💥WARNING: Yes, This Could Piss You Off But... 🤫 I Don't Care.💥

Burning Wings

This morning, I want this!

Difficult yet noble cause.

Sometimes, the most important person to hear this from...is yourself.

I got my new set of pen and ink. I decided to write a note. I miss receiving hand written letters; writing them too.

A storm is moving in.

True story...mine ended in summer. That's one thing I didn't mind losing to 2020.

“The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.”

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Mmm . . . I can smell you and taste you as you slide down my throat 😏

Today, Mother's Day, I called my mom to tell her how much I love her and look to her example often for guidance in my own life's journey. The conversation that followed was mostly the same as usual and then my Momma said something to me that left me utterly speechless.

Momma told me that she looks up to me because of my bravery and my adventurous spirit.

Wait...what?!

Recently, I went through a divorce and decided that I needed (and wanted) to sell my house and leave the state of Oklahoma and find adventure in Eastern Michigan. I have family on the other side of the state and I have been in love with the idea of living in the Detroit area since I was a young kid. So... I did it.

I sold my house and large stuff, gave away more stuff, and then packed up the rest. I put my 22 year old daughter, elderly dog, toddler dog, and myself into the Ford pickup and set course for the birthplace of Motown... Motor City!

I have allowed my PTSD to turn me into a social hermit of late and it's time for drastic measures to help thwart my youngest daughter from the same trap. It's like a river, constantly in motion. Which could be slow and peaceful, filled with eddy and whirlpools, or turbulent and rapid. Life for me has become a journey to be able to thrive on that river as it comes and changes. This is what I can do with my daughter until she feels confident to do it on her own.

I never thought of this to be particularly brave. I certainly never expected my most respected mentor and hero to tell me that they look to my actions and choices from which they draw inspiration!

Best Mother's Day gift ever. Thank you, Momma. I love you so very much.