Wasted-life-musings - Musings Of A Wasted Life

Hellraiser Directed by Clive Barker (1987)

I carved you a little pumpkin Tumblr.  Holidays, carving Pumpkins, Carving turkey, cutting the christmas ham, nothing says celebration like drunks with knives

I realize I post alot of Russians things, because I grew up with and respect Russians.  I am, however, not Russian at all and am American, Swedish German and Irish by blood.  So here’s Swedish song I liked alot growing up, done by a Norwegian, just to confuse you, it’s actually a song from the mid 1800s that alf redid in 1955.

It’s also really hard to translate into english and make it sound good so I’ll just say its about a farmboy in a rural county falling in love with a girl, but being separated from her for much of his life, because he was too busy working on the farm to travel and see her.  Sounds pretty American doesn’t it?

Facebook is just filled with suicide awareness posts today, everytime i log in infact its some new obituary from some junkie i went to school with or whatever, the ones not od’ing are blowing their faces off...

Nows where I pretend to feel bad, pretend we were good buds, and pretend the worlds worse off without em, when infact, its the exact opposite in every way.  7 billion people, mostly useless, go ahead and blow ya face off, no one gives a fuck.

Scientology: Really?! C’mon...

- Xenu kidnaps us

- dumps us in volcano, vacuums up our souls

- puts us in a false reality

- we escape into monkeys

- Tom Cruise

Are you, are you fuckin kidding me?  Hubbard lived on a boat with a bunch of little boys, wrote really terrible scifi novels, and got laughed right the fuck out of the scientific and medical community for a reason.

- pay money to learn the secrets ( we all now know )

- get to OT whatever the fuck for well over a million dollars

- get told the ultimate secret is that you were you all along but needed the other steps to shed away the not you to find the you, now go live your life ( no refunds )

No one can speak out now that you know, its 75% lawyers coincidentally.  Oops, Sue me Scientology, I don’t have any money, stalk me, I’m a lonely guy i could use the company, Harass my family, i dont have much anyways.  Of all the religions that are a lie, of all the cults that are goofy as all fuck, you guys really take the space cake, you even got Mormons goin like, what the fuck dude?!

A Thought on Brain Neurology and Hallucinogenics

( Working Title: A drunk monkey tries to lazily teach other monkeys the essence of monkeyness through half explanation and zero sources sited )

We are our brains, we know this, but do we really grasp what that means?  We are lumps of fat, with, for easy example lumps of different fat in which not actual thoughts but memories reside.  We fire an electrical charge through pathways to said fat pockets, think of it like hallways to different doors.  How your mind actually works, it doesn’t tell you fire is hot, you see fire and subconsciously remember a time when you were burned and know fire is hot.

So firstly your brains working in a sort of weird unbenounced symbolism, but here’s the fun bit:

A.) the more the “hallways” are used the wider they get, electricity always seeks the path of least residence, thus if you are depressed, anxious, what have you that is partly why, those hallways are big, but most lead to one redirectory door, we’ll cover that...

B.) each time you visit a door, each time you remember, you dont remember the event, you actually remember REMEMBERING the event, so each time you open the door like a bad game of telephone the room is different, the couch is green now and not blue or whatever.

Now i wont get into the complexities of the brain and all the different areas, but for easy talk, we have a part of the brain that’s like our autopilot, our automatic train of thought, when you watch tv, ,when you take a bath, when you do anything not too hard, you’re half in auto pilot.  It used to be rumored, and is now confirmed by science that hallucinogens expand the mind, and they make you more creative, and why that is, is most these hallways lead to this autopilot door, which then directs you down familiar hallways.  Psilocybin Mushrooms in particular, shut down this autopilot section, and thus you have to discover, lets call them round about hallways

These hallways which cut out that autopilot central hall directory, electricity will attempt to find the door its searching for for whatever experience its looking to relearn from at that moment, however it will often find a closer door, an unlocked door, which will open and be a recollection of a different memory that teaches the same thing, fire hot, whatever.  The brain has a way of compensating like that in more ways than one. 

Mushrooms are now being used fairly regularly in western medicine to cure depression, because unlike contemporary anti depressants, which depress the parts of the brain that create the depression, or stimulate the parts that will help, etc, they dont control the regulation of the squeaky door so to say, they find a whole new door, time and time again, your brain all doors.  Xanax will inhibit the anxiety bit of your brain, but you’ll always need xanax, youll never be cured, and really lets be honest western medicine doesn’t want you cured, you wont buy the xanax then.

If you love knowledge, if you love your brain, do mushrooms, drop acid, just like all the anti pot propaganda, its all lies and science proves its all lies time and time again.  Don’t do heroin, don’t smoke meth, but definitely trip.  Thank you for your kind attention, and i hope we can taste colors together sometime soon.

“ Jimmy’s teacher was very annoyed, he gave Jimmy the cane, he shared his syringe with a class full of boys, now they all want the same, heroin heroin, and cocaine, heroin heroin and cocaine... “

Japan Kabuki Performance

You won’t find me in any opera house when Kabuki theater exists.  People are always talking like Lazer Floyd, no, if you want those mushrooms to really hit you go see Kabuki theater.

“ 20 - bisexual - I'm here to get high and have fun. be my sugar daddy and ask for my PayPal “

man, am I tempted.  Thank god for that feminist movement eh ladies?  It did wonders. ( this is why we haven’t had a woman president yet, teehee ) I mean, err, something something susan B anthony, i love your mind as much as your body yadda yadda can I get your number?  Oh your friend i don’t know did something not funny but you think its funny because you have an ascued vision of the world and the things in it?  Do tell me all about that funny story at lengths disproportionately long for even a good story.