Triggerbug - The Great Mammon

(by идём в тишине)

reblog for AUTISM!!!

growing up as a cis girl the patriarchy told me “you’re a girl because of the way you were born, there is nothing you can do about this, you have no say in your gender” and i hated being a girl because it wasn’t my choice it was a prison and the trans community told me “you’re a girl because you say so, your view of yourself is the most important thing, if you change your mind that would be ok” and it made me proud to be a girl and feel empowered in my gender and i wasn’t trapped anymore and then terfs come along and tell me “you’re a girl because of the way you were born, there is nothing you can do about this, you have no say in your gender (but like in a woke way)” and they somehow expect me to be on their side?

18 years ago you held me in your arms and made me a promise.

You made me a promise to always be there for me and to love me.

To protect me.

You were there when I was in danger, but you weren’t there to protect me.

You claim that you would never do anything to hurt me.

But that doesn’t stop me from being afraid of being on the wrong side of your rage.

That doesn’t stop me from despairing over the fact that your children come second to your freedom.

A freedom that the ones you claim to love now pay the price for.

The sudden shift from loving father to creature of nightmares shook me to my core and left me fragmented and lost.

The memories playing on repeat in my head seem to drown out the world.

The feeling of terror so unlike anything I had ever experienced. 

I was blinded by my love for you and could not see beneath the mask you wore.

I always thought you were a light in the darkness; that you would guide rather than harm.

I will not give you the chance to prove me wrong twice. 

hi yall sorry ive been MIA I've been super busy with work and my thesis year summer work <33333 im not dead i just wanted to get off most socials so i could focus on that LOL everything was submitted today though so i let myself draw for fun yesterday

anyways guess what my brain has grabbed onto

Running into an old friend at the grocery store

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