No one really tells you that when you're disabled, visibly or not, you'll have to get over feeling the need to apologize for everything.
You'll apologize for
Not being able to move quickly through small doors and walkways
Not being able to eat foods your friends like, make, or want you to try.
Having to ask for help.
Asking for space and to not be touched.
Needing accommodations
Being passionate about something
Being tired
Being tired when you weren't an hour ago
Being in pain
Being in pain when you weren't an hour ago
Going outside
Not going outside
Being on disability
Having brain fog
Needing medication
Not being "nice"
Using mobility aides
Asking people to simply do their jobs
Wanting to be treated like a human
And so much more
I know I shouldn't apologize for these things. It's not my fault. But, when you've been raised in a world where your very presence is an inconvenience and worth apology, it's hard to not break out of that cycle.
Don't even get me started on the underlying feeling that your partner, family, and friends are saints for "putting up with you."
I know it's a thing I have to work though myself. It's internalized ableism that I need to fix. But it sucks that it was instilled in me and now I have to deal with it.
top surgery tip 1)
get yourself used to sleeping on your back (and possibly elevated depending on your surgeon) BEFORE surgery.
Disability will have you thinking shit like “I’m not even that disabled. I can manage as long as I limit myself to very specific careers, never go shopping for more than an hour or two at a time, keep my plans open so I can cancel and stay in if need be, and only go out a few nights per week at the most”
This year you:
Fakeclaimed yourself 5,729 times
Accidentally discovered 92 trauma memories
Immediately forgot 92 trauma memories
Contradicted something a different headmate said 288 times
Almost outed yourself 45 times
Had littles spend all your money 67 times
Forgot what you were doing 2,890 times
Failed to mask as the host 176 times
Split who knows how many new headmates
Repeated the same story 39 times
Got jumpscared by your reflection 103 times
Your top moods this year:
Who the fuck am I
What if I’m secretly faking it
How long have I been standing here dissociating
I suddenly hate (current activity)
When did we split (headmate)???
“Americans believe in big portions! That’s so crazy.” Look at this European getting scammed into paying for 100 calories worth of food. Fool. Idiot. You wish you could have this 16 ounce Big Gulp and this serving of rice I will eat off for three days but you can’t. Cope and seethe.
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The way to avoid being a celebrity dick rider is to understand that no one rich AND famous AND influential makes it in those industries without at the very least knowing where some bodies are buried, keeping quiet about some exploitation or abuse, or making friendships and connections with the kind of people who are doing the lion's share of destroying the planet. And that at a certain point, they have more in common with elites than the ordinary people who support them. And also, they're going to be an unavoidable part of your media landscape unless you disengage completely from popular culture and alienate yourself from anyone who touches it. And also, your response to a celebrity's fuckshit is never as important to your response to the same fuckshit in your own community that you have direct influence over and the ability to organize around.
So we definitely need more positive representation of DID, but you know what would be funny? Mildly inconvenient representation of DID.
Oh the world is ending and you need to know about this one specific thing? Yeah I have a guy for that but he doesn't feel like fronting right now
Sorry what's happening rn is this the bad guy? Yeah I just switched in idk what's going on
I know you're dating one alter but we're currently co-con with another alter who hates you so idk how I'm feeling rn
And just who do i think I am? It's funny you should ask that I actually don't know right now
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