Being Bigender Is Weird

being bigender is weird

(from afab perspective)

like idk. i still experience gender dysphoria from being feminine but at the same time i dont care that much?? like i wanna wear a binder and have more masculine features, and it wouldn't hurt me to be seen as a girl, but it would be nice to be perceived as a boy too?? i like having long hair and getting pretty but it doesn't change the fact that im both a boy and girl at the same time.

being bigender isnt some thing like being genfluid (at least not 4 me) and its more like just completely being both boy and girl at once. i wish i could be more androgynous. i love being pretty and wearing makeup and skirts and hearing ppl call me fem comments and say im such a pretty girl or whatever makes me so happy but i also like being handsome and putting on suits and lowering my voice and it makes me happy to hear people call me "he" or other masc things, but there aren't days where i feel like one gender more than the other. i feel like BOTH at the same time-- all the time.

(btw that "BOTH" doesn't imply "theres only 2 genders" garbage. i meant "both girl and boy")

.......im repeating myself a lot so im just gonna drop this haaahhhhh

man, being bigender is cool actually...