[transcript: 1. “god is fucking with my oblivion. if he wants forgiveness, he shouldn’t have given us memory.”
2. “your god comes and he is ordinary and terrible. he confers with the doctors at your kitchen table and tells you to eat….”
3. “our father who art in heaven. our father who art buried in the yard.”
4. “at the trial of god, we will ask: ‘why did you allow all this?’ and the answer will be an echo: ‘why did you allow all this?’”
5. “i don’t believe in god as much as i believe in the interrogation room. i believe in someone placing a loaded gun on a metal table between me and a door. who gets to be god then? will god be the bullet or the table or the door.”
6. “every spy knows this. some say god is where we put our sorrow. god says, which one of you fuckers can get to me first?”/end transcript.]
vi khi nao— fish in exile/leila chatti— portrait of the illness as nightmare/richard siken— snow and dirty rain/ilya kaminsky— a city like a guillotine shivers on its way to the neck/hanif abdurraqib— all the tv shows are about cops/richard siken— war of the foxes
It’s Barbie month.
There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.
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-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned
research shows that girls love to go to bed
WOMEN COVERED IN BLOOD IN CINEMA: Carrie (1976) Gone Girl (2014) Assassination Nation (2018) Jennifer’s Body (2009) Revenge (2017) The Witch (2015) Rise: Blood Hunter (2007) The Descent (2005)
“I don’t know what living a balanced life feels like. When I am sad, I don’t cry, I pour. When I am happy, I don’t smile, I glow. When I am angry, I don’t yell, I burn. The good thing about feeling in extremes, is when I love, I give them wings. But perhaps that isn’t such a good thing, cause they always tend to leave and you should see me, when my heart is broken. I don’t grieve, I shatter.”
— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey
Harry Styles attends the 2021 GRAMMY Awards
Emery Lord, The Start of You and Me
MARILYN MONROE in colour - at a press conference, June 1956
Clarice Lispector ― A Breath of Life
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maddy’s makeup
Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka: 1914-1923
YOU GOT TO BELIEVE IN POETRY CAUSE EVERYTHING IN THIS LIFE, INCLUDING YOU WILL FAIL YOU.
Alexa Demie for Cultured Magazine
Stevie photographed during the ‘Rumours Tour’ at Madison Square Garden in 1977.
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WANTED: A CUTE BOY WITH MESSY HAIR WHO IS TALL AND SMELLS NICE AND ENJOYS CUDDLES, WHO WILL TAKE ME TO AQUARIUMS AND POINT TO THE UGLIEST FISH THEY CAN SEE AND SAY “THAT ONE IS YOU” BUT WHO WILL ALSO TAKE ME TO PLANETARIUMS AND TELL ME THAT I AM PRETTIER THAN ALL OF THE STARS IN THE SKY.
Harry Styles - Lights Up
It's so fucking symbolic that everyone was touching and rubbing on Harry but he was just standing trying to sing about being himself.
Its fine. I'm fine.
(it's not)
HS1 || HS2
All the lights couldn’t put out the dark running through my heart. Lights up, and they know who you are, know who you are. Do you know who you are? HARRY STYLES - LIGHTS UP
HS2 IS BLUE! SHE’S COMING
things to die for: harry's freckles.