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im sorry to ask again but do you still have the link for the visual novel on google drive or something? i'm finally done with exams :D

u bet ur ass i do

original fate/stay night visual novel including english, voice, and censor patch

all you gotta do for this one is unpack and it’s ready to go. my old save files are still in there probably but just delete the savedata folder in the directory if that’s the case. if you don’t want it censored delete the patch with the highest number.

fate/stay night realta nua, all three routes, including english patch

follow the instructions in the english patch folder before playing. also the fate route folder still has a patch i made that replaces “church on the hill” with the dogsong from undertale so you might wanna delete patch.xp3 from the folder before playing

you have to change your system locale to japanese before either of these work, and for realta nua you have to run the exe file with the longer name since that’s the cracked one

if you’re on mac, follow this guide to get the game running

site that you can type in the definition of a word and get the word

site for when you can only remember part of a word/its definition 

site that gives you words that rhyme with a word

site that gives you synonyms and antonyms

There's this idea circulating in the Internet that all gacha games are evil. Which is dumb, because that's the same as calling all rice white jasmine rice. It's not. It very much isn't.

What people do with their time in game and the effort they put into is what make sit evil or not, and even then, it's for them personally.

Also, this section will be talking about Genshin Impact specifically, so take it or leave it.

Genshin is a game that's targeted for comfort gaming, waifu gaming, farming and managing resources. These is a game that rewards players for being consistent and attentive.

As someone with ADHD and autism, I love Genshin because it actually rewards my traits that aren't majorly appreciated in the outside world. Nitpicking at details, taking my time to look around and settle with ideas, attentiveness to small things that are otherwise negligible.

I've been playing this game for 2 years almost. In this time, I have, as a free to play, meaning I don’t pay actual physical money to receive in-game resources, being able to collect over 30 characters. And build them to my purposes.

But I'm also very casual about it. The only times when I put dedicated effort: spend hours on end in the game — are when I'm actively collecting resources for a character I want, and that does not happen often.

Or. When I'm playing with friends.

This is very important.

I have friends and family members who too play Genshin. We live very far from each other and our ability to see each other in person is limited.

But we have bi-weekly playing sessions on weekends. Where we spend several hours running around, helping each other out and goofing and fooling and making jokes and exchanging news and just hanging out.

Is it perfect? No. But this way I have a whole FOLDER of photos I made with our characters in it that I keep on my phone for when I'm sad and need emotional support.

This is 21 century. This is 2023. You might not see your precious people all the time. But you have a way of connecting to them.

And having the ability to goof around with them and spend time doing something you both enjoy is, in my humble opinion, SEVERAL TIMES BETTER than just calling and talking. Calling isn't bad. But gaming together is better.

I understand that it is a privilege that I can do this. And I will be using this privilege, because I love my friends and family and if Genshin helps me stay connected to them, then Genshin it is.

People also underestimate how useful lessons learnt in games can be. Take Genshin again.

For me, personally, it helped me widen my horizons about knowledge of the world and many things in it. It also helped me to start learning how to manage my time and energy and resources I have for the best results.

For example. I love Genshin lore. It encompasses several real world religions, cultures and philosophies. I've personally being reading up on Irish and Celtic mythology as of late to learn more about Childe's inspiration Cu Chulainn. I have also been casually reading greek mythology and gnosticism 101, because they are also in Genshin, and play a major role in it's world building.

Another example. When you log into the game, you have:

4 dailies - daily exercises to receive in-game currency - primogem - required to roll for characters.

160 of resin to farm for resources.

Sometimes also unfinished quests, if you have those.

To have better luck in rolling for a character you like, you need many primogems. For that, you do dailies.

To level up characters, you need experience, special materials and money, for that you need resin and some time to gather the materials. (keeping it simple)

To make your character strong you need to give them artifacts and weapons: those also need money, materials and resin for some of those materials.

So. Every time you log in, you decide where you want your own resources: time and effort — to go. If you are leveling a character, building their artifacts, their weapons. Or you might be gathering needed materials for a character you hope to get.

Most casual players who have well-built teams and leveled characters and weapons will tell you that it took some planning on their side: there's only so much resin to get the materials. There's only so much time a casual player can give the game. So they make a plan.

For example, take mine. When I was building Yan Fei, I logged every day to do a run for the enemy drops she needs. That took 15 minutes for all locations on my map with running counted in. I could farm her talent books only three times in a week. That took 15 minutes with all fighting and waiting. Other 4 days I collected money and experience books and boss materials she needed to be leveled up. That took 20 minutes, usually, with the running around. Plus, I had my dailies, which I do, if I log in. They take 7-10 minutes depending.

Summarizing. When I was actively investing my time in the game, I spent 40-45 minutes a day in the game. That time was not done in one go: I did some in the morning, to cheer myself up for the day. I did a bit during the day, in free time. And I rewarded myself for a good day with the rest of the needed time.

Overall, 40-45 minutes looks like a lot. But objectively, nowadays people spend a massive amount of time on social media, or watching and streaming shows. How many of you catch an episode or a half of your favorite show, or podcast, or a YouTube video while resting? How much time do you spend scrolling Tumblr and TikTok or reading books and fanfiction? This is approximately the same length as that.

Plus, on an everyday basis, I spend around 20 minutes in game: a quick run through the dailies and resin, and that's it. Usually I play events and time-consuming quests on weekends, and that's around 1-2 hours depending on the quests and my interest in a given event. Very similar to how one would relax with a movie or a show and catch up on two-three episodes you missed during the week, or checking out something new.

Playing games is as valid as a leisure time as any other more socially "acceptable" way. It's just being given a bad label by people who don't understand it and people who have not being very thoughtful of themselves and others when on it.

This also helped me understand how to plan around my disabilities as someone with BOTH ADHD and autism.

Understanding that my limited energy needs to be spent rationally, but also in a way that tomorrow I would be able to work again. Capitalism is not slowing down for me, so I need to work around it, in a way that would harm me least and encourage my growth. So make plans around my studies, my personal wants that replenish the energy, and my work. It takes effort. It also helps so much, I still feel dumb for not having done this sooner.

Understanding, that to be stronger, to grow better and develop, I need to invest in myself consciously and actively. But it doesn't have to be burdensome and boring and exhausting in a negative way. For example, I'm slowly learning Sanskrit. For me, because I'm curious about this language. But it also is a language that I need to learn for a book I'm writing for my character. So, I got a grammar book and a notebook and now I'm learning the alphabet. It's really cool, even if it's difficult. My pronunciation is garbage, but this is a step forward for my personal goals and it is being done in a way that I enjoy it, I'm not forcing myself like a parent would a petulant child.

Understanding that progress takes time. I spent over half a year making my Yanfei to my satisfaction. I need to let the seed root, to let it sprout and develop leaves. It's frustrating as hell. I have ADHD. I have imposter syndrome. I want and at times NEED the results immediately or it will hurt me emotionally. But now I'm able to manage this stress more successfully and return from the slump it causes me faster.

Yes, it took a gacha game for me actually learn this lesson and drive it home. It doesn't devalue the lesson itself and the positive reinforcement it gave me.

Gacha games can be good games. Learn to appreciate them for what they can give you.

For some, it's cute characters. For others, the cool things they learned. Some make their careers on games. Some find a place of comfort in games.

All of this is valid.

The reason why NBC’s Hannibal found such a huge female audience is because Fuller’s/Mads’ Lecter is not a male power fantasy: he’s a female power fantasy.

He’s not a broody snippy git whose appeal is assumed apriori and who in real life would drive away absolutely everyone he met (e.g. any sad manboy ever trotted out as a lead by Moffat).

He’s not an “aspirational” over-muscled hulk.

He’s not a fighter for ‘truth’ or ‘justice’ for whom bodies are just collateral on his path to heroic self-actualization

This Hannibal is the Head Bitch In Charge.

He is independent to the n-th degree. He lives to please himself and no one else. He is fabulous. He shamelessly geeks out over obscure and refined pastimes and shares them with friends. He is the Queen Bee of his social circle. He takes any excuse to treat himself, but he also has perfect self-discipline: gym is not optional. His time-management skills are superhuman. He can decorate and keep a house like Martha Stewart, hold down several jobs, and practice multiple hobbies daily.

(And what are his hobbies, aside from slaughter? Cooking, foreign languages, drawing, playing musical instruments and composing. And clearly clothes shopping. He is probably on first-name basis with the best tailors and cordwainers in town. Contrast with Will, whose hobbies are stereotypically masculine: fixing motor boats, fishing, playing outside with his dogs.)

Hannibal is not young, but he wears his age gracefully. He regrets nothing, like an embodiment of Piaf’s “Non, rien de rien”. His hair is perfect because he clearly spends time in front of the mirror styling it, not because the show’s producer wanted him to look effortlessly cool (*cough*Sherlock*cough*).

He never, ever loses his temper in public, as if he knows that the world/audience will not fawn over him for trying to assert himself through vulgarity, posturing, or volume - all the typical ways in which men like to hijack and dominate conversations.

He can dispatch a creepy stalker like Franklyn with a single neck twist, with no consequences. A sweet fantasy, indeed. If only real life stalkers were so easy to dispose of.

Hannibal’s victims - those who were not killed in self-defense or as ‘murder presents’ for Will - tend to fall into two categories: other killers who act like *they* are the baddest bitches in town (Gideon, Tobias, the mural guy) and people who disrespect him. Of those, there are surprisingly many. In fact, it seems like the very esteemed pillar of Baltimore society Dr. Lecter goes through life constantly being dissed. This is rather puzzling. Hannibal is a tall good-looking white gentleman who speaks like a professor, dresses like a count, and drives a Bentley that costs more than people’s houses. And yet something about him prompts many people, especially in the service industry, to be rude to him.

But he doesn’t confront these “pigs” (already a gender-loaded term, even though it gets applied to victims of both sexes) in a head-on, macho way. Instead, he bides his time and dispatches his prey through some kind of a sneak attack. His preferred philosophy of fighting is “feminine”: assume your opponent is physically stronger and don’t try to out-muscle them. (Even if his opponent is much smaller and weaker, like Chilton.) Subterfuge, ambush, sedatives - Hannibal wins his fights by fighting on his own terms. Nevertheless, if a man should come at him with a weapon, he defends himself with perfect adroitness: Tobias, Jack, Mason’s henchmen, etc.

Even some aspects of Hannibal’s relationship with Will would make more sense if he were female. In particular the issue of, well, issue. Hannibal is clearly Not Okay with Will having children with anyone but him. This is somewhat odd for a man, especially one who seems to have never wanted kids before this. But it makes sense for a woman just past menopause: fate finally delivered her dream partner, but it’s too late to have a family. And so Hannibal sets up the dominoes for Margot’s pregnancy to be terminated practically as soon as he learns of it. If he can’t have Will’s kids, then no one can. They may be adopted, but they have to be *theirs*.

It also makes sense that when Hannibal discovers Will’s treachery, he goes full Medea on him. Killing the man’s children is common to cultural narratives of wronged women all over the world. It’s often the only leverage they have over the men, the only way they can exact revenge. Hannibal can take much more than Abigail from Will, but she is the only thing he can take that truly matters.

Bonus exercise for the reader: imagine a version of the show where everything is the same, but Hannibal is played by Meryl Streep.

Or even just swap Mads Mikkelsen & Gillian Anderson places. Let her be Hannah Lecter; let him be Dr. Bennett Du Maurier, her wary shrink. Both the characterization and plot still work almost 100%.

Let's talk about foreshadowing.

Foreshadowing can add a lot of depth to your writing and make it more exciting for the readers. They create a sense of coherence and satisfaction when future events unfold as hinted—or shock if they don't.

Here are some tips for effectively using foreshadowing in your novels and books:

Plan Ahead: Foreshadowing works best when it's woven into the fabric of your story from the beginning. As you outline your plot, think about key events and revelations you want to foreshadow, and strategically place hints and clues accordingly.

Use Subtlety: Foreshadowing doesn't have to be obvious or heavy-handed. The best foreshadowing is often subtle and understated, leaving readers with a sense of intrigue and curiosity rather than outright prediction.

Establish Patterns and Motifs: Look for opportunities to establish recurring patterns, motifs, or symbols that can subtly hint at future events. These can be visual, thematic, or even linguistic cues that tie into the larger narrative arc of your story.

Create Tension: Foreshadowing is most effective when it creates tension and anticipation for the reader. Use foreshadowing to hint at potential conflicts, obstacles, or twists.

Reveal Gradually: Foreshadowing doesn't have to be limited to one-off hints or clues. Instead, consider how you can layer foreshadowing throughout your story, gradually revealing more information as the plot unfolds.

Pay Attention to Timing: The timing of your foreshadowing is crucial. Introduce hints and clues at strategic points in your story, building anticipation and suspense without giving too much away too soon.

Revisit Foreshadowing: Ensure that foreshadowed events are eventually fulfilled or addressed in the story. Revisiting earlier hints or clues can provide a satisfying payoff for readers and reinforce the narrative coherence.

Balance Subtlety and Clarity: Foreshadowing should be subtle enough to intrigue readers without giving away major plot twists too early. Aim for a balance where foreshadowing is noticeable upon reflection but doesn't detract from the immediacy of the story.

Let's look at some ways to incorporate foreshadowing:

Symbolism: Symbolic imagery or motifs can serve as subtle foreshadowing devices. Think about objects, settings, or descriptive details that can serve as symbolic foreshadowing. A recurring image or object, for example, might subtly hint at future events or themes in the story.

Dialogue Clues: Characters can drop hints or make cryptic remarks that foreshadow upcoming events. Dialogue is a natural way to introduce foreshadowing without being too obvious.

Character Reactions: Pay attention to how characters react to certain situations or events. Their emotions or responses can foreshadow future conflicts or revelations.

Subtle Descriptions: Incorporate subtle descriptions or details that hint at future events. These can be easily overlooked on a first read but become significant upon reflection or when the foreshadowed event occurs.

Dreams and Visions: Dreams, visions, and other forms of altered consciousness can be effective vehicles for foreshadowing—they can hint at an upcoming event, or explore characters' subconscious desires and fears. This method can sometimes be either blatant or subtle depending on how it is incorporated.

Foreshadowing Through Setting: Use the setting to foreshadow events or developments in the story. For example, a stormy night might foreshadow conflict or turmoil ahead, while a serene setting might signal upcoming peace or resolution. (On the flip side, this can be used to catch readers off guard, like a "calm before the storm" type of situation.)

Parallel Storylines: Foreshadowing can occur through parallel storylines or subplots. Events in one storyline can subtly hint at future developments in another, creating anticipation and intrigue.

Recurring Themes: Identify recurring themes or motifs in your story and use them to foreshadow future events. These thematic elements can serve as subtle hints or clues for attentive readers.

Misdirection: Foreshadowing can be used to misdirect readers and create suspense by hinting at one outcome while actually leading to another. (See my post on misdirection for more!)

Happy writing! ❤

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Au of the Clone Au

Danny was a lot younger when he woke up in the labs containment chamber, lets say he's at the tail end of 14 and Tim is (still) 17. Niether is ready for a child or has any idea how to care for one.

Danny still decides to go with the alias Daniel Nightengale so that no one knows his real identity. He still has no idea who trapped him in the thermos or why but he finds himself working with one of Red Hoods gangs because no one else will hire a 14 year old and pay him enough money to raise a kid.

Also because he knew Red Hood and Batman notoriously don't get along so Red Hood could (hopefully) be convinced to give him some protection against the big bad bat if they ever got the chance to meet and he couldn't turn to charity's for help because CPS would 1000% take his baby away from him if they were contacted. So gang life it was. At least his powers made it very easy to do the jobs assigned to him with relative ease, he just had to make sure no one knew he had them.

The biggest difference in the au is that Danny stays in Gotham even after the Batman tries to intimate him into giving up custody. This unfortunately escalates to Danny running through the City of Gotham in the dead of night trying to escape the batman with his literal infant after the Dark Knight tried to take him by force from thier crappy abandoned apartment.

He somehow winds up in Red Hoods territory and the vigilante was very confused as to why this terrified teenager was blubbering and begging him not to take away his baby. Needless to say he and Batman get into an actual brawl once he hears the whole story. Turns out Batman didn't tell anyone Red Robin had a clone baby and was just planning to show up one day with the baby and raise it as thier newest brother.

Jason wasn't about the let that happen and opened com links to everyone else and ratted thier dad out. He had noticed the teenager had escaped with the baby but he didn't care about that at the moment. He needed to beat up his dad.

Red Robin did eventually track Danny down that night and cornered him in an alleyway. He winced at the look of terror on the others face. He didn't think he had ever seen someone so scared of him before. He approached with his hands raised in surrender, speaking softly about how he just wanted to see his son. How he would have loved to meet them both under better circumstances and he had no plans of taking the baby away from thier parent (he wasn't going to mention that the other bats were already referring to the other teenager as the "mother")

This miiight escalate into a global game of "Where's Waldo" with the entirety of the Justice League and its affiliates searching for him. But if there's one thing Danny is good at, its hiding in plain sight.

Sites to Help with Writing

1 - [ https://www.yourdictionary.com ] I use this site for the thesaurus, It helps to find synonyms for words so you don't repeat "said" a thousand times in your book.

2 - [ https://milanote.com ] This one is very helpful for organising your ideas with story boards, though it's partially free it has a paid version where you can get even more features. I use the free version.

3 - [ https://inkarnate.com ] This site is very popular to create maps, and for good reason. It's free version gives you all the features necessary to create maps, but the paid version gives you extra features. I use the free version.

4 - [ https://www.behindthename.com ] I use this one for names. It has a database of endless names alongside their country of origin and meaning. Very useful, though I use it to make sure the names I come up with don't end the wrong way.

5 - [ https://www.pinterest.com ] Do I even need to explain? Ideas? Here. Visualisation? Here. Everything you'll ever need? Here.

6 - [ https://quillbot.com ] Heard of it from a beloved friend. This site is useful for tone checks, grammar checks, and more. I only use it to edit.

7 - [ Google Docs ] I only use this one for writing, its free and perfectly usable.

8 - [ https://www.artbreeder.com ] This one is essential for character creation. It has many features that allows you to visualise and create portraits for your characters.

Bonus:

I use [ https://tabletopaudio.com ] for background noise while writing, because i cant focus in silence.

That's all, I hope this proves useful :)

Screaming crying because I hate every piracy guide I come across on here.

A Checklist Of Possible Reasons I Am Upset, To Review When I Can't Seem To Figure It Out:

did not eat

new hyperfixation and no time for it

have not done a creative in 24 hrs

Bad Sounds

clothes are touching my body

cold

people

one (1) comment is stuck in my brain like a popcorn kernel

last time I drank water was ??????

nervous nervous nervous nervous

got a Slightly Worse grade than expected

last hug was ??????

slept a full 45 minutes

lonely ............

guts are shredding (again)

have not seen sunlight in 24 hrs

stuck inside

too much screen time

Yay Overwhelm

room is disaster area

have not talked to Person in a while

bored

imposter phenomenon (again)

no current routine

how long have I been working???

Too Much Socialization

and then. and THEN. I may consider:

something is actually wrong