Alterhuman - Blog Posts
I wish ppl talked more often abt how therianthropy/non-humanity can potentially impact your entire life. I dont just mean having to deal with smaller scale things like daily shifts or species dysphoria (although those can also definitely have long term impacts), I mean like how it can very literally change the trajectory of your life.
Because of my wildebeest theriotype, I have an extremely strong desire to live a nomadic lifestyle, and I 1000% plan to do so as soon as I know how to do it safely/get the money. I will likely never be fully content staying in any one place for a long period of time, I will always seek out drastic and extended types of traveling, which is gonna really impact me down the line given the current structure of human society.
yeah man it's whatever idrc
*my tail slowly stops wagging and i look up at you with my big sopping wet eyes*
★.°✩ ɪɴᴛʀᴏ ✩ °.★
☆🌱° Hellooo, welcome to my alterhuman acc! ^^ Here mostly to shitpost/ramble, idrk how Tumblr works tbh. This is probably gonna be abandoned in like 2 weeks lmao °🌱☆
☆🌱° Basic Info °🌱☆
🦴✦ Name ➤ Wander
🦴✦ Age ➤ 19
🦴✦ Pronouns ➤ They/Them - It/Its - Fang/Fangs - Key/Keys - Star/Stars
🦴✦ Gender ➤ Trans-Nonbinary + Xenogender
🦴✦ Other Identities ➤ Queer, Lesbian, Ferasexual and Anthrosexual (humans), Ambiamorous, Rabid, Autistic, ADHD, Chronosian, Radinclus, Furry, Therian, Otherkin, Alterhuman, Non-Human, Conceptkin, Otherlink, Transspecies, IRL Werewolf
🦴✦ Hobbies + Interests ➤ Drawing, Playing Guitar (Spanish Acoustic Castella and Electric Squire), Animation, Parkour, Hiking, Urbex, Skateboarding, Cartoons, Zoology, Human Psychology, Zine Making, Fursuit Making, Social Activism, History, Philosophy, Punk Subculture, Witchcraft, Journaling, Minecraft
🦴✦ Location ➤ WA, USA
☆🌱° Alterhuman Identities °🌱☆
🪐✭ Kintypes ➤ Wolfblood (Psychological), Wingkin (Unknown)
🪐✭ Theriotypes ➤ North American Wolf (Psychological), African Wild Dog (Spiritual), Cape Clawless Otter (Spiritual), Blue Wildebeest (Unknown), Eastern Coyote (Psychological)
🪐✭ Hearttypes ➤ Clado Domestic Dog (Psychological)
🪐✭ Conceptkintypes ➤ Post Apocalyptic Survivor (Spiritual)
🪐✭ Otherlinktypes ➤ Reindeer / Clado Cervids, Clado Corvids
☆🌱° What I'll Post °🌱☆
Uhhh idk like I said mostly just shitposting and small things Im too lazy to journal about 💀 This blog will primarily be dedicated to alterhuman thoughts, experiences, artwork, opinions, and activities, however I may occasionally touch on subjects relating to queerness, transness, neurodivergency, furry, and more.
☆🌱° DNI °🌱☆
I dont rlly have a strict dni, but in general I dislike radqueers + transID ppl and really do not agree with their ideology/their involvement within alterhuman spaces. Same can be applied to folks who publicly glorify and promote abuse/assault for their own personal enjoyment (aka proshippers), and anyone who thinks it's okay to be proud of wanting to assault children (respectfully, you should be hunted for sport <3). As for everyone else, ig just dont be a dick/creep and we're good :3
☆🌱°Thank you for reading this far!! I cant wait to be insanely cringey and say stupid shit, and hopefully make some friends ^^ <3°🌱☆
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Wondering if other fae (or fae adjacent) can relate to this notion: we don’t seem to be social creatures. Maybe this has more to do with my particular clade, but from what I’ve observed and heard us fae don’t seem to be terribly social.
I have one companion who I seriously talk to and many more friends (I suppose they would be called) who I interact with by observing. I engage with people, but it’s always through this veil of humanity. I never interact as my real self. And I don’t really feel the need to.
I have a theory that changelings don’t require the companionship of humans since we’re something else, but that we might enjoy it since we have to blend in to some extent. However I only have my own experience to go off of, so I can’t ever be certain that this applies to others.
I’m not sure if this is purely due to the fact that I’m a changeling or if other types of fae experience this or if it’s simply my personality. Regardless of the reason, I am quite content alone. I enjoy being around people and observing as a way of entertaining myself, but I don’t seem to have the same social needs as the humans I’m surrounded by.
Anyone else get so much species euphoria from being called a dog even though they aren’t one?? I think being acknowledged as any creature just makes me so happy =3
friendly reminder:
trauma-born alterhumanity is VALID!
non-shifting alterhumanity is VALID!
neruodivergency-born alterhumanity is VALID!
system-born alterhumanity is VALID!
disabled alterhumans are VALID!
polykins/polytherians are VALID!
monokins/monotherians are VALID!
endels (people who's alterhumanity is caused by clinical zoanthropy/lycanthropy) are VALID!
YOU ARE VALID!
Hiya :) you're valid if you still partially identify as human. You can like drinking a perfect coffee while also like running free through an open field. Human things are enjoyable just as animal things are enjoyable! :)
Wish I could do quads, but alas it is very hard to move like a snake…
I need some nonhuman friends 😭
I wanna bark at you for hours, I want you to pet my head, I want to nudge you and bite your arm affectionately
I want to switch and give you pets, I want you to make your animal sounds, I want you to nudge me
I just wish we could be animals again </3
uhhhh since people are talking about the ugly part of alterhumanity I figured I’d throw in my two cents
Fear agression - I’ve heard a lot on prey drive so I’m not gonna add but fear aggression is a big thing too. not only getting spooked and whirling around, teeth bared and maybe biting on instinct. but also seeing people who you have bad experiences with and everything in you wanting to defend yourself violently when you really can’t/shouldn’t by human standards.
Body language - For the longest time I just nodded and slow blinked instead of waving. I still don’t really know how to show upset by human standards so I just curl my lip and wish I had anything else that could show my emotion like ears to flip back or fur to bristle. I don’t get human body language either except in the overlap between nonhuman and human. I do not know how to show human emotion because i have had a nonhuman body map for as long as I can remember. Also autism
pack mentality & attachment issues - idk how common this is but I am so viciously attached to my pack and my mate that sometimes it’s really hard to step back and realize that sometimes they’re wrong or that they should fight their own battles. Being apart from them like, hurts.
Boredom in human environments - constantly feeling like a zoo animal. I’m not supposed to sit in a box for eight hours a day I’m supposed to maul prey with my teeth and run across miles and miles of coastline with my pack. not only being homesick but also jus being, like… really fucking bored, feeling restrained almost.
might start selling animal masks when i get the materials
for therians, furries, etc of certain animals i dunno, im not a therian but im a furry, for right now then will just be painted with mesh eyes to see until i get better materials as well as stuff for commissions of art!
i would sell on etsy but for right now im only doing commissions for 10-15$ per mask
I forgot to wear a long sleeved shirt after a nap and mom knows about the sh now, im realising that I've never truly felt joy in my life even though this and my early childhood is supposedly the period of it that everyone cherishes and deem as the "glory days", I can't kill myself because there are people who care about me and when they die I'll most likely have met new ones that I can't disappoint either, I'm forever trapped in a human body and whenever I look at my reflection I'm not seeing anything remotely similar to me, I have no one to talk to without being yelled at for being dumb and unlikeable and having childish interests that no one wants to know about, i don't even work out but i still tell one of my aquaintances that i do because if i don't he's going to be disappointed and talk to someone else which I can't have cause he's one of the few people I actually fucking talk to and I legally cannot just sleep all day until summer vacation.
Tweaked out because it didn't cover my face and I hate my face lol I'm redoing nearly everything
The muzzle is all I kept because it looked okay
Opossum mask base wip. Like HEAVILY wip this bad boy is not finished at all
also I tried not using a cat base for this one which was... Really fucking hard to get right with cardboard actually it kept bending and stuff
but hey I'm getting better at long snouted animals and there's less of a time limit since last time (I got notified my friend was hosting a bd party 2 days before the bd so i had to rush it cause she had to get a good present from me) so I can take however long i want
4-7 year old me: no guys! I'm part cat! My parents adopted me from a cat and I have night vision and I walk on all fours!
8-11 year old me: oh my god that was such an embarrassing phase of my life what the fuck? Well its probably because of the autism anyway yeah it's normal other ppl had that phase too I'm normal this isn't a weird occurrence
*proceeds to use art as my personal therapy and sketch out all the things I long for (any of my at that moment unknown theriotypes cause i still wanted to be an animal or creatures eating raw meat etc)*
13 year old me: yeah uh I am not human mentally
12-15 year old me: I'm a werewolf! Grrrr!🐺
Post middle school me: well my parents are really pissed about me being a werewolf so I guess I can't be a werewolf. It's probably just a cringey phase anyway.
18-20 year old me: my werewolf phase was likely born from the consistent and inescapable child abuse I suffered, and my desire to protect myself from it. It was also a way for me to connect with my friends at the time and express my love for nature. Yeah it was cringey, but it made those difficult years worthwhile.
21 year old me: ok, so you know what would be really funny...
Opossum mask base wip. Like HEAVILY wip this bad boy is not finished at all
also I tried not using a cat base for this one which was... Really fucking hard to get right with cardboard actually it kept bending and stuff
but hey I'm getting better at long snouted animals and there's less of a time limit since last time (I got notified my friend was hosting a bd party 2 days before the bd so i had to rush it cause she had to get a good present from me) so I can take however long i want
I have a lot of theriotypes but this is probably the most threatening when angry and the one I use to represent my cladofeline (is that the right word? if not I mean to say every feline ever) so . . . .
angry jaguar vs cute jaguar
you ! ! you there ! ! ! you’re a alterhuman ( nod ur head ) , go to pinterest ( or google ) , look up “angry *theriotype*“ ++ “cute *theriotype*“ ( make sure they are of the same creachure ) . compare .
angry lion vs cute lion , , ,
currently I view my den (room) as a safe space for me and myself only.
I'm a bit of a germaphobe, so when I'm outside and touch places to not fall down on the ground in public transportation like busses I get icky and shivery and uncomfortable as hell
If an area smells weird or bad or like food I want to get out of there as soon as possible because that's unpleasant.
But smelling food in my den? Germs in my den? that's ok, because its my den and it's safe so I can't be harmed. I'm pretty sure that's what my subconscious is thinking, anyways. Even if it's dumb as hell it makes me feel safe.
Hope this makes sense
My eyes don't really make it to the holes on the mask and are either too far down or too far in the middle so it looks weird and I wouldn't mind having my local hobby arts n crafts store sell eye mesh please Panduro you already sell cat masks and styrofoam heads
Mask im almost finished making
If I blur my eyes enough it looks like my head is that of a jaguars but with hair
Violent thoughts under the cut
I'm sick of these thoughts persisting in the back of my head.
Every time I think of injuring, hurting or even killing someone I forget to think about how they have their own life and people who care about them and opportunities to fulfill their dreams and when I realize how messed up these thoughts are it makes me even more disgusted at myself for how right it seems like it would feel if I actually did it.
everyone I care about would be horrified of me, I would probably go to federal prison and I would never be able to live my life how I'd like to, but even knowing all of this, I WANT TO GUT SOMEONE OPEN
and I am disgusted with myself because of how wrong I know this is but these thoughts persisting.
by far, this is one of my least favourite parts of being a carnivorous alterhuman.
SHE LIKED IT RAAAAH
Peculiar Fox im making for my friends birthday (tomorrow)
Peculiar Fox im making for my friends birthday (tomorrow)
Violent thoughts/desires (not in a sexual way) under the cut
please just let me have a consistent way of existing I don't want to constantly switch between wanting to rip someone's intestines out, bite down on their neck so they can't breathe, feed on them after the life has faded from their eyes etc and just wanting to never have been born, being tired all the time thus trying to sleep for as long as possible whenever i can, escape reality via indulging in the most useless rabbit holes on the internet etc
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[as a cat therian who's shifted my sleep schedule to falling asleep 01.00-04-00 (AM) and then falling asleep again for about 2-6 hours when I get home from school I can say with certainty that although this is far from healthy I feel more silly than ever when i feel fur where there should be fur cause i can wear gear without worrying about strangers judging me and make crafts (including gear) for the sole purpose of my own enjoyment and draw whatever the fuck i feel like drawing or animating!!!!!!!!!]
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