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whispers in the dark

han daewi x reader

warnings: fluff and angst (i honestly don’t know at this point, like it’s kinda sad but at the same time it’s not.. once you decide to read it you’ll understand), time skip (the characters are aged up a bit after goh tournament), spoilers??? but not really so don’t worry (as someone who’s caught up with the tgoh ik some readers are still pretty new to the tgoh so i didn’t write anything that would give away anything --maybe some verrrry subtle stuff --that i won’t give away-- if you’ve read up to the final arc, bc other than that my lips are sealed shut)

synopsis: all those nights when your boyfriend would come home late, he thinks you’re sound asleep as he spills every word about his day and love for you. until one night, when he says something that makes you come clean about what you’ve been up to.

No matter how many times you’ve done this --pretending to be sleep just to hear Daewi spill his honest feelings on the table in the dark-- it was always a challenge to keep your breathing even, your lips from smiling, your eyes from opening.

Of course, you’d be lying if you said you didn’t feel guilty. No, you felt so, so, so guilty that it made you want to come clean about everything. In all the years you’ve known your boyfriend, there was one thing you knew exceptionally well: he never really talks about his feeling or emotions. 

Sure, if he was feeling sentimental he always told you one of two things: “I missed you” or “I love you.” He never really said those two things in one sentence, surprisingly. Or if he knew you were feeling needy and clingy more than you usually did, he’d tell you the things you wanted to hear. Not what he wanted to say.

You never really minded it, really. He was more of a realist, rather than a romanticist like his friend Jin Mori.

The sound of the front door of your shared apartment door unlocking. The sound of his swift feet moving towards you without hesitation. The low swish of your bedroom door opening. His exhausted sigh from a long day his job demanded from him. The tap of his nail as it hit the buttons he was unbuttoning. The shuffling of clothes being discarded. The water from the shower head hitting the bathtub. All the sounds, it was beautiful to you. Daewi, he was beautiful.

You’ve grown to notice the way your boyfriend spoke since he began talking to you only a month ago. The soft intake of a breath as he moves from one word to another. His pitch changing when he said certain words like “want” and “this.” The soft vibrations he sends into the bed when he speaks. The low rumble of his voice as whispers to you, and you wonder if he realizes any of this.

“I’m home,” he mumbles routinely to you as he sits on the bed, back hunched as he dries his hair.

His voice, no matter how many times you’ve heard it, always made your heart speed up. It takes every ounce of you to calm it down. Even with your eyes closed, you didn’t want to out yourself. Especially since your back wasn’t facing towards him like it usually did.

Risking it, you open one eyelid. The only light coming into the room was the bathroom, and you managed to make out his broad and sturdy form. Daewi’s back muscle rippled and flexed as he continued to dry his hair. He sported nothing but sweatpants. 

Daewi groans as he pushes himself up, towel over his head as he goes to turn off the light. Once he begins to turn back to the bed, you immediately shut your eye, putting your best act of sleep. You go of out of your way to make sure your arms and legs are in a position that only looks natural when sleeping.

The bed dips and then sinks under his weight. Daewi lays on his side, staring at your sleeping form even if he can’t see you all that well. You can’t see it but the corner of his mouth quirks up as he pushes the strands that’s fallen onto your face away before carefully skimming his lips to your forehead, trailing down to your cheek and then lip.

“See? I made it home again, just as I promised you, didn’t I?” His curled finger skims the cheek he just kissed, as if to brand it there, before dropping it down to his side. He never missed a day to say that to you.

Lately, with the physical demand of his job, you had expressed anxieties and concerns to Daewi a month ago. His job usually put him in danger, and as much as you know how important his job is right now, you can’t help but worry about his well being too.

“As someone who cares about you, don’t you think I deserve to worry about you?” You couldn’t look at him, not with this heavy atmosphere so early in the morning. You were leaning against the kitchen counter, waiting for the water to boil to make coffee for the both of you.

“Hey,” Daewi said, spreading his both his feet shoulder-width-apart so he was eye level with you, his large hands gently cupping your face in them, calloused thumbs running small circles against your cheek. “Can you look at me?”

You wait for only a moment before holding his gaze. “Daewi...” you sighed, not really knowing how to go about the conversation. What was the right way to word it? Instead, all you can do at the moment it take put your smaller hand over his.

“Tell me what your worried about, (Y/n), so I can understand.”

“I’m just scared,” you told him truthfully, something you both valued. “What if something happens to you while you’re doing you job. Something I can’t do anything about?”

Daewi looks away before looking back at you, trying to put on a smile of comfort. “That won’t happen. I went through The God of High School, didn’t I?”

You sigh out a laugh. “Yeah, so did I. You beat my team to the pulp.”

“Ha...” Daewi laughs as well, going in for a quick peck on the lips before pulling you into him. “How could I forget? That was when I fell in love with you. So try not to worry so much, okay?”

You shake your head against his shirt, listening to the steady thumps of his heart. “I can’t help but think that one day, I’ll get a call from Jin Mori in the middle of the night telling me that you’ll never come home. How am I supposed to deal with that information knowing that that is what your job demands from you?”

“That won’t happen. I promise you, (Y/n), that I’ll come home every night.”

“You promise?” you ask, mumbling it into his chest, fisting your hand into his cotton t-shirt.

“Of course,” Daewi says, putting his chin atop your head, pulling you tighter into the hug.

“(Y/n),” your boyfriend hums to himself, turning onto his back. “I had a pretty rough day today. Though, if I think more on it, it’s not due to Nox, but rather Jin Mori.”

You practically can see him close his eyes in disbelief.

He’s quiet for a long time, making you a bit nervous. Perhaps today was physically draining for him and he’s knocked out. You don’t want to be greedy, but you want to hear more of his sultry voice.

“I’m lying,” he whispers more to himself than to you. “I... I had a rough day because of Nox.”

Something about tonight felt weird. You just couldn’t place what it was just yet.

“I had thought, while facing Nox, that I was going to break my promise to you even if I didn’t want to.”

Your heart stops for a second. It was such a raw and honest confess, and for a split moment, you wish he would just lie to you. It was getting harder to stay composed

“If... if it wasn’t for Jin Mori today, I don’t think I would be laying here, in this tranquil home of ours, with you. I almost died today, and it made me realize how much I’ll miss loving you if I was gone.”

Your throat was feeling heavy, and it was damn hard trying to push that choking feeling down. Good god, he was being so sentimental and you wanted to join him. Was this the same Daewi you first met all those years ago?

Daewi chuckled softly, running a hand up and down his chest. “I know that you know that I’m not good with my emotions when it comes to romance, so I’m grateful I was able to learn along the way with you. Thank you for the patience you’ve shown me, for loving me, for being there with me.”

You hear him stifle a yawn. And as much as you know how important sleep is, you want him to keep letting everything he’s bottled up for the past five years out into the open.

“And I know that I don’t say it often, but I love you. I really do love you, (Y/n). I love how fast you accepted me for who I was. I love how soft you feel against all my calloused hands. I love how you keep your nails short so you can keep practicing martial arts with me. I love how much you hate it when I wake you up too early in the morning. I love how it drives you crazy when you hear someone chewing obnoxiously loud. I love how embarrassed you get when you do something embarrassing. And I’m not going to break my promise with you ”

A pregnant pause. 

Daewi takes a trembling intake of a breath, something you definitely did not expect from him. “God, if you could hear what I’m about to say right now, you would think I am a coward, but I want my last name to be yours soon, (Y/n).”

Your body goes rigid and you don’t even care if he notices. In that moment, everything seems to stop. Your body is hot. Your heart burning. You can’t help but open your eyes to look at the very man you love.

“I want to marry you. I want you to be Han (Y/n), so let’s get married soon.”

Seeming to be satisfied with how much he’s spilled to you, Daewi turns towards you, expecting you to be asleep. But when he finds you wide awake, with wide eyes, that are staring at him with such a passionate gaze, he can’t help but stifle out nonsense as he tries to cover up his burning face. “I thought you were asleep.”

“Who said I was asleep?” Hearing your own voice scared you a bit. You didn’t actually think through what you were going to say once he found you awake.

He blinks at you. Once.Twice. In disbelief. “H-How much did you hear?”

“All of it,” you whisper gently, afraid to break the atmosphere he built. “Everything.”

“Everything?” he says, flabbergasted. He wanted his soul to leave his body right now. “Every conversation from then to now?”

You reach out and take the hand covering his face away so you can see him clearly. “I did.” You kissed his warm fingertips and his right eye before pecking his lips.

Daewi lets you take it, not once, not twice, but thrice. 

“Do you promise? With what you just said?”

He wraps a hand around your waist before pulling you into him, hiding his face into your chest. God, he missed this. Missed laying in bed with you when you’re awake. Missed your embrace while you’re awake. He missed being with you, alone, in the dark, with each other awake.

“I do,” he says confidently, pulling you into a kiss. 

Are you doing request?

As of right now, I am not. I’m still new to this whole thing, but I’m hoping to take requests very soon once I get things down.

shopping au

han daewi, commissioner q, jin mori x g/n reader

synopsis: daewi, mori, and q wants you to cook something for them. in order to do so though, you need to go shopping. inspired by this 

warnings: none, just fluff. they were a bit ooc since i’m still analyzing them and getting to know them as a character. hope you still enjoy tho.

a/n: the reader is g/n, i was about to make it f!reader, but i realized that i didn’t even use any feminine adjectives, so if i made any mistakes pls kindly point them out (this is my first time writing an au and a reader that is g/n).

han daewi:

ends up doing all the shopping ngl even tho you’re the one he asked to cook (might do all the cooking too, you never know)

bc have you seen him? he cooked a whole ass five course meal for q for FREE, so believe me when i say that this man is more than qualified to cook

even before getting to the store itself, you both already agree on you pushing the cart since he’s the one who knows what to buy. it actually ends up with you guys alternating tho

you guys ever seen those young couples being so cheesy and cringey together? yeah, you guys are nothing like that. it’s just so calming to be around him and talking to him is just so easy

like: “and i kept telling mori not to --hey, what do you think about this?” he shows you something

you’re too busy being captivated by his voice and the story he’s telling you that you end up just nodding in compliance even tho you don’t even know what he’s holding up. like he could’ve showed you a can of cat food and you would’ve still said yes

i’m telling you, he does NOT go for the cheap stuff. this man be banking with all the part time jobs he took up. again I REPEAT: HE GOES FOR TOP QUALITY

you love it when the things daewi wants to buy are on the highest shelf. watching him stretch up to grab it is eye candy for you. 

i feel like he’s the type of man who’s a bit conservative. he’s always sporting that typical button up shirt and dress pants that covers his beautiful physique. you know what he looks like without clothes, but still, you feel like he doesn’t show you enough of his skin 

so i’m telling you, you are memorizing the way his muscles ripple underneath that button up, the way it hikes up and shows that hip to you and peep that v line and storing it into a jar for later use bc this man thicc thicc nobody can tell me otherwise

if he finds something he knows you’ll like, he won’t hesitate to put it into the cart with or without your knowledge

“hey, don’t you like these type of snacks?” boom, he puts it into the cart before you can say yes

y-you’re the snacc but you don’t say that

shopping with him doesn’t take too long bc he knows what he wants and doesn’t get sidetracked unlike the other two

when you get to the check out, the cashier (who’s a lovely elderly woman) can’t help but comment:

“oh~, are you guys married? newly weds?”

akjweualala you’re a blushing mess

daewi just blinks. once. twice. before softly smiling at the senior. “no, she’s just my girlfriend. we’re not quite there yet.”

you end up getting a discount from her bc of a promise daewi made with her

“young man, i’m willing to give you a discount if you make a promise to me.”

“of course. what is it?” spoiler alert: this man does NOT go back on his promises, he will go out of his way to keep it

“the next time i see you two here, i intend to see rings on your fingers.”

“deal,” he said without hesitation

cue jpg.you glitching

you’ve managed to finally calm down when you guys finally get inside the car

“did really lie just to get that discount?”

he puts a hand being your seat, turning his head back as he backs up the car. and then he looks at you. “who said anything about lying?”

q:

pls help this man. he cannot cook to save his life. (seriously, before daewi cooked for him and before he met you, this man only ate from vending machines, instant food, or if he was feeling good he’d eat out at a fast food chain)

this man is broke af, his account is always negative. how could you forget the amount of debt he’s currently swimming in?

so when he tells you he wants you to cook for him tonight, yk you’re the one who’s going to pay (even if he insists that he will do it)

when you guys are at the store, it’s a mess.

you never really believed that outdated saying of how men don’t know what to buy when they go grocery shopping, but see q choose an item that was on clearance over an item that was obviously better made you tick

bc he always. goes. for. the. cheapest. stuff.

you both end up arguing over which two similar items from two different brands should you guys buy for ten minutes

“q, put away your joker right now. there’s no need to summon your borrowed power over something like this.”

he doesn’t put it away, at least not yet. “i always buy this brand. it saves me money.”

“i’m the one doing the cooking. and will you pls put your joker away? you’re going to get us kicked out of the store.” you send him a deadly glare.

he puts it away immediately, knowing how scary you can get even as a non-power borrower. he always gets turned on by that. “but you can’t buy that (y/n)!”

you deadpan. “q, it’s only ten cents more. and the quality is better.”

“that ten cents could add up in the future!”

you sigh. “babe, i’m the one paying.”

with that, he follows you like a dog with a tail btw its legs. he insists on just pushing the cart from now on. he may look like a tough guy (which he is) but he’s a complete simp when it comes to his s/o bc spoiler alert: he’d do anything to keep you safe

you end up buying a lot of things for him bc yk his refrigerator is like a desert. plus, the first time you ever came over to his apartment, you were expecting a good healthy dinner (nothing too much) when he exceeded your expectations by making you instant ramen.

i feel like he’ll most like pull a cigarette out of nowhere in the most unconventional times

“q, what are you doing?!”

“taking a drag.”

“this aisle is highly flammable! and the store prohibits smoking!” (lol, do food aisles even have anything that can be flammable???) “ik you want to look cool, but i’m your s/o, you don’t need to show off.”

i firmly believe that he is a slow walker, trailing ten feet behind you, hands in pocket, as if he were at an art museum but i mean, you’re the best art he’s seen

yk how some stores offer sample booths, q will shamelessly go to them. bc if its FREE, how can he say no

will try to persuade you to go to the self-checkout

“q, we have more than twenty items. we can’t.”

“of course we can. i’m a commissioner, once they know who i am they’ll-”

you’re already on the move, pushing the cart to a checkout stand

when he sees the amount you have to pay, his jaw drops. how could he just willingly let you pay $62.98?

his jaw drops “(y-y/n), it’s too expensive. maybe we should put some stuff back. we can just ration our foods.”

“q, babe, i love you, but’s sixty-two dollars isn’t that much, pls calm down.”

his glasses glints, realizing that he’ll have to persuade park mujin to give him a raise even tho his salary has been cut more times than he can count

he’ll most definitely start to take notes from you on how you save money

on the drive home, you’re going over the things you both need to do at home to prep for dinner. to get the water boiling right away. to not forget to wash your hands. to-

you glance at him quickly since you’re the one driving. “what is it?”

“i’ll promise to pay you back.”

you laugh. “you can pay me back by helping me prep dinner.”

he raises an arrogant eyebrow. “alright. then i’ll also help you with dessert.”

jin mori:

it’s a total mess

even before you get to the store.

he just can’t decide what he wants to eat. how can he when his s/o agreed to cook him anything he asked?

“how about black bean noodles?”

“from scratch?” you asked. 

“yea? you’ll really make it from scratch?”

you shrug, smiling. “i don’t mind.”

“no no no no, i can’t let you do that. maybe some salt peppered shrimp?”

“sure.”

he’s just a mess. it’s been so long since someone’s made him dinner ever since his grandpa left.

getting to the store is also a big mess.

bc you guys end up arguing for five minutes on who should push the cart. in the end, you both just push it together with him behind you, hands next to yours on the bar, chin on top of your head

it’s kinda cheesy, and you’re getting stares, but mori has no shame!

one thing you’ve taken note of as you shop more often with your boyfriend is that he tends to hum or talk to himself when he stands in front of an aisle

is the type to tease you when you can’t reach a certain item. he loves to see you struggle and find a solution

“mori, can you get that can for me?”

“hm?” he hums, reaching for it only to grab the item next to it. “this one?”

you roll your eyes, knowing that he’s playing with you. 

he’s kinda like a kid. if he sees something that he likes he’ll bring it to you, asking if you would be fine if he put it into the cart. 

you’ll most definitely end up with a lot of things that aren’t on the list, but you’re fine with it. which results in a two hour shopping spree

if mori is pushing the cart by himself, i feel like he’s the type to push it in the middle of the aisle

also pushes the cart like a nascar driver, he really do be drifting when turning the corner. but he knows when to restrain himself. (cue flashback to his bicycle)

he listens intently to what you have to say, taking in every word and committing them to memory. especially when you’re telling him that when you’re not home with him, he should still try to cook up a good healthy meal to keep him in shape and grow stronger.

he offers to pay bc he believes that the best thing he could do since you’re cooking him a homemade meal

you set down some of the bags onto the table, mori getting the majority. he’s quiet, which you didn’t expect since he’s been excited the whole afternoon

“what is it?”

he looks at you. “i can’t wait to show you to my grandpa. i know he’ll love you.”

loll what did i just write. i’ll probably write ilypo and seungchul next, who knows

Lucifer:

Also Lucifer:

The audacity

the lack of content for the god of high school astounds me...

might just start writing for it just to satisfy myself

ok but imagine this:

tendou satori dressing up as hisoka morow for halloween. or vice versa. or both of them dressing up as each other.

Hatori really said:

To Shigure

I'm not even a Bryce stan but DAMN does he look fine wearing that hat backwards with sunglasses in that softball uniform. 🤤👀

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL QUOTES FROM BTS’ LOVE YOURSELF TEAR

SINGULARITY

“Have I lost myself or have I gained you”

FAKE LOVE 

“For you, I could pretend like I was happy when I was sad. For you, I could pretend like I was strong when I was hurt. For you, I could pretend like I was strong when I was hurt”

“I wish love was perfect as love itself”

THE TRUTH UNTOLD

“You know that I can’t show you me. Give you me. I can’t show you a ruined part of myself.  Once again I put a mask again and go to see you. 

But I still want you”

134340

“If I could, I wanted to ask: Why you did what you did, why you chase me away. I still revolve around you without a name. The goodbye is colorless, the colors that don’t change”

“My season was always you. My cold heart is negative 248 degrees. It stopped the day you erased me”

PARADISE

Life’s long so take it slow. Now we don’t run without even knowing the destination. It’s alright to not have a dream. All the breaths you breathe is already in paradise . It’s alright to stop.

“We borrow dreams from others like a debt”

LOVE MAZE

“Love ain’t a business. Rather like a fitness”

“Our own mountain, our own climb, our own world, our own heart. Travel toward the exit. Our held hands will be the map”

MAGIC SHOP

“On days where I hate myself for being me, on days where I want to disappear forever. Let’s make a door. It’s in your heart”

“At the end of my despair. You’re the last reason for me who was standing at the edge of the cliff”

“You gave me the best of me So you’ll give you the best of you”

AIRPLANE PT 2

  “ I still don’t know how to live well. So, today as well, we just go”

ANPANMAN

“I don’t have biceps or pecs. I don’t have a supercar like Batman. The ideal hero is my fantasy. But all I can give you is Anpan” 

“I’m scared of falling and of letting you down. But, even if it takes up all my strength. I will be sure that I stay by your side” 

SO WHAT

“Somebody call me right. Somebody call me wrong. I’m not gonna care about it. Why don’t you do so as well”

“90% of your worries are an imaginary swamp that you created. Just go instead of worrying, Don’t get scared, cheer up. Shout it out, So what”

OUTRO: TEAR

“To me, you were once my dear. But now you’re merely a bitter beer”

“Although we used to talk about forever. Now we break each other without mercy. Although we thought that we dreamed the same dream. That dream has finally become a dream”

“We walked towards the same place. But this place becomes our last”

| I choose some of what I thought were the most beautiful quotes in the album even if each word in it is splendid. I hope you will enjoy it.  | Trans by genius.com