BREATHE - Blog Posts
Breathe
So, I haven’t posted since the last one. Been overwhelmed by work. I’m used to it, but I just don’t like the anxiety that comes with it.
Depression, most especially. It’s almost unbelievable for me to have it when I am doing something that I love. But I guess, this kind of internal monster doesn’t care in whatever state you are. It comes like a thief in the night. Almost like how death arrives.
Just now, I was working in the office, printing documents and stuff, when I was on my way to my desk, something heavy just sat on me. I almost want to curl into a ball. And I’m like “oh no...please not now”
Just breathe. It’s only temporary. Out of nowhere, images of the future played in my head and gave me some form of anxiety.
It’s amazing how no one can notice a quiet person actually struggling with a chaotic internal battle.
I almost deal with this everyday. And I get tired everyday especially after you’ve been surrounded by a lot of people and talking to them. That when you come home, you’re just absolutley drained. The thoughts would settle in to accompany you. And you don’t know what to expect from them. You’re just numb, til you’re yourself again.
It’s a cycle.
I read somewhere that as someone with mental health issues, they have to learn how to accept it. Because there’s no cure. And to live your life to the fullest, you just have to live through it the best way we can.
And because of that article, I’ve been trying my best to accept that this is how my life is. But sometimes, you just can’t take it. I get tired of it. But again, that’s the way it is and you try your best to get through it in any way you can.
Best tip though: is to have someone who understands and not judge you. Someone just there to listen to you and be there for you. It’s rare to find someone like that.
I hope this post is something.
Top 5 Andrew Garfield Movies
Andrew Garfield is one of my favourite actors of all time. He is good looking and exceptionally talented. I have watched most of his movies and just cant help falling in love with this brilliant actor. I am naming top 5 of his movies below:
1. Hacksaw Ridge: It is a historical/biography film. Andrew Garfield played the character of ‘Desmond Doss’. This movie is a masterpiece and very heart touching. It is completely different from other war films. You will never get bored watching this. Garfield’s performance was outstanding in this film. He was nominated for the best actor in a leading role in Academy Award 2017 for his performance in the film.
2. Silence: It is also a historical/biography film. Here Garfield potrayed the character of ‘Sebastiao Rodrigues’. This movie is based on strong belief in faith and the Creator. The movie makes us feel and think about our religion, makes us love and respect our Creator. I personally think this movie is a kind of gift to humanity.
3. Breathe: It is a drama/biography/romance film. Andrew Garfield played the character of ‘Robin Cavendish”. This is different kind of romantic film. This is an inspiring film. The life struggle of robin and Diana teaches us not to give up our hopes on anyhting and teaches us to live our life no matter what the situation is.
4. The Social Network: It is a biography film. Garfield played the character of ‘Eduardo Saverin’ who is the friend of Mark Zuckerberg. This movie is about founding facebook, the success of facebook and the clash between two best friends after founding facebbok. It is different from other such biography films and not boring at all.
5. 99 Homes: It is a crime/thriller film. Garfield played the character of ‘Dennis Nash”. Here the character of Garfield was neither good nor bad. It was a different kind of film which represented the struggle of the only earning member of the family to hold his family together and make his family happy.
Dark Cloud...
Depression hurts, man.
Some days I just don’t want to…
Breathe deep and enjoy.
free
there are days where i can dream,
where your ghost doesn’t come back to haunt me,
days where i can find my own type of love and peace within myself,
and almost every sharp, broken piece of you has faded away with time.
those are the days i live for.
those are the days i can finally breathe.
- to all the toxic people i’ve endured
a.r.
Thankful.
Today I woke up. I woke up in a warm bed, had a warm shower, had a delicious cup of coffee, had a good car help me get to work. All those might not seem luxurious, but it might be considered a luxury to some others out there. It's a blessing to wake up breathing and living healthy. It's a blessing to know that you have a full day ahead of you, and that it's not your last. It's a blessing to have a job to go to, to have an income. It's a blessing to anticipate the next day. So even though the day may have been hard, it's only a few hours away from tomorrow. If tomorrow isn't great either, then hey, there's always the weekend!
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