"it seems to me i orchestrate my own inevitable fate"she/heranother account of @monotone-moon
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Studying for my maths exam rn and I'm trying to get myself to stay focused by imagining 37 looking over my shoulder and encouraging me to go on
i would like to propose a new accessibility feature for movies where every time a brown-haired white man comes on screen they tell me which one he is
Keep scrolling, there's nothing fishy going on here
love my pumpkin
scary my pumpkin
Need you guys to know I am soooo anti generative AI. In case that wasn't clear. It's bad for the environment, unethical, theft, and will never be as freaky as me. It is inferior in every way
— Sylvia Plath
We will never see each other
[Kiperina & Voyager | Reverse: 1999 Official Art]
THEY'RE GIVING EACH OTHER FLOWERS
HELLO???
Writing a novel when you imagine all you stories in film format is hard because there’s really no written equivalent of “lens flare” or “slow motion montage backed by Gregorian choir”
I'll do my crying in the rain.
hey. so.
if your in the reverse 1999 fandom and don't know what's going on,
the current main writer got outed as a woman hating, lesbophobic person who is the reason the game has been going downhill like it has, with its more racist patches and less of a sapphic lean.
woman and poc are the main focus of the game, as the game shows the oppressed by them, using the idea of arcanists being oppressed as a way to show how woman and poc really are
the fact that bluepoch hired someone like that is despicable and many are protesting by a boycott.
if you haven't already,
DONT BUT ANYTHING FROM THIS PATCH. THERE IS A GLOBAL AND CN PROTEST GOING ON.
if you want the game devs to listen, we NEED to protest. more of the drama is on twitter, so please if you have twitter, help support the movement but spreading the word
you ever think about how kaeya is everything crepus wanted diluc to be.
this makes me soooo sick bc imagine being diluc. your entire childhood you strived to make your father proud and rise to his expectations and you DO, you get a vision at 10, become a cavalry captain at 14 (we should talk about that actually, what in the child soldier—) and everything is great. but then your dad dies and your entire world falls apart in just one day and you leave everything you know behind on a pointless quest for revenge. you come back years later and everything is the same but so, so different.
and then there's your little brother. undoubtedly capable, but never truly showing what he can do. he's cunning and strategic and always five steps ahead of everyone else, but timid, usually letting you or jean do the talking. he prefers sticking to the shadows (your shadow, specifically—), working behind the scenes. that's how you remember him.
but you come back and there he is. a stranger wearing your best friends face (not your best friend, not anymore, not after—). he's still the same, capable and cunning and smart and strategic, still working behind the scenes, but he's so, so different. gone are the gentle, shy smiles, the timid personality, the preference for sticking to somebody's shadow (there's no shadow to hide in, anymore—).
instead, he's outgoing and confident and there's a near-constant cocky smirk on his face and you don't know who you're looking at. to the people, he's the beloved cavalry captain. the acting grand masters right-hand man, a talented swordsman and vision-wielder. the "top candidate for grandson-in-law" if the word on the street is to be believed. he's reliable and witty and kind, always offering aid when he can. he doesn't look down on anyone, friendly even towards the most unusual visitors.
the model knight, one could say.
he walks into your tavern one night, orders his usual (a death after noon, your father's favourite, of all things, is he joking) and you watch as he chats up the most random people there. all charming smiles and suave words and you have to blink a few times as he absentmindedly twirls his wine glass. your mind is playing tricks on you, you know it, they have zero similarities in physical appearance, but for a second you could swear—
he looks just like your father.
(there's this little girl that follows him around sometimes. well. really, he's following her around, with the way she always runs ahead. she's energetic and chatty and you can't help but notice the pyro vision shining from her backpack (mocking you—) as kaeya looks at her with pure, unfathomable fondness, like she's the only thing that matters in the world.
the first time you hear her calling for his attention, you pause, for just a second. you've seen them around enough to be familiar with the duo, but that. that's a first. an excited voice sounds from somewhere over your shoulder, "big brother kaeya! look, look!" and you take a moment before glancing over. the little girl is crouching on the sidewalk, pointing at something on the ground and staring up at keaya with big, curious eyes. kaeya's there, leaning over her with a gentle smile and a soft, soft look in his eyes—. you turn away.
you can't quite catch kaeya's response, with him having a lot more control over his volume than an enthusiastic child, but his quiet chuckle and following, affectionate tone still register in your mind.
"looks like he's a model older brother, too.")
Am I really that bed💔😢
graphic design is my passion
snippets of my presentation for english club. yes i stayed all night for this. yes i fell into the spiral. and yes i had been talking for at least 40 minutes. i don't know if it was worth it. but i like to look at these from time to time.
video i made like 3 or 4 years ago that sticks with me to the end of time
hi fellas!! welcome to my new personal blog!! i made this april 2025 because i got a lil tired of just having reposts of politics on my other blog but didn't want to out of the blue switch up the content so i made this one. follow my first blog if you want its @monotone-moon (i'll try my best to be active on both but dont expect that)
be warned for under the cut, for i am what the youth call a "pro yapper".
for more context and a lil about me -- i'm zuni but honestly you can call me anything and give me whatever stupid ass nickname you want (i go by kneelover13 with my irl friends when we talk online so i know stupid stupid nicknames). i'm a minor, and don't plan on revealing my age anytime soon as i like not being preyed upon. just know im over 13 and under 18. im also pakistani – punjabi, if you want to be specific, and muslim too. i live in the us so if this blog seems usacentric that is why. i'm aroace, i'm likely neurodivergent, and also incredibly 𝒻𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓀𝓎 [read: vulgar] with my friends, though i don't use any slurs; just swears. let me know if a thing i said or something of the sort makes you uncomfortable. it would not have been my intention (if i hated you that much i would just block you lmao) i'm just naturally very out of pocket, but i do care and take things seriously when needed.
my interests include :
music!! specifically will wood and inabakumori. also natori. and a few other ones but theyre minor. those three are my real goats lol
video games: i am a nasty ipad child and make no defense against it. i have no pc nor console nor laptop and therefore my only options for video games are ones available on mobile. so forgive me. one of my favorite games is genshin impact, i've played it since version 1.4 and its remained a constant fandom of mines so my interest in it likely isn't waning soon unless they fuck up snezhnaya the way they did natlan. i also really like reverse:1999 – its definitely my second favorite game. im a big character enjoyer and the story and character designs are just so peak AND i love me some evil lesbians!!! those are the only two i play currently, though i did pick up crk for a few months in 2022, hsr from launch until 3.0 (powercreep just got a lil too big, but if the story seems nice i may return) and pjsk for like 2 years, though i only ever read the main stories of each unit because i was too intimidated by the pile of events i would need to do to experience every units full story. and i also play roblox. i actually really enjoy building in bloxburg – i consider it a hobby. bloxburg is probably the only game ive played on roblox in the past 3 months lmao
fiber arts!! i picked up crochet in april 2023 and it got me obsessed with fabric and fibers and all their history and usage and cute things you can make with it. since then, ive learned sewing, embroidery, cross stitch, and knitting, and want to learn needlefelting to make cute calico critters (PLEASE dont they look so cute).
other misc shit: these guys dont deserve their own section, so theyre here.
-visual arts: im trying to learn how to draw. place emphasis on try. i don't plan on posting anything here until i feel proud enough of my art to post online.
-theatre: while i am in drama class, im too evil for rehearsals, so i'm a crew kid. i didn't originally join to be in crew, i did it to be in theatre, but over time i found enjoyment in the building and designing of all the aspects of the show and honestly would rather do it over cast if given the chance.
-baking: yumyumymmuy food??? what else do i say
-reading and writing: while both of these have paused as a hobby in my life i believe i will return to them, so i list them here. some of my favorite book series are percy jackson, unwind, and the lunar chronicles.
-probably something else. as i write this i get the feeling i'm forgetting something.
notes:
feel free to send me stuff and talk to me!! ask box is open, dms are open, i really want to make friends but ngl dming people is scary so you're gonna have to make the first move. i don't mind if your first message is extremely awkward or anything, it can even be an image of will wood in the microwave. i do not care.
i'll follow back if you follow me, but i will block you if i dont like you. very simple
if you want to learn more about my political stances for whatever reason then check out my other blog's recent reblogs. dont scroll before 2025 for i have experienced evolution since then and my previous views will be inaccurate to who i am now.
"hey you forgot to list what shows and movies you like!" guys i am so sorry but i literally do not watch movies. or shows. like idk why but i deadass procrastinate watching any shows or movies so much even if theyre super enjoyable to me. happened with BSD, i watched like one season and for whatever reason just never watched the second?? i wasn't even dreading it or nothing. i liked it, i just put off watching until i forgot. the most popular movie or tv show i've watched is odd squad.
irls can interact i honestly dont care most of my irls are cool anyways
if i could get some cool mutuals and friends with similar personalities or interests that would be really nice!!! follow me guys i swear im cool and not as serious as i sound in this post pleasepalaseeplase