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Would anybody fancy doing a mxm Genshin apocalypse AU? The ships I enjoy are pinned on my page (but you’re welcome to propose ships as well). I’d really like to get into the nitty gritty parts of an apocalypse, like hurt/comfort, near death experiences, trying to be silent during NSFW, huddling for warmth, fighting other survivors, rainstorms, getting sick, etc. I’d like this plot to contain gore, so please be comfortable with that! And, I would also like both characters to be versatile/switches as I find this adds more depth to the plot. Let’s make headcanons, send fanart, become friends OOC, and geek out over our boys together. Please be 18+, and I only RP on Discord. Like this post or send me a message!

When did "Suicide is still an option" become a comforting thought ?

I already said too much. I already shared too much, and I want all my secrets back. I hate getting close to people these days. I always regret sharing too much, caring too much, doing too much, feeling too much.

Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

something mildly annoying about someone expressing emotions so much. be hollow.like me . wdym ur happy no ur not

— Virginia Woolf, from “Carlyle’s House and Other Sketches.”

Depersonalisation: Rambling #18

21st April 2022, 21:29

I woke up this morning feeling incredibly weird. When I climbed out of bed, my feet were not my own. They seemed so far away from me. When I looked at my hands, they looked like hands I had never seen before. I tried to use the bathroom, but I felt like I was driving a car. I was inside my skull and watching the world around me on a movie screen. Everything was out of place and foreign. I didn’t know who I was or what I was doing. Strangely, I felt like I was floating. People call this depersonalisation. I guess that is what I was feeling, but it’s the strongest I’ve ever felt it. I truly didn’t feel like I was attached to my body. I felt robotic, like a sim being controlled in-game. It was nauseating. My problem is, though, is why does this happen? It has to happen for a reason. Am I having a moment of clarity? A blip in the system? Am I experiencing who I truly am? Was this body ever really mine? Or was this body given to me? I don’t remember becoming who I am today. I just arrived. Who am I?

~ 化け猫 (Bakeneko)

Maybe I’m supposed to be alone. But it hurts.

• if I stay cold enough, I won’t want to get up and follow things around

• if I only use the same websites/watch the same shows/don’t answer unknown calls, I don’t get paranoid.

• if I don’t make friends, I won’t stay up all night wondering about what they’re plotting against me.

• if I stay inside, nobody will be watching me.

• if I don’t speak or think, no one can hear me.