Autistic Agere - Blog Posts

I wish I had a caregiver that made sure I felt included in groups. That held me and rubbed my hand when I'm to tired to talk to remind me that they're still thinking of me and appreciating that I'm there.

Who makes a point to turn to me and respond if I try to say something but no one else listens. Who will ask me direct questions if I want to talk but I'm struggling to come up with something to say.

A caregiver that'll loudly say bye to me when I'm leaving so everyone notices and waves bye too

A caregiver that'll stand up for my needs when everyone else is ignoring them.

A caregiver that'll talk about me even when I'm not there, about how much they appreciate me and enjoy being around me

Your caregiver supporting of you after people were harassing/bullying you online:

⭐ After it first happens they immediately delete whatever app you're being harassed on off your phone

⭐If you're done with that app they'll delete your account

⭐If you want to keep your account they'll make sure to take off any personal information or pictures of you you put up on that account so you can feel safe knowing no one can track you down and hurt you more

⭐They come up with a bunch of other activities for you to do instead of using that app

⭐They'd show you a bunch of episodes about bullying from kids shows to make you feel less alone

⭐They'd reassure you that your feelings are valid and that online bullying is real bullying

⭐They make sure to tell you it wasn't your fault and that you didn't deserve that

⭐"but-but what if I was being a bad kid", "bubba, nothing you could do online would ever justify people threatening to hurt you"

⭐Would promise you that if anyone ever tried to follow through on a threat that they'd protect you

⭐They'd talk to you about what it would mean for you to get justice against the people harassing you

⭐If it would be a good idea to take evidence of people who sent you death threats and try to have their account banned or try to track down their school/job and show them the evidence

⭐Together you decided that it would be best for your mental health if you just deleted any messages and blocked them

⭐After a while if you wanted to go back to using that app they'd go through the notifications and block anyone who was harassing you and show you all the messages people sent saying they were sorry you were being treated that way

⭐You'd have your head in their lap, holding onto your favourite stuffie for comfort and they'd be scrolling on your phone

⭐"Are there a lot of them?", "That doesn't matter Bubba. You're safe and you have me here to protect you", "...okay"

⭐Every so often they'd stop and show you a kind message from someone and each time you'd feel just a little bit safer

⭐They'd respond to those messages for you

⭐If you weren't out as a regressor on that account they'd translate your little-talk about how you had big feelings but their messages were like kisses on your boo-boos to more adult sounding thank-yous

Hiii! I just made a community for age regressors to vent in :D

it's @@agere-venting, I had a lot of fun making it, I made the banner and pfp myself :D. I even added a list of hotlines if you need one :3

sooo plz join and share it maybe, that would make me really happy. thank youuuu!!!!

Here's my din din for today! With a little treat!

Fun fact! There's this thing called misokinesia that's similar to misophonia but is triggered by other people's movements, often repetitive movements like fidgeting or stimming.

I had this as a kid really bad, I was always having meltdowns cause no one would understand just how distressing it was for me so it's really nice to find out that it's an actual thing :3

Wishing that everyone who deals with misokinesia isn't forced to stay in a space with triggering movements 🥰🥰🥰

Things that should have made me realise I'm an age regressor sooner

But they get less socially acceptable as they go on (plz DNI if you find padded regression and other things like it weird)

hoards of stuffed animals

"I hate being an adult cause when I'm in the grocery store all scared and alone I can't just start crying out for my mom because instead of someone assuming I'm lost, they'll just look at me weird"

always feeling like I was younger than all my peers even if they were actually slightly younger than me

like half the foods I eat I eat b/c they make me feel like a kid. Like my big treat for myself after a stressful week was a pack of paw patrol yogurt drinks

Getting super into kids media, like the only movie that interests me is The Wild Robot

feeling comforted by how period pads felt like diapers

Having trouble tinkling myself up until 10th grade

Still sleeping in my parents bed some nights in 7th grade

Still as an adult picking my nose (I know it's unsanitary and I'm trying to stop)

I made myself a sticker chart :3

I give myself a sticker whenever I do something hard. My first sticker was for spending 8 hours figuring out these two really hard assignments

I think once I've filled it all up I'll get myself a treat like a happy meal or some calico critters

Vent below

Ppl are so mean :((( I don't like me friends and I hate that I have to be friends with them cause we're in the same sport. They all joke about being autistic then say they don't like those ppl cause they're too autistic and then when I say they're not autistic enough to understand that you can't just "start socializing" they say there's no more or less autistic and like yeah there isn't but you clearly don't know anywhere enough about autism or disability to understand how one condition can cause people varying levels of disability like you're self diagnosed and haven't even done research, you do not speak for the autistic community*. You tone down your definition of autism to mean being a bit weird so you can fit into it and then when ppl talk about the actual affects of autism you say that's not a real thing cause it doesn't fit into your definition. I hate them. And they're like just talk to people and then say they don't like other people cause they talk too much. I hate them I hate them I hate them.

Like why are we talking badly about ppl behind their backs. I get shitty on ppl who have done bad things but they were literally saying "he's just too autistic for me"

I hate how autism has been mainstreamed to mean quirky then people feel comfortable shitting on actually autistic people because they're "a bit autistic"

They're sooooo mean and I hate them and I miss being a kid and when people said mean things adults told them not to but now they're all like we're adults, but that doesn't make being mean okay!!!

*this isn't anything against self diagnosed ppl who did literally any research and don't use their label as an excuse to be ableist. Self diagnosis is very important for ppl who can't get access to assessments or for whom having an official diagnosis would hurt but there are more ppl now adays that use their ability to self diagnose badly

'm bout to get bloodwork done and I know it's gonna be scary but sometimes they give me a juice box after so 'm gonna try to be brave and hopefully I get a juice box

Age regressor Silco headcannons

⭐A toddler regressor, very quiet too when he's regressed unless he's in a tantrum

⭐Super secretive about it like the only people to ever find out were Vander, Felicia, and Jinx

⭐Regresses from stress which is normally from his workload or drama happening with the chembarons or shipment issues. Used to also be from loud parties and the last drop being too crowded

⭐Has a secret room filled with regressor things that he warns Sevika and his other workers to NEVER go into and to not bother him when he's in there no matter what

⭐Used to be a very well behaved little that just liked to make drawings and play with blocks but after his falling out with Vander he became very fussy and would throw tantrums almost every time he regressed

⭐Masks that he's regressed if he can't get to his safe room which normally means turning his 'crying and hitting the ground' tantrums into a 'beating up and firing the person closest to him' tantrum

⭐The others have learned how to pick up that he's about to throw a tantrum and leave as soon as there are warning signs

⭐This scene was one of his tantrums (s01e06, 'guns for hire' scene)

⭐Most of Jinx caregiving for him is her teaching him how to play as a kid and not just cry and hit stuff

⭐They doodle over stuff together, Silco is always a lot more shy with drawing over random things but Jinx gets him to open up

⭐By the end his art style is almost the same as hers. his drawings start out super scratchy, only using greys and stuff but they turn really colourful

⭐he loves having all his plushies and bottles covered in Jinx's drawings

⭐At first she tries to avoid drawing on his stuff to give him space when he's regressed but she finds he clings onto anything she's drawn on and she starts decorating more of his stuff

⭐If he's feeling really little she'll blow stuff up cause he likes the pretty colours but he always gets mad at her when he's big again

⭐ Jinx also regresses and she started suspecting he might when he first saw her regressed and immediately knew what was going on

⭐one day she heard him sobbing in his safe room and went in

⭐he was super upset and told her to get out but eventually she was able to get him to open up about it and she promised to care for him whenever he needs it

⭐sometimes Sevika will find their agere things around and Jinx will always take responsibility for it

Past Vander and Felica Stuff:

⭐Vander first found out when Silco went into a backroom of the last drop when it got too loud. Vander followed to check up on him and Silco quickly put away his notebook and crayons he was drawing with and tried to do his best impression of being big. Vander wasn't convinced Silco was okay and kept checking in on him.

⭐Later Vander followed up with Silco, asking him if he was actually okay back then and Silco admitted to him he regresses. he was really worried Vander would find him weird or think it was for weird reasons but Vander just asked him more about it and how he can help

⭐Vander then got Silco a bunch of stuff, markers, bottles, stickers, anything he could find

⭐Silco loved being held by Vander, it made him feel so small, being in Vander's big arms

⭐Felica found out when she walked in on Vander taking care of Silco. Vander tried really hard to cover for Silco but Silco decided he trusted her enough to tell her his secret

⭐She would occasionally take care of Silco if Vander was busy but he never liked her style of cging as much

⭐but when Vi was on the way he starting letting her be his cg a lot more so she could get some practice in and feel more sure of herself

⭐he would always be sure to tell her how good of a mama she is

Haiiii, here are some things that made me happy today!

These are toys I got, two of them were in kinder eggs and one was from a happy meal and the green axolotl dude was from one of those coin crank toy dispensers that I got after kendo practice! I wanted a pink one but I love the dude I got

I also baked a cake! I got this cake pan with a lid so I don't have to transfer it into a seperate storage container which is so nice cause that also means there are fewer dishes to clean. It's a rainbow sprinkle cake!

Also I got all my chores done. I cleaned up my room, I washed all my dishes, I meal prepped with extra veggies so I get to eat nutrients all week :D I'm very proud of myself.

Hellooo! You can call me Zev or Zevi!!!

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⭐ I started this account to try to reach out more and meet other regressors, make online friends as well and trying to learn to unmask my autism

⭐ So plzzz feel free to reach out

⭐ I made a community for age regressors to vent in if you wanna join, @@agere-venting

⭐ I'm a trans guy who is very much taking back the chance to be a little boy 🚚⚔️🚀

⭐I'm 19 when big and about 8 when little but I think sometimes I become a lot smaller than that

⭐ my special interest is arcane so I might make some posts about that (would not suggest you watch it while regressed)

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I need a caregiver so badly. Like I think I'm doing pretty well taking care of myself but I just need someone to pick me up and give me a bottle and let me cry out and call them mama