Wasted-life-musings - Musings Of A Wasted Life

Try It!

______ has been proven to cure depression better than ______ in clinical trials.  Try new________.  side effects include anal leakage,dick problems and thoughts of suicide.  Do not take _______ if you are allergic to _________.  People with depression should not take ________, this is better than alcohol somehow.  If you got better how would we make money off you?  You stupid depressed cash cow, try new ______ today because we told you to and you have no independent thought.

I'm left in misery, the girl I love's gone across the sea I'm all alone, I ain't got no home

Mandy was her name, sleepin' was her game She didn't care about me oh God, baby can't you see

I'm a lonely boy, I'm a lonely boy....

I don’t Glorify Drugs

I did/do drugs because I am now, and have always been bored, and lazy, seeking a universe other than my own.  When I was a child I was a very deep thinker, and was bored with the things people did around me with some exceptions of course.  Being a drug addict isnt cool, but its also not some thing to be demonized. 

All humans are drug addicts.  Maybe you cant put down your soda coffee and donuts, you’ll die of diabetes or colon cancer.  Maybe you cant stop excercizing and roid rage ya heart out or get balerina cant have my period skinny.  maybe youll get addicted to your own chemicals and base jump from shorter and shorter things.

When you’re a kid, a teenager its natural for people to want to do what theyre told not to, and even smarter kids, will be drawn to mind altering things as an experimental scientific sort of thing.  I will comment on drugs alot on this blog dont worry.

Drugs are cool when you’re 15, when youre 25, 35, 45, its either because you’re weak or you hate life enough to escape it any and every way you can ( like me, i wont turn down a free drug to this day ) and if its just you fine, do it, giggle, od, no one gives a shit youre not special im not special.  But dont do it if it ruins other lives, give the kids away, then die in a gutter, simple right? 

I’m lying, drugs are SO cool, its great being happy for 4-8 hours, then feel like shit the next day, then after alot of that, its so cool to be hot, and cold, and hot again, its awesome being constipated for 4 days then shitting nonstop for 6, its the COOLEST. 

Vicadin/whiskey dick is super fun, and then when ya coming off em its super fun to cum at basically the slightest touch, its just, the best of both worlds.  All that said I’m pro drug, do hallucinogens, expand your mind, its better for anxiety and depression than xanex, ask a neurologist.  We all die, what we learn, say, do, and think are all that matters, if drugs make you feel not like the asshole you are, do em, works for me.

The Whole History of the World

A 12 step program:

1 - Earth is formed from dust and shit

2 - Water forms, weird little fish frog things come out

3 - Monkeys evolve from said fish frogs in southern africa

4 - Monkeys leave africa, come up with religion

5 - Lots and lots of people die over religions

6 - we start farming animals, get a slew of diseases

7 - we wipe eachother out with diseases

8 - we invent penicillin and shit

9 - we go back to killing eachother over cartoon characters in the sky

10 - History repeats itself

11 - We all get fat, and destroy the atmosphere, we die and take everything with us

12 - The sun dies, no one is around to notice we were ever there

The End

“...I have an A-gender caregiver, I’m a 20 year old explorative little “

Memoirs of why I don’t date

“  I was taught and brought up there, the laws to abide, and that the land that I live in, has god on it’s side. “

...She rambled on, but I have never been able to get interested when women talk about themselves, it may be because women are so inept at telling a story ( That is, because they place the emphasis in the wrong places ) or for some other reason. In any case I have always turned a deaf ear. " " I feel so unhappy " " I am sure that this one phrase whispered to me would arouse my sympathy more than the longest, most painstaking account of a womans life. It amazes and astonishes me that i have never once heard a woman make this simple statement. " "...something like a silent current of misery an inch wide flowed over the surface of her body. When I lay next to her my body was enveloped in her current, which mingled with my own harsher current of gloom like ' a withered leaf settling to rest on the stones at the bottom of a pool ' I had freed myself from fear and uneasiness. "

Osamu Dazai, No Longer Human

I’m a very angry depressed sort of man, though I’m very Buddhist and level about it.  I have major moral conflicts with the people and the world around me, how it runs, the motives therein.  Though loved, and loving, I am a very un-affectionate person, I also have very little sympathy for people though lots of empathy.  I dated for too long too young, and have now been alone for a very long time, being a child of divorce I’ve come to have a very cynical view of love.  I distrust all humans and when I look in their eyes I usually see deceit, either of me or of themselves.  But it sure is good to just, laugh at stupid shit sometimes isn’t it?