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ahhhh came across other peoples figure practices and im so jealous…. It looks so good….

but at the same time i know that my practice now isn’t like an effective method. if o wanted to get better… i should study forms of ribcage n pelvis and how they interaction in diff poses/angles and the forms of the muscles on them….. but at the same I really can’t be bothered with stuff like that so my skill level makes sense but ahhhhh its gets to me some times fjfjjfkdkdk. I feel like best way to motive me is to just draw character shit and be like fckkkk if I want to draw this I have to be able to learn how to…… but also drawing character shit is takes Effort and I can’t be bothered either right now…. But to give myself credit I did a lot of character drawings (okay it was two recently but i also did a lot of stuff last month!!! so!!!!) im actually doing a lot 😌

and I DID get better!!!!!!!!!! like two months ago…. I couldn’t do shit…. as I can now 😌

just stuff I have to consistently remind myself when I get depressed about this stuff ahahaha

lolll I went to sleep and then well. after that I just really couldn’t bothered… like I wasn’t in the mood for the plan…..

but at least I got in more figure pracs fjfkfkkf

— I did want to focus more on character interaction figures but lol I figured it’s best to just figure doodle… since the blergh feelings was still there and I didn’t like any of the stuff I sketched but at a certain point^^ (23.34) the one I scribbled next to… I started to feel great about them!!!! like lol even if they didn’t look good…

—at a certain point I got bored and did some line practices and then some arm pracs too… since lol when I scribble my figures, I just do straight lines for arms.,. And I think today I just totally forgot how to block in arms at all… they looked worse than normal so I decided to do some arm pracs… just to get some feel for it… first two or three were refs and then I did none with refs…

—did a face study and then lol went back to figure immediately since I was still scarred from this morning n yesterday lmwooooo… I think I learned my lesson. doing face studies n figure studies side by side lollll. also lmao looking at these my legs/hips are atrocious 😂😂 I should really do a proper study but at the same time I can’t be bothered and plus I don’t really like to do isolated studies for the limbs….. like look at my feet fjfjfjfjjf. also wow im thinking that I forgot how to draw the shoulders I need to practise those closely

—I reallyyyy did want to character drawings or even continue those wips but ahhhhhhh I never get to doing them… I think it’s cuz I know they’re gonna be Effort that I just don’t want to….. 😔😔😔😔 it’s soooo annoying. COMON ME. DRAW SHIT!!!!

very blergh day to start…. 😔😔😔

—today surprisingly started to draw in the morning… ahaha I don’t usually… even took my pencil towards to sketch… and thought to start with heads from yesterday… and just not looking at refs to see where I am… and well that first one came really well… I Like… but ahaha yeah I def need to practice heads more ahhhhh… well at least they don’t look bad……?

—and then I went to do usual figure pracs but I don’t know if it was the heads that three me off but man…. I feel like I was stumbling and I didn’t know what I was doing 😭😭😭 everything felt so blergh…

— took a lil break and came back to see if drawing fav character to draw would help but omg I think her magic fell?! cuz it didn’t feel any fun to draw her wtf……. I was planning to lmao continue drawing other wips but that was too much work to try so I went to doodle her but even she… didn’t help…. 😔😔😔

—but looking at these doodles now I am feeling great looking at her….. maybe it would really help to try to doodle shit… even if the procress might feel urgh/not great I am sure I will feel a lot satisfied and happy to see myself draw a character drawing. maybe even a small comic for ft… since 😳 im getting ideas….?! okay so plan for next stuff!!! i don’t feel like drawing now…

ahhh… I want to cry :’ today art no good… arghhhhh

COLOURRR TIMEEEE

like lol I did genuinely have a diff plan today which was to DRAW DRAW DRAWW character stuff!!! plus have some figure prac dibble in. since this morning n afternoon, I’ve been watching some videos. faces n clothes. and honestly didn’t help that much but the clothes one I think I got more better understanding…? And what I need to study I guess.

but ahahah while I did want to draw I didn’t feel urge to get pen and draw until… I came across this beautiful colour sky thingy on yt background for a song and wow it suddenly got me wanting to do colour studying!!!! so I got my pen and cracked to it.

— one thing I wanted to focus on is the ability to just pick colour and feel for the right one which I think…(?) I’m getting. still very weak on that especially that yellow one down there. not satisfied since I wasn’t able to get the overall genera colour scheme awww.

—like initially just wanted to see how diff colour picks would be easier or not against diff value backgrounds….

—for the person colour drawing I wanted to capture their overall skin colour and I think I went too overright with the Oliver. since they had more lighter skin. but at least my second attempt is better than the first which I think turned out overalll muddy because I used a green undertone but wasn’tttt entirely sure of how to use it.

— I do like how the blockage for the darker skin sphere turned out. I remembered these videos I watched a whileee ago and the more saturated colour picks and it def helped…!

— I stopped for a bit since I felt like this was starting to become aimless and I think would be better if I did a full colour for a character and then figure out my weakpoints to study on… also this was god since I was able to get in some figure study ^^ and something I realised/well more like reinforced is the drawing the legs….. and just understanding how it more less connects from the body. also ahahah I feel like it’s better if I start to work on studying the feet at one point….

— also I started to think that I want to do more comic focused today as well. it would be really good in realising what stuff I’m missing in gaps and just the prac down. I’m havin some problem in head just finalising vague ideas so I think it’s best to get something down… also do have some urge to just draw on paper today… also I really want to draw this character on motorcycle!!!’ it’s something I’ve never done so I know it won’t turn out amazibgggg and shit but. well. it’s best to try right!!!!! and ahhhh I really just wanna draw characters interacting man….. so many to-do…. piority is really that comic stuff since I can have character interactions and general comic prac which is what I need!!!!!! 15.07

ahahah… yeah I did say all of that. but I didn’t do it<3 :’

— honestly wasn’t feeling it but I felt like doing some figure pracs anyways so I just got to doing it. I wanted to focus on character interactions and lolll immediately came across this hard one… lying pose…. I honestly wasn’t feeling it so lol I put low effort into most of these… but I do think it was good and lil fun now realising doing more varied poses… also ahahah I do like the multi coloured look… I realised I still had the green from the colouring session before on when I went to do the figure prac and wanted to see how it would be like to do in all these diff colours and it looks fun to look at. but as per usual, I do like/prefer more brighter pink dark blues and black to draw in… purple when I’m in mood.

—I included hand studies and oh boy those are hard :’ ahaha…. like wtf is this under me…. Idk what I was trying lmaoooooo.

—also remembered to include some lil twisting bodies pracs since I remember I suckedddd at that yesterday ahahah. and I think I got it(?) a lil bit…. like the way the shoulder one one side is almost not seen and like doing that paper thing helped at first to see the twist…

—and well since I completed to fill the page I wasn’t really feeling doing another page but also didn’t want to stop drawing… and well remember how I said I wanted to do comic? Well I thought… what if I worked on stuff I already have…? And what do you know! That way worked! The roommate one… I didn’t actually start anything for it lmao but drawing some idea I had for poses anyways… so I just got straight into it. And uhhhh not bad. Actually quite proud of that first panel…. I did have some idea of them being outside and I don’t think I like how I filled the background since I wanted them to be more outside so something to change. also I’ve been looking closer at mangas I’ve been reading and they do tend to have panels with characters smaller and I wanted to try that. and I realised that it’s best to have a script since while I had vague idea of what I wanted in this scene it’s. kind of hard to think of the sequence just like that. but honestly cba to write out the script for this comic today LMAO so yeahhhhh

—but I did want to continue drawing and did have some urge to draw some srda and I did have this some kind of idea in my head for her pose but ehhhhhh lol when I put it to paper lmaooo it def felt so….?!?! like what was even the plan for the pose… nothing about it made sense?? why would she be doing that???? also wow I really suck at drawing the face I realise. it bothered me a lot lmaooo . like pls why does she look like that 😭😭😭

— I honestly didn’t think that I’d be doing other drawings and plus the prev one took all the drawing want to draw at all from me lmaooo. but ehhhh i got back to picking up my pen since i was back in my bed anyways… and this time i wanted to focus on faces… but i def did feel like this was super aimless… and just doing whatever and trying to get some faces in diff angles and i think the problem is that my understandings of faces structure is terrible…like i knowww the gist and general of the stuff. but well it’s more the jaw I guess and idk what it is i feel like im not completely understanding it like how im understanding and now the figure better…. so i guess its time to watch some videos and just also general videos of people drawing faces…. I feel like that would help I guess…. Also man it did feel super sad since how terrible my faces is…. I think it’s cuz I always prided myself on doing good faces and well, I know that now my “eye” has gotten better i wasn’t really that good at faces. maybe yeah for straight ones but ahh… still…. It’s kind of sad…..

Remember how I said I wasn’t gonna do anything for today welllllllll.

— like okay first of all, I thought not doing anything today for the sake of not doing anything was kinda a waste since I didn’t want to go out of prac for no reason. lol remember those days I took off drawing prac in dec and yeah ahahah it showed when I got back into it

— also I saw this vid of someone prac art and it got me really fired up; also man being surrounded by all these good art also made me so jealous and want to get better so. yeah<3

—one thing I learned today, while trying to get of drawing the rectangles, is to imagine the way the limbs are gonna be like before I put pen to paper. it’s really important and helps a lot. and also realised it’s really helpful to have stick figures or rough sketching to figure out pose or whatever but it also doesn’t mean that I have to draw over it, since it loooks better when I redraw it knowing how the pose looks like…

— also when doing my pracs from ref… I tried to adjust the pose in some way so keep practicing imagination stuff. and like to challenge myself and to see like where I need weak one. also realised that why some of this is getting boring is cuz I’m not doing more challenging angles and diff stuff so that’s def up for when doing prac for next time

— also tried to get in some clothes prac. I wanna watch some clothes/folding stuff to get better understanding of it all. I didn’t get to doing that since I wanted to leave clothing prac for when I’m ready/wanted to and well! the time is now ahaha… also while trying to diff pose prac I also realised I barely do!!! any back poses!!!

— so I had to get those in…. and ahahah yeah I’m def out of practice with those…

— while doing figure pracs, I really did want to draw some characters… but ehhhh o really couldn’t be bothered to change the canvas to diff folders… anyways I did end up going to this prev ideas I had and… well I wanted to try to redraw it and it’s nice before the redraw to see this art from two months ago and see already what’s wrong with it… and ahhh the satisfaction to able to just draw it… I even did figure scribble next to it to figure out how I wanted the legs and stuff… and ahhhh it really was so satisfying to see how quickly I get get it down and the way it wasn’t any struggle at all to draw compared to before. IM REALLY FEELING THE PROGRESS!!!! It made me want to look at other old stuff and wow yeah. But also mannn this is ALSO why I wanna draw!!!!!!! Cuz I can just see it and feel the greatest satisfaction of “improvement” ahahah

— cuz wow I def feel like I don’t have enough of this bad art!!!! I need to create more stuff!!!!! but i guess problem is that while I want to… I can’t also be bothered with steps to getting to the canvas lololol.

— I did end up, drafting some ss comic…

— I had some idea but realised quickly how vague it was, so i tried to scribble down some situations and got something… and ahahah this is good to get in background prac… and comic too…. after first draft my energy levels reached zero for this and I couldn’t be bothered to continue at that time…. I think this is cuz I wanted to keep those drafts and not erase and rub over it…,. so next time I think it’s best to already keep some kind of squares for diff drafts so I can just already draw into it… thing I wanted to keep in mind while drawing this comic: is to not keep thinks complicated while chasing that “perfect” comic I want… cuz I think it’s fine to have comics I’m not satisfied with… and to keep it “simple” too… its way I can learn and to not get caught up in details…

— I remember this redraw I wanted to do of the anime watch.,, and ahahaha I got distracted a bit and so there was like only two mins of the day left and lololol I quickly sketched it in… I feel like this will be a good prac for background awareness…. and keeping characters interacting with the background and well hmmm. I don’t think I wanna to a 1.1 redraw. I wanted something that would capture what I really liked of the moment and wanted to redraw but don’t know how to do that yet. I just thought they looked super cute n funny/adorable how they were peaking out from the stones ahahah… and as to how I would try to capture that feeling in my redraw… no clue but something to think on I guess

FOR TMMR!!!! I really want to get in more character interactions prac and I just wanna draw characters,.. and I want to get in some face/expression pracs in diff angles too!! I totally forgot about those….

I do wanna continue for tmmr ^^ and hopefully draw more of the characters I want for my art goal and do try that smol simple comic idea I had…. that would help with background+comic prac but also I feel like it would be good to just take a day off. even if it might bad in long term. I just feel like taking a day off.

WHAT A DAY TODAY WAS!!! VERY FULLFIED N HAPPY N PROUD N ALSO MIX OF I WANT TO GET BETTER AHHH….. :’

— I got back into ft and was doodling characters and then had sudden urge to draw a more finished piece… and i decided this time to use a ref. it helped with idea and giving a base base for the male but I didn’t want to copy the pose one to one so I changed stuff and ahaha well. it wasn’t easy. and by god, the LEGS. Legs really a Big Weakness of mine. this one was soooo hard to try to get right. the struggle… at one point I was really just gonna crop to hide the legs but I didn’t want to do that.

— also as you can see from the last and before last pic… I also realised another thing that “felt” off was lol that the entire pic was tilted… another thing I’m realising that I have a problem with my works. I tend to tilt stuff. so something to work on. I feel like there’s some kind of tilt…. still…

— I’m not completely satisfied with the legs and also my god. the arms was very hard too…. :’ BUT MAN. FORGETTING ALL THAT!!!! It’s so. So. Satisfying to look at this omg. I’m sooooo happoyyyy. And can’t believe. I really do want to more finish this piece… I honestly don’t have more finishing pieces which is what I want to have. Like disappointed prev I only have doodles and figure prac stufd to look back at. That’s why I have this goal to do more “bad” finished art. So that I can look back and clearly see my progress also just. There’s this endearness in having seeing your old art that you worked hard one :’

— anyways man after riding this high I needed to create more shit!!!!! so I DID. I had an idea and went right into it:

—and let me tell you, I seriously felt like crying when I drawing the more cleaned up version because my gosh, it’s so so so nice to be able to have this image you want ONTO THE PAPER. it’s something I struggled so hard with and now HERE I AM. oh my godddd. it feels SO FREAKIN NICE. I’m so happyyyy so so happyyy SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY :’ :’ :’ this is also another reason I want to create more finished pieces ahhhhhhh

— also lmao I didn’t realize while trying to clean up the initial sketch but oh wow when I utilized the canvas flip, I was like wtf? Why is the drawing so tilted and omg seeing them beside by beside lolololol.

—also initially this one was meant to be a simple character holding umbrella up… but I’ve been watching fixing art videos lately and composition ones and learned some stuff and thought it would be fun to incorporate and oh man it’s been so fun as I builded up the illustration. thinking about the beside it. first I was gonna go with flowers framing but I felt like it was too much circly stuff especially with the umbrella unique shape… so I went with curtain blowing… and ahaha I have this whole cool idea to add in when…

— I realized wtf, curtains aren’t on the outside but inside.., sIGH. I would like to ignore that and continue to draw it but :/ unfortunately I can’t 😭😭😭 it’s gonna BOTHER me. but I think I got an idea to still keep the initial idea. Also I do want to make changes still… the og sketch composition feels so much better with the curtain blowing… also as I was drawing I did realize wtf I don’t know how to draw curtain fabric… so I went hunting for refs and. Ahhh I do really like that part of process — I don’t know. It just feels more fun. Like I feel like a proper artist if that even makes sense…

— in middle of all that, ahahah, I really had this sudden urge to add color and so tried. and yeah, I suck at it but also it did help greatly with the what I felt like clothing lost…. like with the wrinkles/folds 💀💀💀 soooo hard to find any side ref for it I was losttt and I do like what the colour adds even if it’s not the best… there’s a lot to change n add to this piece and I do hope I get around to it…

— also a shame but I feel like with the trying to keep the tilt the right way, I lost some of the dynamicness the og sketch had awww. and honestly cba to try and change stuff around. who knows MAYBE I will get to. but honestly looking back at other wips I have from dec ahahahab. I Doubt it. But whatever.

— and of course after this I wanted to CREAT MORE STUFF!!!! And I did had this idea and well….

ahaha yeah. Didn’t go so well

— the problem was. well. I rushed too fast into it. I mean, yeah. I did have idea in my head into what I wanted but it’s another thing trying to get it onto paper. the last one was diff since it’s a just side pose that I practiced a lot so it wasn’t a struggle to get down. the struggle was mostly the clothes n stuff. but this one is more complicated and I just had a image. I should have sketched out roughly and also considered the hands more. like a issue I noticed I have is that: I think of the one hand that’s doing something but then the other one I have noooo. clue to do with

— anyways after that I just couldn’t bother to proper with this one and left it, like going back to it some other time ahahah.

— next one up 💞💞

—this time I went back to refs, and saw this one and wanted to draw and ahahah I changed it completely. the only thing I took from was the way they were close and the way the guy was grabbing the girls’ face. everything else. real estate world.

— and ngl I was loosing some hope/feeling disappointed n sad around here n frustrated too… like sighhhh I did feel like I forgot shit but I’m realizing now I really didn’t…? More like my structure to starting sucks. The foundation ain’t strong. But I was completely changing the ref and challenging myself, since the ref they were sitting and I struggled with trying to get them to feel they were interacting

— bring the girl closer didn’t really do anything… other than make the pose weirder and I did want to be able to see more of her arm then I had a revelation: what if I made the guys body more side profile. haha I did felt a bit fhdjjdk erasing n changing the position of guy completely but it was kind of fun in a way. made me feel like a real artist heheh heheh. and OH BOY IT MADE THE PIECE SO MUCH !!!!!!! like LOOK!!!! the DIFF!!!!

— it made me get excited for it more…. and lol the legs again… I felt like it would be boring to make it too straight but don’t really know how to make it diff…..

— but anyways right now very happy with how it’s coming along and kinda dreading having to add clothes and do expressions. for the guy anyways. the girl’s expression is already down ahaha…

— as you can see at this point, I didn’t really do at all. or more I didn’t at all do any figure parc and honestly I didn’t even want to…. It pales so much to how much fun this stuff is but I did feel like I needed to get back to it. Cuz my foundation also I need to work on gesture and look at the legs more closely as I draw and the arms too..,,.

— and I did have this new idea for another piece to do and this one will def will be a challenge. but one thing i started to be consciously be aware of even as I was picturing this new idea: is to think of how the other arm would behave and the space and how the characters are turned towards each other and the space they hold…. This one will be quite ambitious since loolol they will be four characters 💀 and HOPEFULLY will add in a background too…. I have some idea in my head about the space n the poses…

— while doing the figure pracs, I did doodle an general idea of how I wanted the first two characters to be interacting and ahahah yeahhh it didn’t come out greatttt. but I thought it would be a lil better than that so it was honestly disappointing but it’s okay…. I can practice also did help to realize to not put a lot of expection into how this turns out but that’s also a kind of struggle since ha….. I already have this nice image in my head 😔😔😔 gonna be so disappointed if comes out So Badly. But also not surprised since after all this is a very ambitious piece for me… ahahah………….

hehe okay so my birthsay is coming up and i JAVE AN ART GOAL!!!! i want to create an illustration for fav character or like a small….tiny…. comic for my otp 🥺 and if i cant do that ahaha id SETTLE FOR A SMALL SCENE!!!!!! abjsfdhfb im so fired up and WANT TO MAKE IT so baddd.

so like we have a month and i think i can make iy then. i tried to just generally draw somth to see my progress level, aqa where im at right now and ahahah…ahahha… yeah like i get the general gist of pose and stuff but my portions were out of wack, and i think sitting poses straight up is def not my strength and like. also djfnjdhf def male figures. and also like pelvis fcking confuses the shit out of me lmaooo. also def expressions is a big thing i need to focus on along with faces and angles… but uhhh i wanted to focus on pelvis shit more importantly and i think also the way male figures r diff… just need to draw them i really ever draw lmao girls….

the session felt good!!! i honestly have no idea if i even got to understand pelvis tilt and shit better…but i think that i got to understand….? sides that may be showing…. its still not the best but honestly i gave up at the whole box thing ahaha and i like drawimg just big shape size and then see what sides are showing by center line or like drawing general shape of pants. to see if i got like stuff from session i like to draw a scene of characters without ref but cba to go over to diff canvas and draw my faves in scenes so in the corner i drew a person lmao getting some book from bookcase. it was also good to try and draw character interacting with environment. but also i felt like that was too easy…? so i tried to draw pose in angle that i dont… and it was lol someone flopping onto their bed…. and yeah it wasnt something i wasnt used to so it wasnt good but i able to get it down. so thats a plus. also i tried to draw in bed to get in the interacting with environmemt and ahaha that was bad.

obvsly ahaha my leg stuff isnt the best at all<3 but cant be bothered at all…… right now… i am getting slightly better at understanding it thought? i think? like lmao before my legs were abysmal but like with arms. even thought im not learning them properly in isolation since i really cant. be bothered i will get to them when i will but i do try to learn it/understand it in between everything. lololol n feeet? i barely touch that. thats like farrr

anyways i wanna study the face next more properly. i def got better at drawing faces from trying to learn it a bit. but its especially my biggest weakpoint along with direction of eyes… but ehhhh i cant be bothered to properly learn it. rather tjan that, i think i like to just draw faces and then watch videos of skulls and get better understandimg. wait isnt that the same as learning. dhfbjdfb i guess for me when i think of ‘learning’ i think starting with learfning/studing first i guess.

also i need to do expressions….too… i think also whats importabt between all of this is to draw shit and see what actually i need working on while drawing scenes. but urgh problem with that is my brain is just. blank when i think to draw scenes to test my skills/see my weak points. so i guess its best to make a list already so i can refer to that. 16.28

back to my okay i think i’m getting the hang of this

💀 zipping from wow i can’t for shit i’m so sad abt it all look at this and hey okay it wasnt actually so bad and hey it’s looking good and hey doing this constructing step step thing is kinda working out to getting motivated by vids and doing quick poses and oh wow i’m getting hang of it yay to lets goooo and back to wtf i can’t draw shit man i want to cryyyy

💀 zipping from wow i can’t for shit i’m so sad abt it all look at this and hey okay it wasnt actually so bad and hey it’s looking good and hey doing this constructing step step thing is kinda working out to getting motivated by vids and doing quick poses and oh wow i’m getting hang of it yay to lets goooo and back to wtf i can’t draw shit man i want to cryyyy

Ah fck this.,, art is so hard.,,, it’s so frustrating :’ like I wanted to create some fanart for my ship and it was sooo hard……… I can’t even…,. There’s so much in realising I have to learn ahahah….. (sob) oh man. This shit is so hard n annoying. The frustration I felt while attempting too…. :’ I wanted to give up so badly aahahha.

hehehe i’m soooo happy feel like i’m IMPROVED AND CRACKING DOWN AT THIS DRAWING FIGURES SHIT! !!! i feel like i’m more consistent with it too and ahhhh that makes me happy. so like i feel like i started to run into this trap of drawing in simplified ways of just drawing all of the body in one go and the problem with this is well. the fact that i get the proportions wrong and it becomes flat, since the simplified way was like. flat drawing of the torso and i thought my problem for a while was trying to get the portions and also kinda realised my drawings were becoming flat. but i didnt want to go back to drawing in ribcage etc since it was like so. much more steps and hahaha i just! terrible! but i did get some enlightment between these moments where i felt like my understandings and shit were getting better.

i also realised drawing circles helped instide the flat simplificiation helped but anyways it was until today i figured way. and its honestly less figured out and more like things clicked into place. recently, ive been wanting to not zoomed into the canvas since i realised that it becomes small that. and i think overall picture from zoomed place will help wih spacial stuff and i have been using more pen like brushes so like i can focus on my line and stuff. anyways i didnt think that today i would be doodling, i did want to but eh it wasnt something i just wanted to do. and since i didnt wanan force it i just let it be… until heheh i got the urge to draw today <333 and so! i got the pen and went to cracking it. picked a art pose ref and got to it: and this session i wanted to take it slow. its something i also realised about me self. like i sometimes go to fast with sketching stuff, that really, its better to just sometiems SLOW THE F DOWN. ahaha.

and also this time, i wanted to better draw in head. then just circle. and after that, its time to block in body: i leave out the next, and since ive drawn in head more properly i didnt feel like using the simplied body thing or whatever i do. and just did like line for the shoulder and from then, tried to block in the pelvis/crotch era with line and i think its where it clicked. this method of constructing body from line portions and sometimes full boxes/squares. so i can get my portions right and i can have more freedom with it all and i think this all worked out before i did diff things across my journey: like when i really wanted to get better at drawing the chest but was having struggle with it all since when i drew torso first, it just wasnt workig so then i tried to draw collarbone and then chest right after. it also helped with not drawing the chest further up then it supposed to be. also when i was having struggle with where the crouch started/where belly botton was and did this kind of instintcive portion thing where i would go to ref and from chest go to naval to crouch and see that for me, i would do it a little more up than it should do. it was the same for knees, so i would do that. and those times where i thought drawing the arms first was helpful, it was and still is sometimes in some poses. and also that one video i watched that while the exact method isnt for me, the way was helpful while trying to understand n draw arm start/deltiod/shoulder. and thise videos that did pose from other view to help better explain really helped today when i was trying to break down this lying pose since ahaha i havent really hacked on those and theyre hard! but wow did i get better understanding from trying to draw in side view. anyways man it just made me feel/realise all those steps i had and stuff and when id go through OMG I FOUND THE WAY TO DRAW THE ART and even those some early poses that looked good and then became bad but it wasnt. it was me jumping from different ways and different levels to GET TO HERE!

the ups and downs, worked out in so many ways….? im so happy….. it feels like /all/ of it is paying off mann… im so happy. like when i honestly did like/felt so easily frustated in the begining and realised well. problem was that was that i was approaching the studies with such realistic(?) kind of way that. dumbing/simpling shit down made me give up less….! and that time with me trying to study more seriously and doing humerous bone study and muscle…. and that i didnt end up continuing but i stilll rememebr what i learned. and i feel like it will help when i get back to studing arm.

like right now, my arm and legs and head study i really need to work on. even neck. lol the way i forget neck a lot ahaha. and also the doing from diff angles, the digure. also i do like as im doing this studies im also trying to get a feel for the gesture and how to make it less stiff. i feel like now, im getting more better understanding of everything and better direction and ahaha def now that i will fall into those downs again and frustation and feeling like its going bad again but at least now, its all be accumalting my better understanding. ahhhhh im so happy right now.

I gaslight myself into thinking I’m not improving but like.. that’s about two and a half years difference so…

It might be slow but it’s definitely getting there 👍🏼