Not Charismatic Enough

My own mother's "it really would be better if you killed yourself" keeps ringing in my head.

Like, eventually it will happen, but

there are no buts

I want to cut because seeing the blood run is like being able to cry when I can't, my whole soul really shudders because I can't do it, I'm so sorry nothing will change

*sips coffe* men.

HE FUCKING LIED TO ME???

"Sorry, my finger is already taken"

"You have another 19 free"

THAT WAS WILD BRO, keep going.

AJUAAAA QUE BONISSSSS <3333

COMO QUE TE HICIERON LA T WORD???

HIJOS DE LA FREGADA TODOS

YA SÉ Q CORAJE

PERDÍ TODO Y MIS MOOTIES YA NO ME RECONOCEN

Yes, please

-"I can't love"

-"Aw, Stop being rude to yourself! Everyone can love and empathize!"

-"I can't love or empathize, I can pretend but I really don't feel it"

-"Okay, so imagine the person you love the most leaves your life, wouldn't that make you sad?"

-"No."

And so there are many examples of people trying to humanize me, is it really that hard for people to believe that I just struggle/can't really feel?, Yes, I can cry, but I cry out of simple narcissism, out of simple frustration, for myself.

I don't give a damn if you stop talking to me or if something happens to someone, if it doesn't affect ME per se then I just don't care.

I know the whole "If you're not wearing a dark girlie coord then you're not a jirai!" discussion is a bit overdone, but- I want to put your favorite and most used representative icon of the jirais as example, KAngel.

Do you see this gal wearing a coord 24/7? No! She wears whatever she wants, whatever her non-functional little head (like us landmines) tells her "I'm going to look super cool in this! ! !" And yet, she is one of the greatest representatives of Jirai characters.

Yeah, you're right, she does have some arts where she uses a coord, but as I mentioned, it's not her greatest characteristic and neither the reason why she's called a jirai, we know that the reason she's actually called a Jirai icon is because her personality.

Heheh I just got a pocket watch to wear as a necklace :33

Btw I was also thinking about redoing the blog theme, probably about Hachiware because I got a little too obsessed with that little creature.