Autistic - Blog Posts

Note: Sound sensitivity isn't exclusive to autism, but is incredibly common in autistic people. It's also one of the difficulties that people often cannot understand and grossly underestimate if they do not experience it themselves. I'll repost this soon with visual descriptions (I'm currently sick with COVID-19). If you find anything I post helpful, please consider buying me a Ko-Fi.

Note: Sound sensitivity isn't exclusive to autism, but is incredibly common in autistic people. It's also one of the difficulties that people often cannot understand and grossly underestimate if they do not experience it themselves. I'll repost this soon with visual descriptions (I'm currently sick with COVID-19). If you find anything I post helpful, please consider buying me a Ko-Fi.

Ah, the few people I've had to block for telling me it's not ableist to use the term "non-verbal" and that I'm alienating allies.

Nearly the entire non-verbal/non-speaking community is asking it not to be used by reliably speaking Autistics.

Do some not mind? I'm sure! But this is a majority thing.

That is greater than any preference. And if you block me or are alienated by me for pushing the voices and wants of a part of the community that is generally ignored?

Then you're just giving me the reason to push their voices louder.

Hello hope you're doing good. Question, if you want to answer: what does catatonia feel like for you? I watched a friend have her first catatonic episode last year and she didn't have a good memory of it afterward. I'd like to get some idea of what goes on there. Obviously if this is an unpleasant topic ignore

There are different types of catatonia and not everyone will have the same symptoms; I dont even have the same symptoms every episode. So my experience is just that; mine.

Withdrawn catatonia feels like being stuck inside my body. I can see and hear everything going on, but I can't react to it as normal. It's kind of as if I'm externally inanimate; I can't move (or can barely move), but if you move my limbs for me they stay in whatever position you put me in. I often get stuck in uncomfortable positions because one of the first symptoms I usually get is abnormal or exaggerated movements (and Im hypermobile so its even worse).

It's very hard to describe the actual feeling that goes with it though. It's like being drugged by your own nervous system. My body feels like lead and all my processes feel slowed. Even though I am aware, depending on the episode and trigger I may be confused and/or dissociated.

But I also experience excited catatonia, which is pretty much the opposite of what I described. I cant slow down. I either cant speak or cant communicate normally. I'll repeat things over and over, I'll do the same movements over and over - which usually ends up with me hurting myself. I feel very panicked when I experience this. It doesnt happen as often as withdrawn type, though. And when I do experience it, its usually a severe episode where I flip back and forth between withdrawn and excited.

For me, withdrawn episodes are usually triggered by stress like - dissociation, anxiety, and trauma. Excited episodes are usually triggered by autistic/schizophrenic nervous system overload. Both can be related to/triggered by psychosis, and there's decent overlap between my catatonic episodes and disorganized speech/thinking episodes.

So yeah. If anyone's ever wondered what it might be like, now you know.

I truly believe most people who still use tumblr are neurodivergent. Where else are we going to hyperfixate on things?

I apologise for the spam of Dead Ends: Paranormal Park posts but I need you to understand how incredible this show is.

Canonically explicitly jewish, gay, trans, plus-size main character voiced by a trans actor

Canonically autistic Indian girl main character

A secondary character voiced by a drag queen who does a fucking SLUT DROP in one of the last episodes

Chaotic neutral demon girl voiced by Lily from Hannah Montana

A demon pug voiced by none other than ALEX FRICKIN BRIGHTMAN

Semi-adult jokes (one in ep 6 made me choke on my tea)

Paranormal tomfoolery

Actual in depth discussion of transphobia within families which is extremely relavent to the overarching plot along with discussion of anxiety and how it affects people's lives

A MUSICAL EPISODE

Healthy relationships between characters who realise when they've done something wrong and aren't afraid to admit it

Seriously, this how is so fricking good and judging from how episode 10 ends, I pretty sure it's being set up for a second season. Seriously, you can binge it in one day. Just watch it. I promise it's good.

IF YOU VOTE FOR MOB IM GONNA MAKE YOU A DRAWING I SWEAR

GRAND FINALS

HE'S WINNING BY 1 PERCENT MOB FANS MOBILIZE!!!!

Semifinals

I KNEW THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN NUT IT STILLS HURTS 😭😭😭😭😭

Semifinals

VOTE 4 MOB

im afraid of the tmnt fans, they are really sweeping 😰

@autismswagreblogs

REBLOG BC IT NEED TO REACH OUT TO THEM

@autismswagsummit

MOB FOR THE GLORY!!!

VOTE FOR MOB HE IS MY FAV BLORBO AND HIS SONGS ARE THE BEST, ALSO HE TEACHES YOU THAT YOURE THE PROTAGONIST OF YOUR OWN LIFE AND YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU EVER MET. HE IS THE BEST SCRUNCKLY SCRUMBLO ♡♡♡♡

@autismswagsummit

IM AFRAID OF MY BOY

Welcome to the official Autism Swag Summit 2023!

This is heavily inspired by the other Official Tumblr Competition polls, notably @nonbiney-swag-competition

This will be a bracketed competition between Tumblr's most beloved characters, to determine the true King Of Autism

Staffed and organized by just 1 person, you may call me Mod Vinegaroon (they/them please!)

Quarterfinals have concluded! Stay tuned for the Semifinals!

Wheel of Doom context, for those who are new

MOB FOR THE GLORY!!!

VOTE FOR MOB HE IS MY FAV BLORBO AND HIS SONGS ARE THE BEST, ALSO HE TEACHES YOU THAT YOURE THE PROTAGONIST OF YOUR OWN LIFE AND YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU EVER MET. HE IS THE BEST SCRUNCKLY SCRUMBLO ♡♡♡♡

@autismswagsummit

#MOBSWEEP2023 my autistic boy deserves it @autismswagsummit

I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE OMG

Do any other autistic people feel high at random times?

Like, sometimes I'll get really giggly, everything will feel hilarious to me and I'll just laugh at nothing, and I'll stim more and laugh at my stimming (e.g. I was finding the normally annoying sound my pop-it makes very funny today) and I'll do a lot of echolalia (e.g. I kept repeating "my name is poet I am a Philip" & giggling because it was the funniest fucking thing in the world to me) and I'll get really affectionate, I'm already a very affectionate person but I get MORE affectionate (e.g. I'll be talking to my dog & I'll just be like "I just love you SO much" whilst sobbing but not really crying?) And I'll feel kind of light-headed (like someone injected helium into my brain) does anyone else do this??? Is it connected to autism??? Please help I'm really confused I can't find anything about this anywhere please reblog I Beg Of You

Chat is it possible to have religious trauma without ever actually being apart of a religion at any point in my life-?

like I just have such negative feelings towards Christianity specifically but most of them are because of the things some people have done because “god told them to” or whatever. And the thing is I have loved ones and friends who are religious and I love them and respect them and their beliefs because they’re good people

but I’m wary of Christianity as a whole because it feels like a gamble when going to a church for any reason. Like you COULD walk into a community of people who love and accept you for being neurodivergent and lgbtqia+. Or you could walk into a community that demonizes you for all of that and more and tells you to repent or go to hell.

and also I don’t really like that one little detail that says I’m gonna go to hell and be tortured eternally solely because I don’t believe in god :/ as someone who’s not religious, it’s kinda hard NOT to have a negative reaction to that

disclaimer: THIS IS NOT A POST HATING ON ALL CHRISTIANS. I have multiple family members and close friends who are religious and Christian, and I love them all sm and I respect their beliefs. I’ve had a lot of really cool conversations with some friends about what they believe will happen after death vs what I believe and i really love those conversations! :3 this is specifically my grievances with the bad side of the Christian community TvT

Harrison Ford has the energy of an autistic person who has been overstimulated for literal decades

Question for other autistics. How soon is too soon to tell a possible friend that I'm autistic?

Something I have trouble with as an autistic woman is knowing whether or not I'm friends with someone unless I ask them and even then I question it

For example a teacher told us that we could work with friends for an assignment and I had to ask someone I considered a friend if we were friends before I asked him to work with me on the project

About me

Hi y'all, I'm kat (spelled with a lowercase k on purpose) and I am an adult autistic woman who is still in her education journey as of now. Although I've been on this hellsite for awhile I thought I'd update this about me to reflect the kind of stuff I plan to post

For the record I am alright with minors interacting on this blog though I will tag posts with "aunt kat's adult topics chats" if they are nsfw or something I'd rather not the minors who follow me interact with (More under the cut)

I am a feminist and I make no qualms about discussing my beliefs around feminism on my blog due to the fact I consider this blog a space to get my thoughts out though I am always seeking to educate myself on issues that I am less familiar with. Due to the fact I am American and white i recognize that I will have gaps in my knowledge and thus I seek to empower voices that have more credence than my own on certain topics. My hope is that I will be able to compile blogs that are comfortable being listed on a post I plan to make for resources on subjects that I do not consider myself an expert on

My asks will be open to both public and anonymous questions however I will more often than not be very delayed in responding to asks so I apologize in advance to anyone who sends time sensitive asks. My dms however are closed to anyone I don’t know in real life so do not message me there because I will not respond

I’ll be slow to update this blog as of now though I’ll make a more in depth post describing what I post on this account sometime later

I aut on my tistic until I spectrum everywhere

I can actually relate to most of this list, though I don’t call myself semiverbal (this is not to say that others who relate to this aren’t allowed to call themselves semiverbal) (if that makes sense) (I’m just not sure if I can consider myself semiverbal)

(I’m not sure where I fall on the verbal? scale?)

what semiverbal looks like for me:

going entire days without talking except for a few words and not noticing

going entire days saying maybe one word answers

communicating primarily through text and typing the majority of the time if i can get away with it

forgetting how to physically speak sometimes. i will know what words to say but mouth won't be able to do it

words getting mashed up and slurred together for no reason

communicating in scripts and preplanned words

if no script prepared, it's extremely difficult to come up with coherent words on the spot

constantly saying the wrong words and nothing like what i meant to say

always having to have somebody else go with places in case of needing to speak, so they can talk for me

blanking out on words and just not responding to people, sometimes walking away because too much pressure to speak

having to have someone else make phone calls for me, anything that involves a phone call i can't do

keeping like 3-4 aac methods on me at all times but still being scared to use them because that means communicating, why not just point at stuff instead

echolalia

stealthy echolalia

…Is that- is that NOT what it means???

i maybe should've realized i had autism when i AT 15 realized that when people say 'kisses!' through the phone they arent ordering you to blow them a kiss

cryer autism

[pt: cryer autism /end pt]

A type of autistic experience characterized by strong emotional responses and a tendency to cry easily.

Some symptoms might include but are not limited to:

tendency come off as oversensitive/over emotional due to autism

being easily overstimulated & often crying or whining when overstimulated

being easily distressed / upset, leading to crying

heightened sensitivity to rejection and / or criticism

things like sudden changes may trigger a strong emotional response leading to crying

lover autism

[pt: lover autism /end pt]

A type of autistic experience characterized by heightened empathy, strong emotional responses and seeing the best in people, to a fault at times.

Some symptoms might include but are not limited to:

fluctuating/high empathy and people pleasing behavior (sometimes to the point of distress)

constantly looking for the good in people

peace keeping

tendency to put the needs of others over your own needs

ability to pick up on another persons emotions, sometimes before the other person does and may mirror the emotions of others, for the sake of others

may potentially mask overstimulation for the convenience of those around oneself

Tysm to @vndead-pvppy for helping me out with these I really wouldn't have been able to do it without it. These literally just aren't my experience with autism so I was really struggling with these.

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I'll get called a fat fucking bastard for saying this anywhere but in mentally ill/Neurodivergent spaces, but water. Water is so goddamn tasty when it's right. A glass of iced tap water (when it's safe) is fantastic.

Bottled water is entirely different. Purified with minerals tastes like electrified plastic and static. Spring water tastes like literal heaven. It tastes how water in ads looks.