Prague, 2010

i desperately want to be happy. i can feel the ache for it deep within my bones where purest part of my soul screams for it. like without it i will die.

sometimes i think i have it. i let myself get comfortable with the carefree air i carry with me and the laughter that fills my lungs are heart. i feel complete as if i have everything i could ever want and question what it was like to feel alone and hopeless.

and then all of a sudden something slips.

and it is like i have awoken from a wonderful dream to only be thrust back into a cold reality. every interaction i have is made through a sheet of glass, voices muffled and touches separated. and the screaming is back.

i know i will one again be back within the warm realm of belonging where joy seems to reside. but this cycle exhausts me to my core and makes me question if i will ever be permitted to stay bathed in happiness and light.

Ｓｕｎｆｌｏｗｅｒ Ｐｕｇ 🌻

hey not to be a killjoy but can y’all spread the carrd about what’s going on in Poland

obvious warning for homophobia, transphobia, etc. in the link above.

I was born there. I have countless of LGBT friends there, and the fact that this is happening in the year 2020 is inhumane and terrifying. 

If you’re Polish, vote in the upcoming election. If you’re not polish, please spread the carrd around.

I am not an ideology. Nie jestem ideologią. 

Ready for some more smooth jams in 2019!

I have learned how to live, how to be in the world and of the world, and not just to stand aside and watch.

i just wanna matter to someone but i wanna matter effortlessly like i dont wanna have to force it, i dont wanna have to beg. i just want someone to want me around, to need me around

anyway since we’re all baking bread and dealing with a plague, here’s a quiz on who you would be in the middle ages

“Does God hang out in Greyhound bus stations? I’d like to find him. I’d like to make him cry.”

— Sara Sutterlin, from I Wanted to Be the Knife [Extended Edition]

some of my favorite 1-star reviews of the iliad