V-day is coming up tomorrow, it’s a dreadful day for me and the rest of the singles out there, no matter how hard they try to tell themselves they're happy just lying to themselves they know damn well. Just like I do that V-day is just a day the world made up to say “fuck you” to all the singles out there. Then on the other hand I wish I had someone to hold me at night and call my own...but till then I’ll just wait and keep calm for my time to come. They say if you stop looking love will come to you, but how are you gonna find love when you don’t put yourself out there. That’s almost like when you in an R-ship everyone wants you and when nobody wants you. I find it so weird how the world works sometimes...
Before I go to bed tonight, I have to tell you something. I am not convinced that you did this to yourself at all, I truly believe that the hotel is hiding something from us. That manager from the new Eisa Lam documentary on Netflix has got me so damn angry!!! all she cares about is her stupid little hotel not looking like a fucking drug house. Well smell the roses hun it’s already home to the night stalker and a bunch of other prison rats. She didn’t even shed a damn tear for Elisa and don’t even get me started on how I think they made this Elisa lam documentary to cover up the real truth behind this case uggghhh fuck this makes me so damn angry!!!!
How can I miss someone I’ve never met? I miss those soft eyes glancing up at me as the morning sun comes beaming through the window, I miss the feeling of your hands brushing over my delicate skin during the midnight hours in bed, I miss how you would keep the sheets warm at night when I’m cold. How can I miss these things when I haven’t even laid my eyes on you yet???
Will i ever find the one that will make me happy to be alive??
I honestly have felt for years now like I’m not moving forward in my life I feel stuck in a pit that I can’t get out of, to make it even worse I’ve been wronged by so many people in my life that I feel like my heart doesn’t even know how to feel or be in love again. I mean it’s not like the opportunity hasn’t come up but even when it does I talk to the person for a max of a week or two weeks if there lucky. Then it’s almost as if it just doesn’t mean anything anymore... is it even possible for someone to be so broken that they can’t love anymore????
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
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How i wish you were here with me through my hard time’s!!!
I wake up on a normal day. Get out of bed and got use the bathroom then I head back to my room and lay on my bed, but lately, I’ve been waking up, and every time I stare at people my eyes tend to blur, and their faces deform almost as if I’m on LSD their eyes won’t be in the right place or their nose. Their head is all deformed, there like balloons. yet I find a strange comfort in knowing that people are not always what they tend to be. Sometimes people make people out to be things that there not and I don’t think it’s right...