I Just Cannot Stop Thinking Of Jon Trying So Hard To Grieve For The Real Elias After He Finds Out Because

i just cannot stop thinking of jon trying so hard to grieve for the real elias after he Finds Out because elias died scared and alone to the same power that destroyed jon, because elias was also forced to watch his own body become entirely alien to him as he became Something Else, because elias and jon have both been tortured and Changed by the same man, because jon might be the only person in the world who understands what happened to him and is definitely the only person in the world who cares.

But also, jon can't think of elias' face without having to choke back a scream, cant utter elias' name without wanting to cry, cant think about elias' body without the feeling of being watched, worms burrowing into his skin, the agony of not being able to remember his friend's face, his mind being broken, hellish flames on his hand, falling from a great height, a knife against his windpipe, plastic fingers against his skin, dying, coming back wrong, darkness beyond everything hes ever known, dirt in his lungs, losing everyone hes ever loved, strings controlling his every move. He cant grieve for elias without grieving for himself. And he know, he knows, he Knows that none of it was ever elias' fault. Elias was just some poor stupid idiot who ended up in an evil place and had his life stolen by an evil man, just like jon. Jon knows elias never actually did anything to him, but he cant forgive him for the things done by his body. He wants to grieve, he tries to grieve, he does grieve. But he can never grieve properly for the man who was lost because he is inseparable from the man who took him.

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Like he gave everything to the eye and it threw him away like he was nothing. He had killed a lot of people and even ones he had loved. He had to kill his humanity and even who he was for it. He spent centuries sacrificing and serving it so it can have the world in its image, So it can have power. And it threw him away without a second thought. For someone who was trying to kill it.

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6 months ago

How nobody is calling out this post clearly feeling eye power related is shocking to me…

For some reason when I was first listening to tma, I didn't process that Elias was the head of the Institute. So my first introduction to him was that Jon was going to ask him to increase security (because worms).

I thought that Elias was just the security guy. He was the one security guard in the place or something. And so I created this picture of him in my head where he was this semi-spiffy blond 30yr old guy who was super laid back and smoked weed.

And then I figured it out, and I was sad bc I had to change my brain picture of him.

BUT THEN

I WAS ACTUALLY R I G H T

AFTER MONTHS OF THINKING I WAS JUST BAD AT LISTENING

TURNS OUT I'M ACTUALLY JUST PROPHETIC

SO TAKE THAT


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