Study Date ❤️

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To the moon and back

you’ve been my girlfriend in my head since

٠࣪⭑ The first time we kissed ٠࣪⭑

Pairing : Xavier x fem!reader

cw : nsfw, smut , friends with benefits to lovers , slightly coworkers to lovers if you squint, fluffy , they’re madly in love with each other.

Xavier’s hands grip your hips , as he pistols into you from behind.

Your hands gripping the sofa for dear life trying to cling onto any consciousness you have left.

Rough hard thrusts mixed with sensual rolls of his hips, passionate intentionful movements.

That’s what you loved most about sex with Xavier that every movement felt intentional like he was always trying to convey something to you.

“your almost there star, doing so good for me, pussys clenching so hard trying to milk my cock huh you is that what you want my star girl”

“ please Xavier , cum inside me need all of you”

He nips at your ear letting out the most desperate moan you’ve ever heard. Sending you both over the edge

Your walls contract, pulsating and milking everything out he has to offer.

Xavier pulls out slowly , a string of his seed following catching his attention.

Running his fingers between your folds his cum slowly seeping out already , he pushes it back in you, leaving his two fingers in for a moment longer almost plugging you to make sure there was no other option but for you to be bred.

“pushing that come back in so hard you’d think you want third partner with us on our missions”

You chuckle, moaning when he wiggles his fingers inside you a bit.

“It wouldn’t be awful having another one of you to watch over during our missions” Xavier flops down on the bed leaning over and kissing your forehead in the process.

Sex with Xavier wasn’t one of those world wind stories you had always seen in the movies.

You two had been assigned partners on missions , clicking immediately your sassy nature and Xavier’s calm and collected demeanor. It had just been colleagues getting along at one point.

But then you started to notice overtime Xavier was everywhere, he wasn’t close with anyone else at work and he’d taken a liking into following you around. As soon as you’d walk in putting your bag on your desk, Xavier would have two coffees in hand one for you and one for him.

“ how’s your hand” Xavier examines the cut from afar

“eh, been better, that wander was real asshole hm” you giggle.

Xavier nods firmly a glint in his eyes that he agrees.

“ I have some cream I can drop off if you’d like”

You agree, mostly because you always see the serious side of Xavier it would be nice to see what this guy is really like outside of work.

a knock on your door comes at around 9 o’clock

You open the door, Xavier bag in hand with a cozy white oversized hoodie on appears.

“ sorry for dropping it off a little late , I overslept” he says apologetically sleepiness still in his eyes as he rubs them.

“ you’re completely fine Xavier you didn’t even have to do this in the first place, but isn’t it a little late I mean you still have to get back to your apartment .. you really didn’t have to come all the way over here”

“ I live next door” he smiles as if he’s dropping the most casual news.

“ WHAT”

And that’s when the lines started to blur, movie nights at your home, cooking lessons at his normal friendly activity, until one cooking lesson ended with you on the counter and him in between your legs. But it wasn’t like sex had taken over whatever relationship you two had going on. Xavier still came over to do mundane things like watch movies and etc, but you’d noticed him taking on more of a responsibility with you . If your trash was outside your apartment to be picked up. He’d take it down on the way with his. Or cleaning up around the house. But you’d just taken it as you two naturally getting more comfortable with each other.

“ alright princess , up up” Xavier had suddenly gotten off you lifting you bridal style heading towards the bathroom.

Sitting you on the toilet so you could go pee.

You look at him as he turns away face towards the corner.

The same man that had just blown your back out on the couch, was turned away to give you privacy as you peed ?

You giggle to yourself a bit he truly was the sweetest.

“ all done ?” He asks back still turned away.

“ yep” you reply

He then passes you by to turn on the water of the bath tub, after a couple seconds checking to make sure the temperature is right he gets in signaling for you to sit between his legs.

Between his legs you slightly turn your head up at him.

“ you know, you really don’t have to do this I know how hard being a hunter can be. we work the same job, I mean isn’t sex supposed to take the pressure and responsibility off a little, you don’t need to take care of me” you squeeze his hand

For a moment you see the wheels turning in his head trying to process everything you had said

He quietly replies

“ precious things need to be taken care of” squeezing your hand back.

Your heart flutters a little at his response was it bad to feel like maybe just maybe this could be more than friends.

Work had been extremely exhausting for you lately not just on your body but on your mind as well

You’d decided to take a day off just a mental health day feeling like you really needed it.

You planned to lay in the bed all day wrapped in blankets and a box of cookies watching your favorite dramas.

At around 8 am you hear your door unlocking, “that’s odd” you think to yourself. the only person who has the key is Xavier who should already be at work.

To lazy to get up and check you stay in bed it’s either Xavier or a serial killer and at this point if it’s a serial killer you’re just gonna accept your fate. From the bed you see Xavier peeking in at the door frame.

He’d brought your favorite cookies and an arcade plush the special addition pink alien you’d been wanting, which you knew had to have taken him ages since the claw machine wasn’t his forte.

He puts the bag next to your bed as he climbs under the sheets wrapping himself around you.

“so this is what happens when you have sex with the sleepy guy you go on missions with, you pick up his habits” he says jokingly

You giggle and then those giggles swiftly turn into soft sobs, sobs of exhaustion.

“ I know Angel , I know” Xavier says kissing the crown of your head.

“I want you to hold me like this forever” you whisper sleepy eyes in and out of consciousness finally closing shut.

Xavier’s eyes soften “you are my forever”

Your eyes flutter open, shifting in bed to wrap yourself tighter around Xavier.

Except, he isn’t there

You sit up slightly looking around, he’s in the living room cleaning up around your apartment

He spots you , quickly putting down the broom he walks quickly over to your room.

“do you need anything princess?”

His domestic nature making your pussy throb you reply.

“ just you”

“ anything for you princess” climbing onto the bed pulling you closer to him.

He works his way down your neck sucking and biting.

“ Xavier” you whimper his name foot teasing the draw string of the sweatpants he’s wearing trying to tug them down.

He groans into your ear , suddenly tugging the sweatpants off, sitting back on his hunches dick glossy with precum

“ you see what you do to me princess” he says pumping his cock

You pull off your sweat shorts you had been wearing to reveal your folds , hand in between them showing him how wet he had made you.

“ just from watching you clean the apartment” you utter small whimpers between your words.

“ my dirty girl” Xavier moves closer to you

You wrap your legs around him locking him into place

“ need you inside me Xavier, need your cock”

His hands gripping your hips he pushes inside your wet cunt.

He doesn’t think he’ll ever get sick of that initial entrance of his cock , your gummy walls contracting on his cock with how much your pussy wants to milk him but all at the same time your pussy is so tight it doesn’t want to let him in.

“ ohh— Xavier , oh my— holy shit” your head rolls back.

He’s in and out of your pussy at a rhythm that’s unrecognizable.

It doesn’t take long for you to feel your insides unraveling with every thrust.

Your orgasm so close you can taste it on the tip of your tongue.

Oh— right there , I’m so close you moan

“gotta fill you up princess, show me how much you love it , show me how much you love this cock”

“ Fuck— Xavier .. I love you”

That’s all it takes for him, unexpectedly you feel his hips shutter

his body tenses up , his eyes go wide , a choked moan leaving his lips

He had came at you saying you loved him..

Spurt after spurt of warm seed fill your pussy, so much that you would’ve thought this man hadn’t cum in months even though you know for a fact he had.

Hips bucking naturally like aftershocks of what you had just done.

Your realization of what is happening is what takes you over the edge , pussy contracting on his cock that’s still actively spurting come. As you squirt all over his lower belly.

Xavier flops down on the bed next to you.

The room is filled with heavy breathing from the both of you.

Xavier reaches down caressing your hand although he’s trying gather himself as well his instincts always comes back to taking care of you

You both just lay like that for a while.

Until you look over at him thoughts of your relationship fill your head as well as what just happened.

“ Xavier , do you love me”

He turns his head to face yours

“ to the moon and back”

You squeeze his hand

“ are you in love with me” you quip

“madly”

You look at him through your eyelashes

“do you ever find it weird we have sex , you clean my apartment , you stay at my home more than at yours , you take my trash out , you know me more than I know myself but we arent dating”

“maybe to others , but you’ve been my girlfriend in my head since the first time we kissed”

Your eyes tear up

You smack his chest, as his eyes change looking like a worried puppy dog

You sniffle “ why didn’t you tell me that I was falling in love with you this whole time and I thought you thought we were friends with benefits.” you whine kicking your feet

He giggles rubbing your hand

“I wanted you to realize on your own, because even if you didn’t feel the same way I would rather live my life in a never ending circle of friends with benefits with you, than not have you in my life at all.”

“ should I ask you formally” he gleams

You nod excitedly

“ y/n will you be my girlfriend”

Epilogue

You and Xavier walk hand and hand into the arcade

Most likely scaring every child in there with your fierce aura.

Pointing at the newest addition of the alien now coming in blue color with embroidered flowers on him.

“ we’re not leaving here without him” you look at Xavier

You and Xavier now sit on the bench waiting for the bus you excitedly clutching the blue alien arm hooked to Xavier.

You’d been giving him smooches constantly after winning you the little blue alien, which took him 7 hours and countless tries.

“ your welcome baby” he kisses you back tiredly

“ but I do have something to say”

You turn your head smiling ready to listen

“how could you ever think we were friends with benefits, I mean I’ve never heard of a fuck buddy spending hours to get a pink alien from an arcade”

“the same way you came inside me countless times before we ever hit girlfriend boyfriend status” you retort quickly

“ fair point” he says kissing your cheek as you two walk hand and hand onto the bus.

Special things I thing LAD men are attracted to <3

All cutsy type, no horny

Zayne: lips, he likes watching you talk, chew, apply lipstick/lip balm. His favorite part in your face <3, he loves to just admire it, kissing it even more. If you visit him at work, get ready for a quick make-out sesh :3

Rafayel: hands, he'd buy rings and bracelets all the time for you. Caressing your hand whenever his own are free, he NEEDSS to hold your hand if you're walking outside, sleeping or cuddling. Holding his beloved bride's hand is his favorite part of the day :)

Xavier: Tummy <3, hear me out on this: xavier likes chubby and fat girls. Laying on your stomach and caressing it, squeezing and biting, even kneading it! He has slept on it before, will sleep on it again. Probably was one of the best naps of his life

Sylus: eyes. By now alot of us noticed that he likes eye contact, but even if you're not looking at him he will admire your eyes. He has a photo of them on his phone and throughout the day he takes it out just to admire it. Sometimes when cuddling you just hold eye contact for a few minutes in silence since he likes it so much >///< (author gets flustered by eye contact very easily)

Caleb: your back. He likes it. He loves the front even more, but something about your back drives him crazy. He'd offer to massage your back at any given chance, he likes hugging you from behind, he likes running his hand over each swell and dip of your back. If your sleeping or cuddling, his hand is mindlessly running up and down your spine as if trying to memorize it

Maybe THIS dose of ibuprofen will be the one that fixes me

The rise in the popularity of Love and Deepspace (which, for brevity, I’ll be abbreviating to LADS) is incredibly interesting to me, particularly when we analyse it in conjunction with broad social trends within dating and relationships. I think that the uptick in AI Companionship and how women engage with it reflects a deeper set of issues pervading relationships and intimacy with women who experience attraction to men. Moreover, I think that this does speak to a generalised divestment - or, at the very least, re-examining - from previous views and approaches to heterosexual relationships. Personally, I believe that this is developing as a reaction to the broader uptick in misogyny.

While LADS is often dismissed as simply a ‘Gooner Game’ - that is, essentially, pornography for women - I think that such a dismissal is both inaccurate in terms of the game’s content as well as the motives and draw experience by its playerbase. It’s not entirely incorrect to point out that, yes, there is a degree of suggestive content in the game, particularly in the dating/relationship sides of the game, but LADS is much deeper than that. The game presents a self-directed approach to players: players interested in the story and universe of LADS can focus on that, whereas those players who wish to prioritise the ‘dating simulator’ aspects of the game are free to do so - while the dating aspect is, admittedly, much of the draw, presenting it as solely a dating game is, really, quite inaccurate.

Moreover, I think the way such a criticism is levelled is far more telling about the critics than the players; fundamentally, it suggests a refusal to engage with the game by simply writing it off as nothing more than just simple fluff met to titillate touch-starved players. Plus, the fact that this criticism has been, broadly, made by men is rather revealing. Firstly, it’s quite telling that a game that heavily targets, and is played primarily by, women receives these critiques, whereas arguably far more ‘explicit’ games that target men do not - or at least not from these same critics. Secondly, I think it’s rather telling that a game where the Love Interests are primarily approaching the player/main character through a lens of respectful attraction receives such heavy criticism from men.

But what truly fascinates me is the draw of LADS; as previously mentioned, I think that LADS represents a sort of ‘Heterosexual Idealism’ - that is, the idea of a heterosexual relationship where the man genuinely loves, respects, and cares for his girlfriend. And I think this speaks to a broader trend in society; we see more and more women turning to these types of ‘escapist’ content - such as LADS, CharacterAI, Dark Romance, and similar content - that, arguably, fulfills this Heterosexual idealism in response to the resurgence of misogyny in society, particularly in terms of dating.

To put it bluntly, as more and more men demonstrate themselves to be incapable of being a proper partner - often reacting with blatant misogyny when called out for such failings - I think we’ve seen a growing divestment from women. Relationships with men can be perilious, toxic, traumatising, and, unfortunately, too-often abusive. Naturally, it’s understandable that many women would choose to simply refocus their time and decentre men from their lives.

And this is where LADS comes in. LADS, and AI Boyfriends broadly, offers a sense of fulfillment for this desire for emotional intimacy with men while often avoiding the pitfalls that come with it. Women don’t have to worry about Xavier, Zayne, Rafayel, Sylus, nor Caleb abusing them, manipulating them, cheating on them, or anything else - they represent a simultaneously wish fulfillment of Heterosexual Idealism while also highlighting how, truly, low the bar is. Really, do the LADS boys truly represent an unattainable ideal, or do they simply represent the idea of a man who consistently goes above the bare minimum? It wouldn’t be impossible for a man to be what LADS players desire - sensitive, kind, emotionally intelligent, respectful, and supportive - it’d simply require consistent effort. But such a request is too often met with anger, resentment, mockery, or dismissal.

Which creates the question: if an AI Boyfriend can offer a sufficient simulacra of a relationship beyond what many men are willing to do, is it worth it? Is it worth letting oneself be wooed by the digital embrace of Artificial Intelligence?

It seems many women have, to some extent, answered yes.

But from this comes another question: how do we bridge the human desire for physical intimacy with the intangibility of AI? Currently, while AI has made admittedly shocking strides in advancement in terms of communication ability, memory, and realism, it is still bound by the limitations of the black mirror of computer screens.

“Must have reliable transportation” = “this is how we legally discriminate against poor people who take the bus”

Ok, question. I’m not a huge fan of the MC in Love and Deepspace. Does anyone feel the same way? Her personality is so off putting that I haven’t gotten that far into the main story line because of that. Considering all that. I want to create a few fanfics with an MC with a different and cooler personality. Her position would be the same though.

I’ll cite my evidence for why I dislike her so much (Disclaimer: I’ve seen spoilers and some of Rafayel’s cards):

We’ll start with Xavier. Poor Xavier. He’s one of my favorites. Unproblematic sleepy boi for the most part. How the MC treats him grates me, especially at the beginning.

The second time they meet (Chapter 3), they’re in an active danger zone. MC gets a sprained ankle and Xavier patches her up. Then, he takes out a ton of Wanders to clear the path for her. That’s very thoughtful. Afterward, MC starts to grill him on his identity. I’m not really sure why. I can only assume it’s a mix between him being mysterious about his identity and his insane skill (it’s called being private, but MC didn’t get the memo). She proceeds to go through a lengthy interrogation, only to come up empty.

This confuses me for multiple reasons. First, they’re in the middle of a danger zone. The priority should be getting out or clearing Wanderers, not figuring out his identity. She can ask her boss later. If she’s wary of Xavier because he’s not apart of UNICORN, then she should focus on getting out of there. She doesn’t fear him though. MC doesn’t focus on getting out, and she goes as far as sassing him later for not giving her more information. If you provoke an unpredictable and dangerous entity, there’s a good chance they’ll harm you. Consider all this, MC doesn’t fear him. Therefore, his identity doesn’t matter for her to survive. This means she wants private information from someone who clearly doesn’t want to give it. That’s rude af, especially considering he’s been helping her since he saw her. Her verbiage also rubs me the wrong way. It feels like she thinks she’s entitled to his private information. It’s ridiculous. MC has met him twice. Of course he’s not going to tell her sensitive intel. I wouldn’t either if someone acted like that toward me.

The next thing for poor Xavier was a text conversation. MC basically called him emotionless. I had to take a second to process that one. Everyone has feelings even if they don’t express them very much. I’m baffled that she insinuated that when she knows Zayne. MC has never said that about Zayne as far as I know, and he’s way less expressive than Xavier. It’s rude, insensitive, and immature to say that to someone.

Again with Xavier. There was a part where MC was given a proposal to help in obtaining some information in the main story. It was dangerous. Xavier stayed behind after her boss left. There were a few choices you could respond with. Obviously, I chose those favorable to Xavier. I click on “I want you as my hunting partner.” He was genuinely excited and happy that you wanted to work with him. Then MC adds that she views him as a tool. She’s objectifying him. That’s unacceptable and disrespectful to do to anybody, but to do it to someone with good intentions and has your best interest at heart is beyond upsetting. It was painful to watch the excited, happy expression on his face drop into one of dejection.

Let’s talk about Zayne. I’m baffled by how MC treats him. She goes against her doctor’s orders despite having a specific medical condition. She brushes him off and refuses to listen to him. It’s frustrating to witness. It makes my brain hurt. She has a job that requires extensive physical and dangerous activity. It’s important to take care of her health so she’s competent and safe. If something happens on the battlefield because MC didn’t take care of herself, she’s putting more people in danger. Instead of her teammates only having to worry just about themselves, they’ll have another burden to deal with. It seems extremely irresponsible.

Now, Rafayel… again, the MC baffles me. During the second meeting, she is incredibly aggressive. It’s the coral stone incident with his painting driving someone mad. She accuses Rafayel of malicious intent without any concrete evidence from what I understood. Although MC was right, she didn’t have any proof. As far as she knew, he doesn’t have a motive. That’s a huge issue for me. Most people don’t kill another without a reason. Also if the substance he used as paint was tainted, how should he know? He doesn’t specialize or deal with Wanderers everyday. It could very well be an accident. I find her actions and belief of immediately assuming the absolute worst and being aggressive about it as ineffective and off putting.

Next is when she finds out Rafayel is a Lemurian. Oh boy, I was in a tizzy about this scene. Now, I don’t particularly like how she treated him when he clearly felt awful. Her bedside manner was terrible, but it wasn’t a big deal. However, when the scales appear, MC touches them without permission. Rafayel is in a vulnerable state and has accidentally revealed a huge weakness that puts him in danger if others found out. When our merman boy wakes up, he tells her not to touch him. MC disregards that and continues to basically assault him. I understand that some people might find touching his cheek not a big deal, but it’s the consent that matters. He didn’t consent to her touch and she did it anyway. He was clearly uncomfortable and upset. Rafayel also had little way to fight back because of his weakened state. People might argue, “he wanted it.” That is a dangerous mindset to have. If it was applied to a real world case, then that could be making an excuse for a potential rapist. No means no. Even if he did desire it, she needs explicit consent.

Then she makes a… threat? comment? about how she could kidnap him and sell him to the highest bidder. That is not cool. Even if it’s a joke, it’s not funny. That is a real threat and danger to Rafayel, and she says it without hesitation. MC has no regard for his feelings about the situation. She says “I would never do that to you” at the end, but that doesn’t cancel out what she said earlier. MC proved she wasn’t safe emotionally. No wonder Rafayel has the sentiment of “all humans are greedy.” If I was faced with MC and the people who hound him to buy his art, I might be convinced too.

Overall, I have huge problems with the MC. Does anyone feel the same? I tend to specialize in write canon-based fanfics with twists and whatnot. Would anyone be interested? (I’ll probably do it anyway, but feedback is always appreciated) If I do, I’m changing MC’s personality 100%

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