It is 2 am and I certainly don't have time to be spamming a tumblr's inbox...... but
The other anon commenting about Nikolai being romantic just gave me something to rant about omg. Because i've seen so many people misunderstand Nikolai and genuinely call him insane and a crazy sadist like... ahhsjkdaksjjdks it runs me up the walls
First of all Nikolai's philosophy partially derives off him being inherently good. He wants to escape the mind, emotions it gives, and to sum it up his humanity; so he does things that is against his own self. One is killing. Nikolai literally sees murder and torture as something that is opposite to what his humanity makes him. that's why he does it. And even after mutilating unknown amounts of people he still feels guilt, he still feels emotion (i've seen others say that he was lying to atsushi during that whole speech about his guilt but i don't think so?? He took off his eyepatch, which in every single scene he's done so he's shown to be telling the truth of his character. It's a signifier, a literal 'unmasking'. And he says to himself, when Atsushi says he doesn't get nikolai's ideology that "only dos-kun understands" inferring him being truthful. Plus how he reacts to Fyodor's death which will be covered, too), he still hasn't parted completely from his guilt, empathy, humanity.
And Nikolai loves dearly. Deeply he feels for those who GET him. Nikolai craves connection, another thing he attempts to distance himself from, and found that in Fyodor. And he loves so dearly that once he thinks Fyodor is dead he betrays going against his ideology to do something so human for him; getting down on his knees, bringing Fyodor's severed hand to his face, and mourning him. It took a man who knew him for a brisk time and had to only understand him to be enough for Nikolai to crumble for, at least just once. And it proves after all this mental anguish he's caused himself, he still isn't numb and he will probably never be "free". But I also think because of this all, Nikolai, if given the right set of circumstances, would be a deeply intimate and beautiful human being.
If this makes you lower your word count limits I am so sorry 😭 (i checked, this has (updated) 450...)
Final message: Nikolai is lovely, so so tragic, I need his backstory, need him to crush my head between his thighs and dry hump my face till he cums in his pants, I don't know how to make words on this app small, and your writing is amazing i'm going to sleep now goodnight
i do believe nikolai is a deeply sentimental person at heart. but i also think his insanity and sadism is a part of him. i like to think that, over time of trying to be as monstrous just to detach himself from being humane—perhaps he does feel some kind of euphoria when hurting someone, as he knows he's doing something that's beyond humane. but i also think that euphoria is just temporary, since we can agree that he does feel guilty for murdering and hurting people. and mayhaps, his sadism is also a way for him to cope with his guilt.
i definitely agree that if he's brought up in different circumstances, he could be a very empathetic person. i mean, he is already empathetic to his victims where he made them believe he's just a monster
Hello I hope you're having a good day! Can I request a Victor x GN! Reader who is taller than him and decided to cheat during a match by carrying him out of the exit gate while incapacitated hehe
yes!!! I try to keep my writings GN unless otherwise stated, so hopefully you’re able to enjoy this! I also hope hc’s are alright for this one
Victor x Tall!Reader that he carries out of the exit gate
Usually, you’re the one coming to Victor’s rescue, both in and out of games. You understand his anxieties and needs like nobody else, and it’s easy to keep watch over him when you can quite literally watch over him.
Of course, he’s super grateful! But at the same time, he feels a bit guilty. In his eyes, you do so much for him and it would be nice to reciprocate that once and a while. It’d show he’s really appreciative, you know?
The next match you guys are in, it’s a really close match between you guys and Galatea. Victor ended up getting first kite, and once again you were right there to rescue him. By some miracle, you’ve managed to shake Galatea off him, and now it’s Victor’s turn to decode.
As he’s sending you urgent letters, that nagging feeling of wanting to return the favor returns. But as you’re getting chaired and he’s on half health, all he can do is stick to the cipher machines as another teammate comes to your rescue.
Maybe it was jealousy, or simply frustration from not being able to go over there himself, but he doesn’t like the idea of someone else rescuing his beloved. Not that there’s anything he can do about it though…at least not for now.
By the time the cipher’s popped, it’s just you and Victor left. He gives himself the Hope letter and gets the gate opened in a jiffy, and just as you’re making your way over, a stray statue sends you straight to the ground, incapacitated.
Perhaps it was the sight of seeing you on the ground within arm’s reach, or of Galatea making her way over with that detention-red glare in her eyes, but in a moment Victor’s scooping you up in his arms and carrying you out of the gate.
The last thing you remember before you pass out from exhaustion is his tired, triumphant smile as he looks down at you, eyes full of love.
Of course, he gets penalized and suspended from games for a week. He doesn’t regret any of it though...well, except for the fact that people have been coming up to him asking what all happened. They’re probably gossiping about him too, aren’t they? Oh dear…
Stare.
Characters: akito shinonome, tsukasa tenma, rui kamishiro.
(Sorry for no toya :(( i couldn't rlly think anything for him so its just these three for now)
(anyways i hope yall enjoy :D)
He probably asked if he could practice on you for his crush (that crush being you obviously)
If you give him permission he would probably start freaking out on the inside and will try to look as cool and calm as possible
If you're nervous then don't worry cus hes most likely 5x or even 10x more nervous than you
Bro's palms are sweaty asf /hj
Once your lips connected with his, hes just melting and freaking out on the inside atp.
Hes not an amazing kisser at first but once he eases in and gets used to it he just gets cocky and gives the most best kisses ever.
The next thing you know, you two are making out like animals
He obviously confesses to you after you two were done making out (cus who the hell wouldn't confess to their crush after they literally made out??)
He asked you if he could practice on you for a show that was coming up
If you tell him that you'll help him he'll be very happy and a little nervous
After he told you some lines that were in the script, he mentally and physically prepared himself to kiss you
He was freaking out so much that he couldnt even start the kiss
After you calmed him down, he gently cupped one of your cheeks and held your hand and slowly leaned in.
His lips slightly brushing against yours before he lets out a small sigh and gives you a sweet gentle kiss <3333
After the kiss he gets all bashful and asks if he can kiss you again
So you guys just start giving eachother a bunch of kisses <3333
Same situation as tsukasa except he lies about it
He just wanted an excuse so that he could finally kiss you okay >:((
If you say that you'll help him he'll get the most smug cat-like grin on his face ever
Bro is just confident
He'll get just a teeny tiny bit 🤏 cocky if he notices that you're nervous
Dw tho, he thinks its cute
Bro had everything planned out in his head
He'll just gently hold your face or hands or just anywhere
Bro once he kissed you bro it was just– *fireworks starts blasting out of me* 🎆🎆🎇🎇🎇🎆🎆🎆🎆🎇🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆🎆🎇🎆🎇🎆🎇🎇🎆🎇🎆🎆🎇
Ahem anyways-
Bro is an amazing kisser
You ask him why he needed to practice since you think hes already a good kisser
He just responds with-
“i just wanted an excuse to finally kiss the person that i love so much.”
*fucking explodes and evaporates* YSIGKSGCGKCFCSCKSCKS
i love rui very much mwah mwah
(YAYY THAT WAS THE ENDDDSDDOYSVOSYV, dont worry ab how im acting rn im just feeling a little different rn lmao-)
(i'll probably update this or make a separate one later if i thought of one for toya)
ANYWAYS THANKS FOR READING YALL BYEEEEE SEE YOU GUYS NEXT TIME-
my favorite meme
Oh! So you are also too shy and scared to show your face, right?
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Right? •-•
sillies
im not immune to warcrimes when the warcrimer is just a little guy so here is a little gif of him