It’s So Painful To Watch Yourself Grow Cold, Bitter, And Resentful, Even Toward Small, Irrelevant Things,

“Soon you’ll realize that many people will love the idea of you but will lack the maturity to handle the reality of you.”

— Reyna Biddy

i love 5th generation idol duo “brothers” so very much 😔🤍

arranged marriage with Rafe Cameron

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◆ you've known you would marry him since you were children. your parents had made the deal and you couldn't do anything against it.

◆ but Rafe never tried to get to know you much. he wasn't really interested in you, and you not as much in him either.

◆ still you stuck up for each other when you needed to. like when your ex threatened to post your nudes, Rafe took care of it, bc he knew it would taint his image in the process if anything like that was to happen to you.

◆ you hung out with mutual friends sometimes, your best friends being in relationships with Topper and Kelce for some time didn't leave you much choice there

◆ you didn't like his dealing, or how the coke made him act. but you didn't dare say a word about it to no one.

◆ as soon as High School was over the wedding was scheduled and the engagement announced

◆ no one but the two of you and your family had known, which meant that your friends were both excited for you and also a bit angry for never telling them the truth

◆ your floor length bridal gown was a sight for sore eyes, and even Rafe had to admit to himself that he could've gotten it way worse.

◆ it was a nice wedding, and you did your best to act more than friendly towards the man who was now your husband

◆ you danced with him, cut the cake, laughed and posed for pictures. picture perfect just like everyone expected it of you.

◆ and Rafe did the same, and more. for some reason he found it difficult to actually take his eyes off of you.

◆ he didn't like this new feeling that started brewing inside him. the idea that he might actually not need his plan B of having multiple flings on the side just to survive a marriage with you.

◆ no, the way you smiled at the flower girl and how you looked up at him through your long lashes, how gracefully you moved over the dancefloor and made it look like you were in fact floating and the way had not yet restored back to your usual shot drinking to survive a function (something he had picked up on in the last few months of having to plan a wedding with you). all of you made him be more and more interested in you, and that was what really confused him.

◆ he was never the type of guy to fall for anyone just because they looked pretty and smiled politely. but for some reason you did it all and he didn't mind it.

◆ when the night ended and you got to your hotel room, you made it clear to him that you wouldn't sleep with him. ever.

◆ Rafe actually respected your wishes and took the second bed that was part of the huge suit they had booked.

◆ but this just led to him watching you take off the dress and be left with the most daringly beautiful lingerie set he had ever laid his blue eyes upon

◆ you liked dangling yourself in front of him, making him see what he could never have because you had promised yourself to not give into it.

◆ he was your husband, but only on paper.

◆ that's how you found yourself lying in an empty bed, with him across the room from you, similarly lonely tucked into his sheets while doing boring small talk

◆ it was like a very bad first date. the bad part being mostly the fact that it wasn't a date at all, but your wedding night.

◆ you spent the whole honeymoon slowly getting to know each other and not trying to fight him on every little thing he did wrong in your eyes.

◆ once you got back home your friends were bludgeoning you with questions about how he was but you just shrugged and pretended to not care

◆ you didn't wanna tell them that you had secretly started to actually like him and that your body seemed to do even more than that.

◆ it took a whole year for the both of you to admit your feelings to each other. you caving in first and being scared shitless while confessing your love to him.

◆ and to your own and his surprise Rafe said it back instantly, no thoughts about it or anything. it was like he had just waited for you to do it.

◆ that night you slept together for the first time and you were more than impressed by him.

◆ it was like your actual honeymoon had finally started because the both of you wouldn't be seen outside of your own house and estate for a whole month.

◆ you were like bunnies, fucking anywhere and everywhere no matter what or who might be watching.

◆ the staff was scared to even walk into a room without having their eyes closed first.

◆ and over the years some might've hoped you would stop or take a break from how much the two of you wanted each other, but that was not the case.

◆ and with two kids running around and a third one on the way, Rafe was still not satisfied and he was already planning how to knock you up for a fourth and fifth and maybe even sixth time.

◆ for someone who had hated the idea of marrying a near stranger, Rafe and you really were a perfect match in every possible way

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Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.

Gail Devers (via thehopefulquotes)

Dark!Rafe Cameron x Dark!Reader

Your crush on your father’s best friend, (and best friend’s father), Rafe Cameron, has been a facet of your life for as long as you could remember. Since beginning college with your best friend, your obsession with him has only grown deeper and your delusions are more twisted than ever. Convinced that Rafe’s wife isn’t good enough for him, you try to force your way into his life, one way or another. But when you get too close, you realize that the man you’ve pined over for years has been hiding a horrible secret

Warnings*: noncon (rape), dubcon, attempted noncon, domestic abuse, abusive relationship, infidelity, gaslighting, violence, choking, slapping, pregnancy, loss of virginity, age gap relationship, secret relationship, drug abuse, alcohol, oral sex, p in v sex, extremely controlling behavior

*inconclusive list (may be updated throughout), check each chapter for individual warnings

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“You think attention is love, and that’s why you suffer so deeply.”

— Unknown

mesmo eu aparentando estar bem

há uma grande chance de um dia desistir de tudo.

Your soul knows. It will let you know when it's time to distance yourself from people who no longer align with you mentally, emotionally, physically, or energetically.

Don't tell people your boundaries. Show them.

If you tell someone they can't talk to you a certain way or do certain things, those are not boundaries. Boundaries are things we show. If you tell someone "if you do that again I am not going to speak to you" and you stay and continue to speak to them, that's not a boundary. Just words. Words that they now know means absolutely nothing and they can take advantage of.

You show people how to treat you.

You reinforce your boundaries with your actions. Unless you show someone with your actions that what they are doing is not okay, and you do not continue to allow it, they will keep doing it.