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9-1-1 on abc / Mary Elizabeth Frye, “Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep”
Need a 911 fic where Buck hits his head and is disoriented and confused when he wakes up. He thinks him and Eddie are dating.
Not because he has an amnesia or anything, but because Ravi was the one helping jog his memory and nothing Ravi knows about the 118 is right.
i have talked about this before. but it is legitimately fucking insane to me that a guy gets shot. and because the guy is a single dad, his best friend steps up to take care of his kid and keep him on his schedule while his dad's in the hospital recovering, stays at his house and sleeps on the couch and takes the kid to school etc etc. normal! cool, normal, extremely generous, lovely best friend behavior. but then when the guy wakes up, the best friend says: i should have held it together better, i was really struggling and i broke down in front of your son, and i just think it would have been better for him if i had been the one to get shot. which – this is an objectively true statement. for anyone normal, yes; that is a gut punch of a sentiment, and it is heartbreaking to hear buck say it out loud, but it is objectively true for anyone normal that it would be better for a child if his dad's best friend got shot vs his only living parent getting shot. you know? like that is not an insane thing to say, even in the context of all of everything between them. but then the dad – AND THE NARRATIVE OF THE SHOW – says no actually, you're wrong. it wouldn't have been better. it would have been the same; it would have had the same effect on my son if you had been the one to get shot. you matter to me, and you matter to him, and you are an important enough part of both of our lives that i have you written into my living will. i have an advance directive that says, in the case of my death, i want you to gain custody of my son. you, my best friend, and not my own parents or my aunt or my grandmother or either of my sisters. you. and you stepping up like this proved that i was right. and I cannot stress enough how insane it is that not only do the characters believe this, but the ACTUAL NARRATIVE OF THE SHOW agrees with them and backs them up and says: this is the reality of the situation. like!!!!
If this is what they do. If this is what they do i might just forgive them.
Bobby's dead, and Eddie's only back because of it, and Buck's been living in his house, and they've both been so lonely, and they know they can lean on each other, and a loss like this is something they've never faced before they don't know how to face it.
And the funeral is beautiful, Athena and the kids keep it together better than the 118 ever could, and there's fucking Tommy, and Gerrard, and all the reasons Bobby's life was made hell before he died and it's too much.
Eddie keeps himself together until they get home and Buck finally allows himself to break. They don't know what to do, there's nothing they can do but comfort each other. The hug doesn't feel close enough, doesn't let them feel alive enough, and Buck's always one to be impulsive when his emotions are too much.
And Eddie asks what he can do, a parallel to when Eddie's life was crumbling around him. He rests their foreheads together, whispers as he still clings to Buck, I'm here. What can I do? and Buck kisses him.
It's not how it's supposed to happen, but nothing about their lives or their relationship has ever been the way it was supposed to. Bobby brought them together over a grenade and it's finally traveled enough distance to go boom. They neither one care if they survive the blast.
And then Buck's phone rings, it's the only thing that separates them. He doesn't want to answer it, doesn't want to let go of Eddie for anything, but it's Maddie, he has to answer it, freaks out that it may be Chim, or the kids, or-
"Bobby's alive."
And they neither one talk about it, neither one acknowledge it, how can they sort out their own feelings when they're running to the hospital to piece back together the family they thought would never be whole again?
Buck: Do we know exactly how Bobby survived?
Chim: Yeah because we were infected at the same time, and he was fine for most of it?
Hen: His golden blood kept him safe. And even though it was a super strain, changing the way the disease spreads diminished its lethality.
Ravi: So it wasn't airborne after all?
Eddie: I was wondering about that. The regular CCHF spreads through insect bites or contact with fluids of another infected human.
Hen: Yeah, the super strain tried to change that and made it more unstable in the process.
Buck: Hence Cap's zombie routine.
Chim: Well, thank God for Cap's resurrection powers.
Eddie: I guess Cap has his Halloween costume locked in now.
i have no idea if they plan to keep bobby dead or if they will bring him back but i know this. eddie will not be going back to el paso after the funeral. sure he’ll go back to sell the house of smth but he’s going to move back. not because of buddie (though that will be a huge win) but because eddie doesnt want to miss anything else. eddie created a life and a family for himself in la. his son spent half his life there and his second dad is there too. eddie will not move back to el paso because bobby dying will remind him of that life he built and him not being there for bobby’s death will remind him that he doesnt want to miss his family anymore
“Can I ask you a question?” Buck blurts out as Eddie pours creamer into their coffee. It’s the algae creamer that Buck uses. Eddie picked it up when he was out grocery shopping last. Even though he was shopping for his house and not Buck’s. Even though he doesn’t use it. Eddie buys a different one for his. Some fancy caramel macchiato type stuff that he splurges on because Frank told him to treat himself and Eddie apparently can only do that with coffee creamer.
“Go for it.” Eddie hums in reply, clicking the tops shut and carrying the creamer bottles to the fridge. He’s wearing old sweats with a hole in the thigh. Bare toes peek out from the bottom. His shirt is old and loose, dipping at the collar. There’s an unknown stain on the chest. He’s got day old stubble growing on his jaw and his hair is sleep ruffled and soft. He looks beautiful.
“Wanna get married?”
Eddie fumbles the bottles, the fridge door open, and his head snaps over to Buck, mouth parted in surprise and eyes wide. He says nothing.
“Look, h-hear me out,” Buck steps forward, rubber spatula gripped tightly in both hands. The eggs he’d been about to cook for them for breakfast remain forgotten beside the stove. “We…we love each other. We basically live together. I’m pretty sure I’ve been helping you raise your son?” Buck releases a slightly manic laugh. “Eddie, I’ve never felt so comfortable or at home with someone. I’ve never known another home like I know yours. I’ve seen you at your absolute worst and your absolute best. The same applies for you with me. And…and we still love each other. We keep coming back to each other. And I…I do. You know? L-love you. As a best friend. As a work partner. As…as my person.”
Eddie is still staring. Mouth open. Eyes wide. Creamer bottles in hand.
“I have loved you since probably the moment I met you. And it’s only grown and blossomed into…” Buck gestures wildly around the room, “This! Eddie. We’re already married. Why don’t we make it official?”
Buck feels like he’s run a marathon when he finishes. His chest rises and falls rapidly. His heart is going crazy in his chest.
Eddie slowly turns, puts the creamers away, and shuts the door. Buck watches. Waits.
And then Eddie is walking towards him and Buck can’t read his expression. He always has known what Eddie is thinking. It’s one of the many things Buck loves about the man.
But right now? When Buck has bared it all out in front of them? He has no idea what Eddie is thinking.
“You…” Eddie trails off, shaking his head. “Buck.”
“I—“
“Am I allowed to at least take you on a single date before you propose?” Eddie cuts him off. And a beautiful smile is lighting up his face. It’s soft and sweet and all Buck’s.
“I…y-yeah. Of c-course.”
“Good.” Eddie sways forward, hand resting on Buck’s hip, and he brushes his mouth across Buck’s. A first kiss. Their first kiss. But it feels like one they’re exchanged thousands of times. “But for the record…yes. I’ll marry you.”
Buck grins back, looping his arms around Eddie’s neck and pulling him back in for another kiss. This one longer and deeper.
Eddie snorts when they pull apart, just enough to look at each other. “Proposing to me and we aren’t even together.”
“We’ve always been a little together.”
“Okay. That may be true.” Eddie grins, “Can you make breakfast now? I’m hungry.”
KILLING myself jesus (bobby) christ
The 118 - Leave the horror here (8x15)
Oh no i fear she ate😦🫣
she spilled the tea whether you like it or not
If so, I take it all back. The queerbaiting was better.
is this our price for getting buddie :(
No cuz those were my EXACT thoughts on Athena and Bobby when I first watched too!!!
911 thoughts from a newbie watcher:
spoilers for 1x06 - 1x10
(excuse name errors/spelling mistakes i am not good at remembering shit hence why i want to make this post cause i think it’s fun to do & people might enjoy reading my brain pluckings as i fight to catch up with you all)
- yayayaya chimney is back i missed him! the way he was helping bobby these episodes was melting my heart, i love their friendship so much. also his banter with buck was hilarious i love them so much!
- buck choking on his date with Abby gave me second hand embarrassment lmfao. he’s such a silly goose.
- I am loving athena and hens friendship and gossip sessions though hehe.
- abby and buck doing the deed? while hen and her no good ex are at it too? no comment. i appreciate abby and buck being there for one another’s comfort but i don’t like them as a situationship, no thank you. im not sad she’s going to travel, it’s cute she’s gonna live her life and do things to make herself happy.
- athena almost got chopped up?? leave my girl alone the fuck?? her goodbye to her husband hurt my heart, she deserves all good things in life and i wanna keep her safe. ALSO her getting cuffed doing the nasty with that hot guy was hilarious, hen is a real one for saving her ass bahahaha
- Bobby talking about reaching 148 and then leaving…. this man keeps making me so sad. I want him to be happy let this man be happy for fks sake :(( im glad he’s getting himself out there and going on dates though hehe he deserves the best! chimney giving him a little pep talk was too sweet, i love their friendship so much. BOBBY THROWING AWAY HIS LIST??
- that motorcycle call… that was the first scene to make me cry. that hurt, especially bobby and athena’s reaction to it.
- ATHENA AND BOBBY??? I DIDNT SEE THAT COMING BUT IM SO HERE FOR IT
i have no future predictions tbh, but i hope athena and bobby last cause they could be so cute together and i hope abby stays away for a long time :))
Oh boy I love this already🤭🤭 keep giving predictions its super fun to see your thoughts!!! lol
911 thoughts from a newbie watcher:
spoilers for 1x01 - 1x05
(excuse name errors/spelling mistakes i am not good at remembering shit hence why i want to make this post cause i think it’s fun to do & people might enjoy reading my brain pluckings as i fight to catch up with you all)
- buck?? he’s so dopey but cute. his birthmark is so adorable and his personality is charming. it’s interesting that they made him a sex addict, im sensing possible trauma? we shall see on that.
- bobby is my favourite character at the moment. the backstory with his wife and children broke my heart and i wanna put him in a jar and keep him safe forever!! also his relationship with buck is cute i love their father/son bond. he’s literally doing his best and i believe in him, i have faith.
- hen is an icon and im loving her so far, stubborn and smart. we love a powerful woman! i do not trust her ex, idc if she’s changed im not buying it. she looks hella suspicious to me and im not trusting this chick at all.
- chimney my sweet boy. the car crash was definitely unexpected also the fucking metal pipe lodging into his brain??? yikes. also idk why he’s lying to this girl to be loved, he’s handsome he could pull a much better woman who would actually give him the love he deserves, anyways im praying he returns soon cause i miss his face.
- abbey i am indifferent about. i can see she’s going through a lot but thirsting over a man half your age isn’t the best way to go about things. im happy she told buck to go home after they found her mum though but still, find a new man and stop calling him at work, it’s unprofessional! that includes your naughty freaky phone call >:((
- man my girl athena is fucking going through it. gay husband, her daughter tried to od and then she got in trouble at work for making the little bitch pay for hurting her child? excuse me, fuck off and leave this baddie alone. she’s just doing her job and protecting people. i am demanding some peace for athena please :((
- THE PLANE EPISODE??? what the actual fuck was that?? the phone call mark? left for his wife made my heart hurt. also the scene when bobby was helping the mother ruined me, i was on the edge of my seat pleading he would save her and not live with that guilt, and ofc that he wouldn’t die because they had me worried for a second.
my predictions for episode 1x06 - 1x10
- abbeys mother will die. don’t ask why but she’s declining so much already and i just sense it.
- abbey and buck are going to do the nasty and im going to bleach my eyes out.
- bobby is gonna either go to rehab for his drinking or he will tell his team so they can be more help to him when he needs it.
- athenas husband will move the fuck out and go be with his new man which fun fact, is an actor who was also in empire!
- chimney will wake up and return (im manifesting this because i miss him already!)
anyways, bobby is currently my #1 and i adore him so very much. athena is right behind him and than id say buck is my third spot!
my favourite hugs on the show are chimbuck hugs I love the way chim just snuggles in there
Evan Buckley & Bobby Nash in 9-1-1 | 1.01 // 8.15
Scrolling through the 911 tag like a dumbass as if anything I see is gonna make me feel better about this.
me in the gc yesterday joking about bobby being buried alive after being presumed dead and i accidentally have a moment of omniscience
Bobby knew the whole time he was infected and took care of literally everyone and didn't say anything until everyone was safely out, I need this man to COME BACK so I can KILL HIM AGAIN you goddamn fucking CAPTAIN
9-1-1 3.01 | Kids Today 8.15 | Lab Rats
finally got a hozier needle drop BUT AT WHAT COST
CAPCULA🧛♂️
CAP DRACULA 🧛♂️
Peter Krause as Bobby Nash in 8x05
has this been done yet?
Peter Krause’s goodbye letter to fans.
Eddie isn't sure what he's expecting when Buck meets him at the airport. Red-rimmed eyes, splotchy face, hunched shoulders probably. Not this. Distant eyes, blank face, straight-backed. He'd been braced to catch Buck as soon as he landed, had spent his whole flight locking every bit of his own grief away to be thought about at a later date, let the guilt pool in his chest instead.
I should've been there, I could've -
He'd been ready to catch Buck, but it's Eddie who falls into Buck's waiting arms. Eddie who tears up. Eddie who clutches at the back of Buck's shirt like a scared child. And it's Buck sweeping his hands up and down Eddie's back, holding him together, murmuring:
"It's okay. I've got you. It's not your fault."
Eddie doesn't cry in LAX. His grief is a private thing. Always has been. He locks it into his bedroom and lets it out behind closed doors. But Buck is the safest space he's ever had, so he lets himself break a little. Lets himself shake apart under Buck's hands until he can ground himself with a deep breath at the junction of Buck's neck and shoulder. Until he can stand on his own.
Buck looks at him, eyes searching, deepest of furrows between his brows, so devastatingly gentle. And Eddie kind of wants to fucking scream at him for being okay. He'd needed to take care of Buck. He'd needed to have something to do. But now Buck is looking at him like he can fix him, and Eddie wants him to. So badly. But Buck knows Eddie's grief is for South Bedford Street, not LAX, so all he does is lead Eddie out to the parking lot.
It's a silent drive. Buck tells him the details of the funeral. Clinical. Sparing. And Eddie watches Buck's knuckles turn white on the steering wheel. Listens to the creak of leather under an unyielding grip. And he sees it then. The countdown over Buck's head, ticking away steadily. He's grateful in a way.
They pull up to the house silently. The engine falls quiet. And they stare at the door. The door Bobby had appeared on the other side of just a few months ago for a goodbye dinner. At the house. The house Bobby made coffee in when Eddie couldn't stomach being alone. At the home. The home Bobby helped him build in every way.
Buck gets out of the car. Eddie follows. Buck unlocks the door. Eddie locks it behind them. Buck disappears into the kitchen. Eddie pauses.
Can't quite separate Bobby from kitchens in his mind. And it's not like Bobby ever cooked anything in Eddie's kitchen, but there's some stupid grief-crazed part of his brain that thinks he'll find Bobby at the stove for a last supper. A parting gift to Eddie. Because Bobby was always too good. Too generous. Too understanding. When it came to Eddie.
When he finally makes it in there, Buck is stood staring into the fridge. Vacant. Eddie joins him, presses their shoulders together as hard as he can without knocking Buck away, and looks at Buck's fingers curled loosely around two beer bottles. Eddie knows it's not the early hour staying his hand.
It feels wrong. To find comfort in alcohol at Bobby's expense.
Carefully, Eddie unpicks Buck's fingers from the bottles and watches as Buck's arm falls limp to his side with such weight it bounces off his hip. Swings once, twice, stops suddenly. Eddie grabs the water filter. Closes the fridge.
"Sit down," he whispers. Sure, steady.
Buck sits down.
Eddie grabs two glasses. Fills them with water. Leaves the filter on the side. Who cares? Who fucking cares? Takes the glasses over to the table in shaking hands. Spills only a little. Sits opposite Buck. Stares into his cup.
"I didn't say it back," Buck rasps eventually.
Eddie picks his head up with great effort. Ony manages it because he wants to see what hurt he's caused. Their missing medic. Absent in their hour of need.
"What?"
"B-he-he told me he loved me." Buck's eyes go wide. Horrified. Haunted. Hollow. "He t-told me he l-loved me, and I could-couldn't say it back be-because that would mean..." Buck chokes a sob into his hand. "I thought we'd fix it. I-I-I thought we'd find a way. We-we always do. I couldn't say it-it. I didn't want t-to let him go. And now, he's..." Buck's face crumples first. Then, the rest of his body follows, folding in on itself in the chair until he looks almost as small as Christopher had the first time he'd ever sat at this table. "He's d-gone, and he doesn't know I love him."
"He knows, Buck." Eddie's hand curls into a fist on the tabletop. Doesn't know what to do. For all he'd been ready to hold Buck together, he's not sure how. "He knows you love him, Buck. You told him every single day."
"But I never said the words!" he snaps. Pure rage. Pure guilt. He looks up at Eddie. Blue eyes wet and red and wild. The rage and the guilt seeps away, leaves only pure grief. "I never said the words."
He sobs then. Doesn't choke it down. Lets it out. Eddie reacts like it's instinct even though he's never done this before. Just somehow knows in his bones what to do when it comes to Buck.
He stands, rounds the table, slides a hand into Buck's hair, one on his shoulder, pulls Buck's face into his stomach and holds him there, holds him together. Buck's fingers tangle themselves in Eddie's belt loops. A lifeline. And Eddie holds him tight as he can.
"All the times you cooked for him. All the times he cooked for you. The two of you cooking together. You had your own language, Buck. He knows you love him."
And all Eddie hears is: you're gonna stand there with a hundred-something bodies on you and tell me I'm not fit for duty. Did Bobby know Eddie loved him too?
Squeezing his eyes shut tight, Eddie drops his cheek to the top of Buck's head. Stops holding Buck together and starts holding on. Buck's hands grasp at his hips, twist into the back of his shirt just like Eddie's had at the airport.
And all Eddie hears is: I just want to make sure you don't think you have to lose everything before you can allow yourself to feel anything.
Coping HARD rn
“You’re not God” no but he is Jesus. See him rise next episode im so serious
EDDIE & BOBBY → 5.18 'Starting Over'
911 characters as supernatural characters but in terms of how they’re handled on the show
bobby = dean (killing the suicidal character)
eddie = cas (important moments happen off screen and he’s also just NOT there)
buck = sam (hasn’t let him had any proper growth and doesn’t address deeper more interesting issues within the character)
hen = meg (making them suffer over and over again for. No reason)
karen = mary (such an interesting character that the show fails to fully realise/utilize)
gerard = john (show keeps trying to redeem him for some fucking reason)
blaze = miracle (random ass dog)