Actually Autistic - Blog Posts
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Reminder: not accepted at home?
I'll be your wacky autistic aunt who accepts you and takes you shopping. And we're also stopping for overpriced ice cream and pancakes so you can tell me everything.
BE WARNED MUTUALS. A NEW AUTISM HAS BEEN UNLOCKED
The way most autism literature describes "literal interpretation" is often not at all similar to how I experience it. Teenage me even thought I couldn't be autistic because I've always been able to learn metaphors easily.
In fact, I love wordplay of all kinds. Teenage me was fascinated to learn all the types of figurative language there are in poetry and literature.
But paperwork and questionnaires are hard, because there's so much they don't state clearly. Or they don't leave room for enough nuance.
"List all the jobs you've had, with start and end dates." What if I don't remember the exact day or month? Is the year enough?
"Have you been suffering from blurred vision?" Well, if I take off my glasses the whole world is blurred, but I'm fairly sure that's not what the intake form at the optometrist is asking.
Or the infamous (and infuriatingly stereotypical) "Would you rather go to a library or a party?" What sort of party? Where? Who's there? I work at a library. Am I currently at the library for work or pleasure? Does it have a good collection?
It's not common figures of speech that confound me. It's ambiguity, in situations that aren't supposed to be ambiguous.
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
I love rediscovering my old interests bc I already know stuff about it but I get to learn/remember them again and fall in love with them on a deeper level
I think some of you forgot that autistic people sometimes act strange and say things that are poorly worded and speak with incorrect tone and misunderstand or miss social cues because they are autistic
How have I been on tumblr for 3 years and 8 months but I haven't even posted anything yet?? I've decided to change that rn for no apparent reason other than It's late and I'm bored and don't wanna go to sleep lol
A little intro abt me:
I'm queer and use they/them pronouns. I write on ao3 sometimes, acc: yooniedae (link at the bottom). My native language isn't English but I'll try my best to not make too many mistakes.
Most of the time, however, I just obsess over my special interests, and that's mostly what I wanna do on here as well as basic rants and spamming whenever I feel like it.
As my username suggests I'm a supernatural fan and autistic (and hc Cas as autistic bc c'mon, hence the username). In addition, I also love bts, art, psychology, mdzs, the marauders era, criminal minds and shoot from the hip (a new special interest I've found and I love them sm). I'm also an avid shipper at heart (e.g., taekook, yoonmin, destiel, wolfstar, wangxian, etc.). Basically just anything queer and/or psychological ig lol
I plan on also sharing links to my fics on here (whenever I post them lol, it's more of a hobby so they'll be very sparse). You don't need to read them, I just like to share them bc usually I like them at least a little bit.
But yeah, that's about all I can think of rn, I'm gonna go back to finishing spn s15 bc no I have not finished it yet smh (but I have gotten spoiled so I know what happens).
Here's my ao3 account for anyone interested:
(HBO) Max taking most, if not all, of the direct-to-video 2000s Scooby Doo movies off of their service is probably the first time I’ve cried over the choices made by a streaming service.
I JUST WANT TO WATCH ABRACADABRA-DOO. OR STAGE FRIGHT. OR MUSIC OF THE VAMPIRE. OR LEGEND OF THE PHANTOSAUR.
GIVE ME MY SCOOBY.
(On another note, they did add A LOT of the old shows, INCLUDING A PUP NAMED SCOOBY DOO, so pluses and minuses I suppose.)
Zapraszam do udziału w moim badaniu nt przyjaźni między dorosłymi autystami!
Dzień dobry, nazywam się Emil Gałaman i jestem studentem Psychologii na Uniwersytecie Łódzkim.
Jeśli jest Panx dorosłą osobą autystyczną i ma Panx znajomych lub przyjaciół w spektrum autyzmu, serdecznie zapraszam do udziału w badaniu, które przeprowadzam w ramach mojej pracy magisterskiej, pod kierunkiem dr Eleonory Bielawskiej-Batorowicz. Badanie ma na celu poszerzenie wiedzy o przyjaźniach między dorosłymi autystami i będzie polegało na rozmowie, podczas której zadam różne pytania dotyczące Państwa przyjaźni z innymi osobami autystycznymi. Pomysł na to badanie wziął się z osobistego doświadczenia, ponieważ sam jestem autystyczny i znam wielu innych autystów. O doświadczeniach tej grupy mówi się od niedawna, a badań na ten konkretny temat właściwie nie ma, więc biorąc udział w moim badaniu mogą Państwo przyczynić się do lepszego poznania doświadczeń autystów z ich własnej perspektywy.
Zachęcam do zapisywania się na rozmowę w trybie stacjonarnym w Instytucie Psychologii Uniwersytetu Łódzkiego przy al. Rodziny Scheiblerów 2 lub w innej uzgodnionej lokalizacji na terenie Łodzi. Możliwe jest także przeprowadzenie rozmowy online przez platformy Skype, Discord lub Signal, zależnie od możliwości logistycznych i osobistego komfortu. W sprawie badania proszę pisać na adres mailowy emil.galaman@protonmail.com, dodać mnie na Discordzie (nazwa użytkownika neurohound), Skype (identyfikator live:.cid.b666e59e0114e1ed) lub Signalu (nazwa użytkownika emil_g.37). Wszystkie inne szczegóły są do uzgodnienia.
Oczywiście jeśli samx nie jesteś autystą, ale znasz kogoś, kto może być zainteresowany, to byłbym wdzięczny za podanie informacji dalej. Z góry dzięki!
shadow helping my with stomach pain and stimming
i’m debating if i should get shadow more outfits on saturday (when my dad takes me out to see sonic 3 again, go eat dinner and shopping) maybe a leather jacket since it’s cold out, what do yall think essa, comfort plush, emotional support plushes and plushie community and other people think??
14 y.o. me, finding out that autism can be a reason to decline gender affirming surgeries and transition in general: well i guess it makes sense doctors probably know what they do
20 y.o. me, randomly remembering this not-so-fun fact: wait, that's fucked up
me, after leaning that been absolutely drained after most of the social interaction to the point where i can't properly function and been in my own head 24/7 is not in fact been introverted and nerdy: oh, who would've guessed
to be honest i don't really like that sometimes representation makes autistic people look like just silly little dudes who all that colourful and happy
like okay sure autistic people have a right to be happy and enjoy things but i wanna see the not-so-happy part of life. yeah, people portray stuff like going nonverbal and sensory overload and all that. but what about those time when you have to shut up mid sentense because you don't wanna sound rude? when you choose to stay silent and exclude yourself from conversations? when you over think what you all the time? when you feel to much and people keep trying to talk to you and you need to shove your feelings down because otherwise you will snap at them? when you have to prepare yourself for hours to simply answer the text from a friend? when something out of your control happens and it changes all your routine and you just sitting there trying not to cry? when your family forget to tell you that you all going to visit relatives and you have 0 time to prepare yourself?
i'm gonna be honest with you: been neurodivergent sucks but lack of opportunity to see people struggling with the same shit sucks more
I fucking hate that the general response to RFK Jr's eugenist take on autistic people is "autistic people do pay taxes, autistic people do work, autistic people do date!"
Some autistic people don't and that shouldn't make them less worthy of life. Some autistic people do need constant help and support and that shouldn't make them less worthy of life.
Once again we're falling in the right wing trap of :
They make a hateful, fascist statement
Instead of focusing on the fact that it is hateful and fascist we try to show them that they are factually wrong
We throw our own allies and the most vulnerable of us under the bus in the process
We legitimise an only slightly less hateful, fascist view as we go
They have completed their goal of making us accept the still hateful, fascist second version, hurrah. What a victory.
Right now what we're getting to with that is that autistic people who can work and pay taxes are okay, and the others aren't. Fuck this shit.
Same thing happens with the people who are being deported ("they have a visa!", "they didn't even have a criminal record!" -> even if they didn't have a visa, even if they did have a criminal record, deporting them and detaining them in what's essentially a concentration camp wouldn't be okay, you absolute tools of fascism.)
I HATE BEING AUTISTIC Σヽ(ﾟДﾟ; )ﾉ
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
I just found out yesterday that the httyd audiobooks are free on youtube and I'm already on book 4
@howtopostanaudiobook on YouTube (they also have the 1st 2 books of the wizards of once)
it was at the exact moment I read this that I realised I did, intact, didn't have my earplugs on me
finally developing a habbit of having my earplugs on hands at all times (those specifically for ear protection) just kinda highlights for me just how fucking unbarable and entirely artificially loud so many public spaces are. I also noticed my auditory processing and cognition improve after not being blasted with loud noise all day. But like why. Why do these structures insist public places have to be as uncomfortable and hostile as possible, even when they're specifically leisure-centric???
I shall never comprehend the neurotipical mind
Delicious in Dungeon ep 17 Spoilers
This scene killed me. my god that's just being autistic.
you do something wrong but people don't tell you, they never do. then over time they end up hating you, but you have no idea!
Laois, they could never make me think you're neurotypical
Autism, the worst one (/silly) mlm, c-did, c-ptsd, gad, and insomnia
audience test
How many disorders do you match with me
NPD
ASPD
STPD
ADHD
AUTISM
SENSORY PROCESSING DISORDER
MAN LOVING MEN (the worst one)
C-DID
C-PTSD
DYSLEXIA
LIKES PICKLES
BIPOLAR / MANIC DEPRESSION
GENERALIZED ANXIETY DISORDER
SELECTIVE MUTISM (fluctuates)
HYPER MOBILITY DISORDER
RESTLESS LEG SYNDROME
INSOMNIA
HCD (huge cock disorder. contagious so I have to be quarantined)
(all medically recognized. don't come @ me because I'm a fucked up guy) ((huge cock disorder is self diagnosed but you have to believe me))
this was actually a very vulnerable post to make but I want ableists to block me and we should not be ashamed to be disordered
your annual reminder:
don’t support autism speaks this month
don’t “light it up blue”
don’t use the puzzle piece symbol
however!
do support autistic content creators
do support “red instead” and the infinity symbol
remember to listen to the voices of marginalised autistic people!
happy autism awareness/acceptance month! go tell your local autistic pal that they’re awesome! if you’re autistic, remember to practice some self-love!
For whoever needs to hear this!
Shoutout to autistic folk /(littles /cgs /pets) who
Have selective /situational mutism
Struggle with group works
Eat oddly (ie with a bowl and a spoon no matter the food)
Who stim a lot in public
Who are afraid /unused to stimming in public
Who struggle with sensory input and can't do daily tasks
Who feel like they'll never be loved for who they are
Don't give up it's alright you are not weird you are you and that's enough
i think part of the reason why i intellectualize my emotions is bc i was always forced to justify why i felt a certain way
guess who has two thumbs and has found out he's been masking at dr's appointments :)
this dumbass right here :))
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it's becoming very apparent that i cannot live according to someone else's schedule
Whenever I see myself on camera, I kind of give myself uncanny valley. Like an alien in a human suit that's trying its best to fit in, and being like 98% successful. Actually that's the autism isn't it
Hey I got this squishy stress ball, do u wanna feel it? (Autistic flirting)
happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!
the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison