cupid’s arrow lodged in my heart. And every day that passes with your smile in my life drives that point deeper. This is the first letter I’ve given you, and it will not be the last. I would tell you my feelings in person, but I doubt you would believe me. From, your secret admirer

(Y/N) felt her chest swell with happiness as the words stuck to her heart. Although first time she got the letter and read it, she thought nothing of it, haphazardly tossing it into her bag, then crumpled it up and threw it into her recycling bin after getting home. But after a few days, the letters started to actually reach her.

Dear, (Y/N) I want to tell you something that I just realized myself. Every time I see you upset, I have the urge to get rid of the cause of your grief. I know this is not always possible, and I know I am not always there, but remember, keep your head up and you can get through everything. Love, your secret admirer

From that note on, the admirer never said ‘Dear (Y/N)’ again, nor did they use love in any other note. (Y/N), being the semi-romantic sap she was, took this to mean the admirer didn’t mean to write love, and was just going with what they truly felt. That caused (Y/N) to dig out the older letters, and lead her to treasure the new ones. Now (Y/N) was left wondering, who’s the boy, or girl, she is slowly falling in love with? Sadly shaking her head (Y/N) placed the letter back into the box, closed the lid, and placed it safely under her bed.

Opening her locker the next morning, (Y/N) was surprised to see a letter already there, along with a half budded sunrise pink rose. But as (Y/N) picked it up, she saw it was a very real looking fake. Placing the flower back down she picked up the note, reading it confused.

Good morning. I apologize for confusing you, but I saw this rose and thought of you. You both are incredibly beautiful and bring a smile to people’s faces, although I see you as more important than a rose.   From, your secret admirer

A smile quickly covered (Y/N)’s face as she looked up from the note and at the rose again. Placing the note very carefully back into her locker (Y/N) finished getting her books. But right before she closed her locker she grabbed the rose, taking it to class with her.

Examining the rose carefully (Y/N) wondered who her love was sadly. Glancing around the room she listed off the possibilities. 'Nino has Alya, so both of then are out. Marinette likes Adrien and Nathen likes Marinette. Ivan and Mylene is the classes main ship. Not even going to think about Chloe or Sabrina… So that leaves Jueluka, Rose, Max, maybe Kim, hopefully not though, and Adrien.’ Looking at her finalists in turn she sighed. “Who could you be?” She murmured almost silently, gazing at the rose longingly.

Adrien glanced back at (Y/N) quickly, catching her looking at the rose sadly. He turned back around, and kept writing the next letter.

(Y/N) excitedly opened her locker, quickly spotting and pulling out the letter already there.

I see you liked the rose. I saw your turmoil in class today, and I want to say I’m sorry for that. I’ll tell you who I am soon. But I thought of something that might make you smile. Roses are red, here’s something new… Violets aren’t violet but I still love you! From, your secret admirer <3

(Y/N) giggled at the cute poem, her joy catching the attention of Chloe. “Oh! A letter!” The blonde smirked, snatching the paper out of (Y/N)’s hand. “Give it back, now, Chloe,” (Y/N) snarled, to no avail. “Hey look! Someone actually likes (Y/N)!” (Y/N) gulped a bit, not because of embarrassment for her, but for her admirer. But as she looked over the faces of the small crowd, she saw no reactions other than shock of Chloe doing this (though it shouldn’t have been a surprise) to annoyance over Chloe attempting to stir up trouble. “And this is a shocker, they actually said they love her!” This caught everyone’s attention, leading (Y/N)’s face to burn red. Counting down from three silently in her head, (Y/N) thought out a plan. Once she got to one, she moved quickly, snatching the letter away from Chloe and griping it tight to her chest with both hands as she faced off against the brat. “At least I have someone who actually loves me, and not just tolerates me.” Chloe laughed, “Pu-lease! You can’t even make a boy take a second glance at you, much less really love you!” Although (Y/N) seemed to be holding firm, a seed of doubt was planted. “And you can’t keep more than one friend!” “What does that have to do with anything?!” (Y/N) smirked, “I’d rather have friends than beauty.” 'Checkmate.’ But Chloe still had one trick, “And yet, no one is standing up for you, not even your so called 'secret admirer’. If you want my opinion, he’s just playing you.” That caused the dam to crack. Stepping back a small bit (Y/N) glared at Chloe as the tears pricked her eyes. Turning on her heel (Y/N) stormed out through the doors behind her, before bolting out of the school, letter tight against her chest.

(Y/N) sat under a large tree quite a ways from the school, tears dripping down her face. Slightly heaving, (Y/N) pried the letter off her chest and un-crumpled it, hand ghosting over the letters sadly. A purple and black butterfly suddenly touched the paper, causing a red haze to appear around (Y/N)’s eyes. Amore, I see that your sadness is great, but I can help heal it. Just get me Ladybug and Chat Noir’s Miraculouses! “Of course, Hawkmoth,” (Y/N) smirked, a dark goop traveling up her arms and encasing her whole body. Soon she stood up, hair pulled back with a rose flower crown, a blood red elegant sundress, flats, and a ruby heart necklace. Her skin flushed with pale glow, dark mascara tear tracks trailed down Amore’s face. The letter was held firmly in her (N/D) hand, and a long staff was held in her other. “Chloe Bourgeois, your love has run out.” With a sharp laugh (Y/N) waved her staff, causing a pencil grey horse to appear, though it was seemingly made out of dust. Cooing to the horse Amore got on side saddle, rearing up the horse, directing it to the Eiffel Tower.

With one wave of her staff, a large stark white throne appeared on top of the famous monument, along with many ashen grey wolves, lionesses, and hawks, all with piercing pink eyes. Sitting down on her throne Amore held her head high, “Go! Fetch me Chloe Bourgeois! Quickly! And if any of you see either Chat Noir or Ladybug, bring them to me in any way you can!” And all at once the animals ran down the side of the tower and through the streets of Paris, causing every man to turn and stare at the glowing form of Amore and all the women to turn into goddess like statues. The horse from before nuzzled it’s head into Amore’s cheek, forcing her to turn and pet it’s snout happily, “Soon, my pet, soon.”

Chloe was forced to her knees at the base of the tower, and she was not happy. “You got dust in my hair! My daddy will hear about this!” Amore dropped down in front of Chloe with a sneer, “You wish your daddy will help you.” Chloe seemed to have legit fear as she looked up at Amore, whose upper lip was curled so that you could see her teeth. “Honestly, you’d think someone put in danger so often would know better.” Chloe got her snarky attitude back and went to stand up, “Well excuse-” But was stopped by Amore placing the end of her staff at Chloe’s throat, “YOU DON’T DARE STAND IN FRONT OF ME!” Leaning down Amore used her closed hand to gesture around her, “You see what I’ve done? Well I won’t make you look elegant, I’ll make you into the monster you are!” But suddenly a voice spoke up, “Well honestly, all you would really have to do is remove her makeup.” Amore stood up straight, a smirk playing on her lips. “Oh, Chat Noir. Not a surprise, and Ladybug is…” Trailing off, Amore swung her staff to one side, creating a sand lioness that bit down onto the yo-yo that had just attempted to grab the long weapon. “Attempting to stop me.” Ladybug fell to the ground next to Amore, who looked down at her with disdain, “Honestly, you should choose dumber villains to try that on.” Ladybug however smirked, “Chat, now!” Chat’s staff shot out and smashed into the necklace, shattering it. Amore looked uninterested, simply flicking the tip of her staff to cause a new necklace to materialize. “Not quite.”  A purple glow appeared around Amore’s eyes, Hawkmoth’s voice ringing. Get their Miraculouses! If you don’t… The paper still crumpled in Amore’s hand glowed, quickly making her bring the hand to her chest quickly. “Of course, just please don’t,” Hawkmoth chuckled darkly before going silent. Chat watched Amore’s chest heave with a small sigh before her face became stone. “Now, while you’re here, I would like your Miraculouses. I can even be nice and keep your identities secret. As an uproar wouldn’t be nice in a destroyed Paris.” A vile grin grew, Amore’s fist tightening around the paper that had started to glow slightly.  "Ladybug, the note in her hand!“ Chat hissed, attempting not to catch Amore’s attention, and he succeeded. Ladybug moved quickly, snatching the letter and tossing it to Chat, who had ripped it by the time Amore noticed. "NO!” She yelled out, hand reaching to the letter now torn in half. Falling to her knees Amore gingerly held both pieces, the mascara lines becoming more clear. Ladybug caught the Akuma, purifying it and fixing the town, leaving a confused (Y/N) kneeling with the now whole letter in her hands. “W-what am I doing here?” But (Y/N) then noticed the state of the letter, that was even worse than her first one, with a gasp. “No!” She attempted to smooth out the creases in vain, a frown forming on her lips as Chat Noir and Ladybug did their signature, “Pound it!” Many of the press surrounded the trio, leading (Y/N) to figure out what happened, 'I was Akumatized…’ Suddenly a black clad hand took over her vision, and looking up let her know that Chat Noir held out a hand to (Y/N). “Come on, I’ll take you home.” Taking the hand (Y/N) stood up, Chat Noir quickly spinning her around so that his hand was on her waist and his arm wrapped around her back. “Hold on.” (Y/N) didn’t question how Chat knew where she lived, nor did she ask why he knew where her bedroom was and that he could unlock her balcony doors easily, she only cared about the letter.

Once (Y/N) was safely in her bedroom she escaped Chat’s hold and fetched the shoe box from under her bed. Chat watched in wonder and slight confusion as (Y/N) handled the note with such care, even bothering to check closely for any rips on the edges before putting the letter in. After closing the box she placed it back in it’s hiding spot before turning back to Chat. “Don’t you have to go? Your Miraculous might run out of power,” (Y/N) stated concerned. Chat showed his ring to the girl with a small smile, “It’s alright. I didn’t have to use Cataclysm so I’m fine for as long as I want,” (Y/N) tilted her head, “But why are you staying? Paris is safe.” Chat stepped forward, placing a hand on (Y/N)’s shoulder, “I know. But I want to make sure you’re safe. I know being Akumatized means something bad has happened, and I want to help.” Looking up at Chat (Y/N) sighed, her eyes suddenly casting down, “Do you really want to hear my story?” Chat nodded firmly, saying nothing. (Y/N) nodded back, taking Chat’s hands and guiding him to her bed, where they both sat down.

“You need some background,” (Y/N) started off, “I have a secret admirer-” “Not surprising for someone as beautiful as you,”. Chat interrupted, putting a smile on (Y/N)’s face. “Well, this secret admirer normally leaves me a letter in my locker after school every day, but today they gave me two. One this morning with a rose, and the other after school like normal. But I was so happy to see what they had to say that I read it with Chloe hanging around. She heard me giggle at the sweet poem they wrote me and took the letter. She taunted me about it, just to get attention, but my classmates didn’t seem to care. But they did when she pointed out that my admirer put 'I love you in the letter’,” (Y/N)’s eyes became watery as she continued, “Chloe said they are probably just playing with me. And honestly if this was the first few letters it wouldn’t have gotten to me, but honestly,” (Y/N) hugged her torso, “I’m starting to love them back…” Silent tears ran down (Y/N)’s face, leading Chat to pull her into a hug. (Y/N) hugged back, burying her face into the hero’s chest.  Chat ran his claws through (Y/N)’s hair softly as he spoke, “(Y/N), as a guy with a crush myself, I have to say he isn’t playing with you. It takes a lot of guts to even speak to a girl as beautiful as you, and to say 'I love you’, even on a piece of paper, is even harder. And I can swear, your admirer would would steaming if he knew Chloe had made you feel that way.”

Sniffing (Y/N) pulled back a bit, just so she could look Chat in the eyes, “H-how do you know that?” Chat cupped (Y/N)’s face with his hands, using his thumbs to wipe away the remaining tears, “Because I am your secret admirer.” (Y/N) gasped as a green light overtook Chat, revealing him to be Adrien, “And I know I love you enough to show you my second biggest secret.” (Y/N) was overtook with love for the boy in front of her as it all settled in, “But what’s your biggest secret?” Adrien leaned into (Y/N), touching their foreheads together, “Hiding how much I love you.” (Y/N) smiled, pulling away fully and wrapping Adrien into a hug once again. “I feel the same way.”

Extra!

Walking into school the next day with Adrien, (Y/N) felt happier than she had ever been. Although the two were noticed by a few people hanging out when they normally never even spoke, nobody noticed the sly look (Y/N) gave Adrien when she saw a note in her locker. But everybody knew it when (Y/N) was seen on top of the Eiffel Tower giving the famous black cat hero a light kiss.

You ever get in a Mood where you just wanna poof off to another country, erase your history, re-write your identity, and become a mysterious figure who’s never been photographed but occasionally appears in paintings done by unknown artists

Matchmaker Adrien Agreste x Reader

Authors note: Sorry this is short. This is just something I came up with and wanted to post. Enjoy! And if there are some typos, it’s because I wrote the whole thing on my IPhone.

(Y/N)= Your Name (H/C)= Hair color (Nationality)= American, Indian, Asian ect.

Third Person

“Little sis, guess what I convinced mom and dad to let you do?” Nino asked his adopted sister as he walked into her room. “Oh let me guess, finally go to school?” (Y/N) responded sarcastically, expecting Nino to have failed once again. “You got it!” (Y/N), who was laying starfished on her bed, bolted up, “REALLY?!” “Totally!” Within 5 seconds Nino was being glomped by a very exited (H/C). Mr and Mrs Lahiffe adopted the (nationality) child after Nino wanted a sibling, but sadly complications during Mrs Lahiffe’s first pregnancy denied another one, so adoption was the only option. Nino was 10, and (Y/N) was 9. The two got close quickly, resulting in Nino being very protective of (Y/N), and that meant few people outside of the family knew about her. Mr and Mrs Lahiffe also homeschooled (Y/N), who at first was very antisocial apart from the family, but that changed quickly, though the homeschooling did not. However now (Y/N) would be in Collège Françoise Dupont with her brother.

(Y/N) walked to school next to Nino a week later, dressed in a simple knee length skater skirt and a white tank top with a jean jacket over it all and converse. “Are you sure your friends will like me?” (Y/N) asked, concern lacing her voice. Nino threw an arm over her shoulders, a supporting smile on his face, “It’ll be fine. You’re my little sis!” “If you say so, big bro.” Adrien, Alya, and Marinette were talking about an upcoming school project (Alya of course had a death grip on Mari’s arm) when Alya spotted Nino talking animatedly with a new girl. “Wait- who’s that?” Adrien and Marinette looked over, both confused. “I have no clue, never seen her,” Marinette noted with a tilt of her head, though Adrien studied the girl a bit more, staying silent. Though suddenly the girl looked over to the trio and asked Nino something, pointing them out, and when Nino looked over he quickly grabbed the girl by her hand and dragged her over. “Dude, dudettes, I am here to present,” Nino started, leaning on (Y/N)’s head, “My little sister, (Y/N)!” Giving an amused look (Y/N) shoved Nino’s arm off then turned to the other three with a bright smile. “Nice to meet you, Nino speaks of you three a lot!” Alya’s face burst into a smile holding her hand out, “Alya, runner of the Ladyblog!” (Y/N) shook it, then after letting go Marinette gave a shy wave, “I’m Marinette, the local klutz.” (Y/N) gave a smile then turned to Adrien, locking eyes with him. Time seemed to slow down for both of them for a second, then went on overdrive. “You must be Adrien!” (Y/N) smiled, brushing some hair away from her face, cheeks being dusted with a light pink. Adrien gave a kind smile back placing his hands into his pockets, “Yep, nice to meet you!” Nino didn’t seem to notice (Y/N)’s shy behavior. “Sis, I should show you your classes. I can’t have you late on your first day!” (Y/N) giggled a bit, “Yeah, mom would kill us!” Nino started walking, looking back and waving to his friends. (Y/N) waved as well, but it was a shy one.

A few weeks later and (Y/N) had become comfortable in school. But she had fallen for Adrien. Although she took a different approach than Marinette. Instead of stuttering and avoiding Adrien, she stuck close to her brother, who was close to Adrien. Adrien liked the change brought with (Y/N). Instead of her clinging to him or acting awkward, she acted as if Adrien was a normal person. Even his feelings for Ladybug diminished after hanging out with (Y/N). Nino watched as his best friend and his little sister fell in love. He brought this up one day before class. “You can just ask her out you know.” Adrien was taken aback, “What do you mean?” “(Y/N). Ya know, my little sister. She likes you back, dude.” Adrien brightened up, “Really? And… You don’t mind me asking her out?” Nino smiled, “Nah. Unless you hurt her. Being my best friend won’t protect you then. But I trust you.” Adrien seemed like his mother came back again at this. But soon he started to panic a bit, “How should I do it? Should I give her flowers, a sweet compliment, or-” “Dude! Chill. With (Y/N) it doesn’t matter. As long as she sees you truly care, she’s gunna say yes.” Nino stated, leading Adrien to scratch the back of his head shyly, a sheepish smile on his face.

“Adrien? Are you in here?” (Y/N) asked, peeking her head into the library door. She stepped in slowly, looking around the silent room. Walking around a bit, she was suddenly taken by surprise as a pair of hands covered her eyes, “Guess who?” (Y/N) burst out laughing, prying Adrien’s hands from her eyes as she spun around to see him, “Hi, Adrien! Why did you want to see me?” Adrien grinned, “Well. Since my dad is throwing a party for the major people in the company, I thought I should bring a beautiful, kind, adorable, and confident date to the event.” (Y/N) frowned slightly, “Let me guess… You want to ask me how to ask Marinette to the party.” Adrien was shocked, “No! I was meaning that I want you to come with me. I even already have a fitted dress and heels.” “So that’s why Nino needed my shoe size and why Marinette was so persistent in getting my measurements.” (Y/N) realized, and Adrien laughed, “Yep. The whole outfit is at your house, along with Alya to help you get ready. I will pick you up at 7:30, all you have to do is be yourself.” A concern suddenly coated (Y/N)’s face, “But what about Nino? How does he feel…?” Adrien went silent for a few seconds before replying in a mumble, “He was the one who told me to ask you out…” (Y/N)’s mouth gaped, before she groaned, “It’s the sisters job to play matchmaker for the brother! Not the other way around!”

“Nino, I want to say thanks. For playing matchmaker all those years ago.” (Y/N) sat down, her dress folding elegantly. It was 5 years later, and at the wedding of Adrien Agreste and (Y/N) Lahiffe, now (Y/N) Agreste. Nino smiled slightly, “You’re welcome, sis.”

There is this friend of mine that has confessed me a while ago he has feelings for me and since that I just couldn’t be the same with him. The weird thing is that, I always tell myself to put my feelings and needs first but I can’t ever do it, even with this boy ‘cause I just can’t stand the idea of someone suffering over me, it’s awful.

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My Shoujo/Romance Anime List:

1-Akagami no shirayuki-hime (thx for reminder :3) 2-Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun 3-Angel Beats 4-Toradora 5-Inu x boku SS 6-Itazura na kiss 7-Zero no tsukaima 8-Ookami shoujo to kuro ouji 9-Clannad/Clannad ~After story~ 10-Bokura ga ita 11-Special A 12-Nijiiro Days 13-Kamisama Hajimemashita 14-Kaichou wa maid-sama 15-Kimi ni todoke 16-Sukitte ii na yo 17-Kyou koi wo hajimemasu 18-Ao haru ride 19-Golden Time 20-Akatsuki no yona 21-Hiyokoi (just has 1 episode in Anime but, i highly recomend the manga) 22-Vampire Knight 23-Lovely Complex 24-Diabolik Lovers 25-Ore Monogatari 26-Chuunibyou Demo koi ga Shitai! 27-Sword Art Online 28-Inuyasha 29-Sankarea 30-Brothers Conflict 31-Romeo x Juliet 32-Acchi kocchi  33-Hatsukoi Monster 34-Momokuri 33-Orange  34-White Album   35-Nodame Cantabile   36-Kyouka no Kanata   37-Nagi no asukara   38-Mahou shoujo ikusei keikaku   39-Sakurasau no pet na kanojo   40-Fruits Basket 41-Ouran High School Host Club

42-Cardcaptor Sakura 43-Nana 44- Natsume Yuujinchou 45-Nisekoi 46- Kamigami no Asobi 47- Uta no Prince-sama Maji Love 1000% 48-Kobato

49-Anohana

50-Ranma ½ 51- Hiiro no Kakera Dai ni Shou 52- Aishiteruze baby 53- Nagi no Asukara 54- Bokura wa Minna Kawaisou 55- Peach Girl 56- Hana Yori Dango 57- Fushigi Yuugi 58-Kuzu no honaki 59-Seiren

60-Gosick

61- Masamune-kun no reveng

62-BTOOOM!                                                 

63-Tamako Market                                     

64-Chobits