Even If Your Life Sucks Right Now, You Can Do Things To Make It Suck Less. Learn To Make Your Favorite

microdosing on listening to music by having the same line from a song playing in my head for days straight

“Everything is burning, my soul, body, outside, inside, heart, flesh. Do you understand? Do you really understand?”

María Casares, from a letter to Albert Camus written c. March 1952

— June Gehringer, ‘I get so jealous of euthanized dogs’ (via lunamonchtuna)

[i want you to tell me i might never recover]

— Jay Vespertine (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

“There were lots of ways to love someone, I guessed, both by remembering and forgetting.“

— Sarah Dessen, The Rest of the Story

I keep getting harassed for my abusive past actions even though i'm trying my best to recover and said sorry, it makes me feel sometimes like I'm unfixable and just destined to be a monster forever, and that I deserve to feel in pain, how do I move on from that?

You aren't a monster or incapable of change. All you can really do though is keep your side of the street clean; keep doing better, and give yourself grace. We are allowed to be kind to ourselves, even when no one else is. We can't change the past, and we can't change how it affects other people, nor their response to what happened. I know it's a sucky thing to accept, and accepting that doesn't make any of those permanent, dehumanizing judgements true.

You are who you are today; not who you were before you learned better. Set boundaries as you need to, and remember there will always be people who will support and love you. People are complicated and far from perfect. There is a future for you, and that future can be bright and peaceful. Just stick around and keep going, and you'll find it. ♡

Sylvia Plath, aged 22, in a letter to her mother (dated Sunday, 9 January 1955)

Internal Persecutor

An Internal Persecutor is an alter who's persecutory behaviors target the system itself, whether it be other alters or otherwise internally. [An Internal Persecutor typically doesn't target those outside the body.]

coined by @destructionsys !! flag by @littlest-bugz [aka us!]

BASIC COLOR MEANINGS

Dark Red ; The negative feelings associated with being a persecutor

Medium Red ; The pain caused to the system by the persecutory behaviors

Bright Red ; The persecutory behaviors the persecutor participates in

Black ; The targeting of the system

White ; The safety those on the outside have

Light Grey ; Representing the system as a whole, all alters in the system

Dark Grey ; Representing the pain inflicted on other alters of the system

Darkest Grey ; Representing the negative feelings towards the system.

Someone: *Breathes*

Me: If you don’t shut up, I will break every bone in your fucking body.