1. I Am So Sorry That You’re Finding Out This Way. I Wanted To Tell All Of This To You In Person, But

1. I am so sorry that you’re finding out this way. I wanted to tell all of this to you in person, but I was too scared. 2. When you’re done reading this, I want you to burn it—I don’t want any evidence that I ever wrote something like this. 3. Did you know that the moon is made of debris from a massive collision between two planetoids? Not only did something so beautiful come from a disaster, it was by pure chance. 4.5 billion years ago, two planetoids lost in the massive Solar System found each other, and then destroyed each other, only to create something beautiful. Ten years ago, I met you. 4. I have never known the feeling of being enough; I was always either too much, or not nearly enough. I hope when you think of me, it only brings a smile to your face. I hope I gave you enough of myself that you never regret meeting me. 5. When I was five, I almost drowned, and didn’t go swimming again for three years. When I swam for the first time again, I jumped into the deep end without hesitation. Despite my past, I was reckless with myself, and as my lungs filled with water, and my throat burned from the chlorine, I didn’t regret my actions. Sometimes, you have to jump, even if you run the risk of drowning. This is me jumping.

five lines from a suicide note or a love letter (16/30) by (ds)