I Am The Single Most Ugly Thing To Exist.

HOW DO I GO THROUGH WITH IT HOW DO I NOT BINGE HOW DO I NOT LOSE MOTIVATION IM SO SICK OF THIS CYCLE

How to keep going when you've lost motivation:

Remember why you started.

Think about how far you've come. It would be a waste to just give up now.

You do this because you can't stand the way you feel right now. Change for the better.

Every single decision you make will lead to a result. It could be a good one or a bad one. It's your choice.

It's gonna be hard for the first couple days, but your body gets used to it. It gets easier.

You'd feel like a failure if you just gave up and ended up back where you started.

You never feel good after binging.

You are strong af! You can do anything if you just try hard enough!

You deserve to love yourself.

You deserve to be happy.

When all this is over you'll feel proud of yourself and there is nothing better than that.

🌸 stay safe 🌸

I’m so ready to lose all my extra fat so I can start gaining even more muscle. The only thing standing in my way of being as perfect as I want to be is myself.

I can do this!

am i the only one who’s having trouble remembering things? i feel like my ed has caused my brain to go slower and it feels overcrowded all the time, i keep screwing up and saying incorrect things without even realizing it :/

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

Day 8

am I the only one that has those times where you literally have no motivation to go on. Everything is a burden and you feel heavy and loopy and you want to sleep your life away. The things you loved to once do become chores and the sunny days you used to adore now seem dull and your favourite food tastes like cardboard and your favourite song doesn’t make you sing along. It’s just scary but hey the show must go on...

i decided to start this diet but i didn’t like any of the photos that were on google so i made my own!

byee i used the wrong twt, its @/kailbs 😐😐

cr: annaolympiaa

more stealing from instagram credit in pic but these r super helpful!!! stay safe n hydrated