AUGH - Blog Posts

Has tumblr been randomly crashing within 5 minutes of closing the app for anyone else? It’s getting annoying, it keeps dying right as i follow a notification to read a post (closing the notification) or while im scrolling through long threads of images (sending the post into the abyss forever… still mad about the tma comic i can never finish reading)

"Jon and Martin are in the computers" I hear you, I hear you. So then walk with me. A lot of people quote Jon's "I will not become another damn mystery." when they discuss why him being trapped in the computer is tragic. But I think you are all missing the even more devastating quote and the episode it comes from.

“Supplemental. It looks like my posting on a few of the more tech-savvy boards appealing for statements has worked. While the incident itself seems ultimately inconsequential, I was able to convince Tessa to have a look at Gertrude’s laptop, claiming to have locked myself out,”

From MAG 65. And what is MAG 65? Tessa Winters' statement about Sergey Ushanka. The man who tried to upload his consciousness to a computer and got trapped in it.

"While the incident itself seems ultimately inconsequential" Jon, you truly cannot stop being a self-fulfilling prophecy, can you?

i would love to hear more of your thoughts on michael shelley!!! 🌀🚪✨

you're in luck because i've sat on thoughts about him for years and i finally feel like i can articulate them. because michael shelley is such a well written case of tragic horror in the horror tragedy podcast. and, despite my criticisms of season 5, it really did do an excellent job in concluding his character arc with the gertrude backstory episode. in a podcast where a common in-universe theme is that knowledge, and the pursuit of knowledge, is dangerous, michael is a subversion in that his ignorance of the horrors of the world he lived in not only didn't save him, but was intentionally engineered to make him vulnerable to exploitation and harm (which, on a broader scope, emphasises the futility of the world of the magnus archives - regardless of whether you participate in or turn a blind eye to the systems at play, involved or uninvolved, you are not safe).

furthermore, i really appreciate the subversion of traditional tropes of the sacrifice as a typically female figure taken advantage of by a male father, brother, or lover, whose tragic and horrible death is used to motivate him (whether to greatness or self-destruction), with michael being a son sacrificed by his mother (or grandmother) figure, who never actually loved him and whose 'frail' and 'nurturing' qualities were weaponised incompetence used to gaslight and manipulate him - and who continues to operate successfully (at least in terms of what can be said to be 'success' in a world like the magnus archives) without being haunted by any apparent doubt about the decision she made, or any hesitation to use others in similar ways, following this betrayal. which makes the fact that he's sewn into the fabric of a being that represents lies in their most insidious form, used as a weapon to devour people and destroy their lives, all the more abhorrent in hindsight - he is forced to not only relive his trauma in an endless loop (or spiral, if you will), but to become the mechanism which enables it. michael is taken to the edge of something evil (at least from a human perspective), and pushed over the threshold with no hope of recourse. there's almost a reverse orphic quality to it - he descends into terrifying other world, one which exists side-by-side with but fundamentally seperate from his own, against his will, and looking back will only cause him pain as he's assaulted by memories of a life he will never be able to reach.

i think a lot of people forget to look past the surface with michael, despite there being an entire episode dedicated to doing so. which is understandable, he's a very outwardly expressive character - but this is intentional obfuscation to hide an incredibly damaged victim whose hatred of this part of himself is integral to his entire reason for being, and which the rejection of causes him to be unmade, incapable of existing as this contradictory nightmare any longer. it's a mercy killing, and yet it is violent and painful, because michael cannot and should not exist, and excising that graft used to muzzle the distortion is as agonising as latching it into place was in the first place. when michael-the-distortion says about michael shelley "he was born. he was pointless. and he should have died." there is an implicit longing there, a rage at the way he was used, his decisions made for him and used to imprison something else instead of ever being allowed to exercise any measure of free will. because michael shelley probably would have died for the archivist, given the opportunity, but he never got the choice.

i am him, he is me

SUGURU GETO SFW FIC RECS // sfw but mdni!

candy eating - @/m1stm3

might hurt - @/gojonanami

husband geto - @/xhyjin

bedtime rant - @/kawowoa

sleepy - @/sonarspace

take me back - @/sanemistar

in sickness and health - @/lxvebun (multi! sugus part is tew cute 😭)

voodoo doll - @/seoups

skyfall - @/suhtorus

little family - @/kingkonoha

gentle glow - @/peppertoastuniverse (ao3)

co-parenting - @/sugurufic

recharge - @/sonarspace

random geto bf txts - @/sqtorux

tattoo artist - @/stsgluver

heat of the summer - @/peppertoastuniverse

sleepy mornings - @/lxvebun

what’s your favorite scary movie? - @/reignpage (multi)

addiction - @/swordymacaroni

curious cat - @/mykeroppi and @/whattheflower (ao3 fic)

chlorine - @/soov

smoke and shadows - @/thoughtfultyrantlove

I DONT OWN ANY OF THESE FICS!! // CREDS TO THE WRITERS!! <3