I feel like such a phetatic human being. I think the reason why I want to reach my gw so bad is, that then for once I can achieve something in my life. I can’t wait for that day.
The word 4nor3xic seems so unfamiliar to me sometimes. So distant. So not me, but at the same time it is me. It is what makes and breaks my day. I relate and understand it so well, but at the same time I feel distant from it. Like I am just watching from outside of my body.