Damnit Damnit
I just got given probably some of the sweetest birthday presents I've ever got, but I can't love them. No one in my family knows I'm Non-binary, and it hurt.
It hurt so much, knowing they don't know. Knowing I might never work up the strength to tell them. Knowing the day I do tell them is the day I finally snap under the pressure of everything.
It took so much energy to even smile when I saw the gifts, they're beautiful and it would've cost so much... it makes me want to cry, how much it hurts.
Rosy Land and the Golden City - by Ruxing Gao
“What pigments you plaster upon that face,
All to be swept away to dust, in time;
But it is not a futile thing, no,
But a lively, pretty act.”
—Vagabird
Mathijs Delva
Sometimes I think about the more wild(as in chaotic poltergeist wild) posts on here, and I have to stop myself from laughing like a madman in in public
All the posts that solidify the fact that here, we(generally) are all clowns and hooligans. Our outrageously large shoes and our crazy wigs and all of our pulsing red noses.
A collection of Lodgepole pine cones along Lake Creek, Shoshone National Forest, Wyoming
© riverwindphotography, March 2022
Waterfalls along the Way
© riverwindphotography, May 2022
“Oh, sweetheart. You’re just tired.” A heard the soft tap of a metal tray being put onto the nightstand, and a gentle hand propped their head up. “Here,” their mother whispered as glass pressed against A’s lips. “Drink this.”
They began to drink, but whatever liquid this was was thick, burning. It felt like sludge pushing through their mouth and invading their throat.
Choking, A pushed their mother away, violently retching as they fell to the floor beside the bed. They got out what little of the disgusting liquid was in their body, whirling around with wide eyes.
“What was that!?” they screamed as they scrambled away from their mother on the ground. “What are you trying to feed me!?”
“Oh, dear,” the mom tsked, tilting her head. She was delicately holding a flask with a black substance inside of it. As she walked closer, A struggled to crawl further away. “It’s only medicine.”
From Mammals of Britain & Europe, illustrated by Richard Orr.
Just had a nap and woke up 2 hours later, I didn't sleep until 3am for a change.
It felt great. Like, really, really great
You may see memes/random things pop up occasionally, or things about my life irl Ash They/Them oh, and I write/do art sometimes
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