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Jecka except when she’s with Nicole she cant help but think about how much her life would be better without her
Nicole except when she thinks about jecka having her life together better than her she wants to kill herself just a little bit more
Nicole except when she thinks about jecka moving for college she gets so unbelievably angry that she doesn’t recognise it. The fact that she’s getting her life together, moving away and won’t be there to clean Nicole up after she gets so drunk shes sick. She feels dizzy when she thinks about it, being so fucking selfish but unable to stop because she needs jecka.
I hope someone sees my vision here jeez 😭
You don't see stars here, they're just city lights
I think back to where you live and how you can see the entire sky.
It's occasional, sometimes I'll see the moon
And I'll think of you
Jecka’s left for college, shes left home, cut contact with everyone, and starting over. However it’s not the same like it is back home, where she would sit on the roof with Nicole and look at the stars, and the moon. The moon she can’t see anymore. She tries hard to see it and the star once more, but she’s unable to.
My mom will convince me, and I'll get the courage to ask
We will get coffee in Canton and you'll nervously laugh
When we hug, 'cause we don't hug, we never used to do that
We don't do that
Nicole’s mom finally gets her to leave the house, and it ends up being when Nicole texts Jecka after 6 months asking to meet again, for coffee. She thinks it’s gay, but you gotta do what you gotta do. When they finally see each other again, they’re awkward and nervous and unsure in what to do, and that spirals into an awkward hug, that doesn’t feel like “them”. They never hugged (besides when they were drunk or high off of their tits) and it just doesn’t feel right because it wasn’t their thing and wasn’t about to become it either.
Sometimes I go to sleep
And I'm still 17
You still live down my street
You're not mad at me
Sometimes Jecka falls asleep in her shitty college bed, and if she thinks hard enough it’s like being back home. Home where she was able to walk a few minutes and she’d be at Nicole’s house. She misses this but Nicole isn’t good for her. Jecka had always thought Nicole was made at her for leaving, so when she starts thinking, Nicole isn’t mad. In fact, shes happy - something Jecka didnt normally see, but genuinely loved it.
And in that dream, I will say everything I wanted
That every day after May, I haven't found what I needed
No one has come close to you
And I don't think anyone will
The said thoughts become a constant dream for the next week, and Jecka’s able to spill her guts to Nicole. She’s rambling about anything and everything when she starts talking about how leaving her feels like a piece of her was missing, and she hasn’t found something to permanently fill it, because nothing will ever come close to Nicole. She was like a rare, one of a kind artifiact you could never replace.
Sometimes I go to sleep
And I'm still 17
You still live down my street
You're not mad at me
Nicole still lives at her mom’s house, paying rent but unemployed. Most nights she lays in bed, mind wandering but it always comes back to jecka. She falls asleep and shes once again in her prime era - being seventeen - and everything back to normal. Jecka is still a ten minute walk away (it would be five but Nicole cant be asked to walk faster). Ever since jecka left, Nicole blamed herself, for no particular reason. She just felt like it was fitting - everything was her fault anyway, this wasn’t anything special. Except it hurt worse when jecka stopped texting and calling. “Shes mad at me” was a constant thought, but now, in her stupid yet comforting make believe land, Jecka isn’t angry at her, and they’re smoking cigarettes in her bedroom again.
I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me
Jecka always wanted to go to college, and do something with her life. She was getting everything she wanted - a well paying job, a rich husband, a new life with no toxicity or abuse or drugs. Nothing to ruin the perfect image she was slowly building brick by brick, chapter by chapter, line by line. She wasn’t wasting time like Nicole, who was still taking every pill in the medicine cabinet. Like Nicole, who was staying in bed until 6pm the next day, wasting away. Like Nicole, who couldnt move out of her mom’s house because she had learned to be depends on her. Jecka would say it was a small thing, her moving away “I’ll still call you, dumbass,” but being left alone with her thoughts, the only one left who hadn’t gotten their life together yet might if actually ended Nicole’s world.
I have a feeling you got everything you wanted
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
The world ended when it happened to me
Jecka thinks back about Nicole, and that girl has what she wanted - no job, no school, drugs and alcohol and a bed. She had razor blades, and shit - maybe she would kill herself before she was 30. It didn’t seem much, and probably stupid to other people, but they didn’t know Nicole like Jecka did. College had been a slow, slow walk so far - Jecka felt like she had learned nothing, since she learned all this back in high school. It felt like she was wasting away at her desk, slaving over her laptop and a bit of A4 paper. Nicole always seemed uncaring or unaffected when jecka mentioned college. It was a small thing, supposedly. It didn’t matter, because they were only high school friends anyway - this was destined to happen. However Nicole didnt know how Jecka would lay there and sob, because she was fucking her life over. She didn’t want a career in the medical field. She didn’t want a rich husband. She didn’t want a new life; she wanted something small, but payed her rent - or something big like an actor, so she could get the attention she craved. She didn’t want a rich husband - shit, she didn’t even like guys! She wanted a wife. Or girlfriend or whatever you called it. She didn’t want a new life - she wanted the messy, toxic one she had before with Nicole. Her world collapsed inwards when she started her car, her own glassy eyes catching Nicole’s dead ones in the rear view mirror.
When it happened to me, when it happened to me
They both have no idea how much it’s affected the other, being apart and not talking. It’s like a telepathic sort of thing, or voodoo or whatever. It physically hurt them both.
I have a feeling you got everything you wanted.
Jecka got to go to college, and start over
And you're not wasting time stuck here like me
Nicole is wasting away in bed, doing drugs and getting drunk by midday
You're just thinkin' it's a small thing that happened
They both said it wasn’t a big deal
The world ended when it happened to me
Yet they feel empty and unfixable without each other. They had one fragment of themselves missing, and nothing was the right size to fix it, like a jigsaw puzzle. So until something happens, they’ll remain memories just out of reach.
Idk what this means but I could make a sick edit of them if it was a show 💔💔 @st4rlight-kayz @spaceboyden @silverwasafukintrainwreck @polomarco2
Nicole’s dad (sorry for the ahh anatomy + colouring and drawing I haven’t slept since yesterday afternoon)
His name is Akeno and his ex wife’s name is Martha
He is half Chinese, half American.
Doesnt really know why he’s fighting for visiting rights/custody of Nicole because he’s NOT suited to be a parent but when he sees the STATE Nicole’s left in he feels guilty
Taught niclle how to play guitar + draw
Accidentally let Nicole see his SH scars once and ha felt bad ever since because he’s the one who ‘introduced’ it to Nicole (in his head)
Skitzophrenic 🙂
@polomarco2 @p34ch-t34 @st4rlight-kayz @silverwasafukintrainwreck :3
Emily’s mum 😼
Her name is Jackie and her (ex) husband is called Dylan
Emily used to never sleep as a kid, meaning she’d still be awake and crying for her mum when she got home at gone ten at night 💔
Isn’t the best role model but trying
Divorced when Emily was 9
Has an older son who is 10 years older than Emily called Aaron.
Smoker and “casual” drinker.
Had really bad PPD and rage after Emily was born.
@p34ch-t34 @st4rlight-kayz @silverwasafukintrainwreck @polomarco2 :3
Okay last one.. Thoughts on Jeffrey x Kylar? (Me personally I don't ship them-)
Could be cute if they were retarded 💔
I was losing my shit in that last ask but do you think Jecka listens to Ayesha Ericota... cuz her and Jecka serve cunt😼
Maybe in the future cus ayesha wasn’t that popular in 2009 🙏😼
RHEA I NEED ANOTHER FIC FROM YOU😭😭😭😭 IF I READ THAT EMICOLE ONE AGAIN IM GOANNA CRQWHD TF OUT ANYWAY FAV SHIP??
DID YOU READ MY NICOLE BEDROOTINF FIC AND THE EMIJECKOLE ONE 😭
ANYWAY I HAVE ABOUT TEN FAVOURITE SHIPS SO ILL JUST LIST THEM IN ORDER FROM BEST TO LEAST
jeckole
Emiari
Emicole
Jeckily
Emijeckole
Ari Cole
Jeckari
Jeckelly
Megkelly
Jeckaren
Also im if im drawing a trans character as a kid do I draw them as their before gener or now gender…????
Sighhh idk what im drawing but next im doing Nicole and Emily w their mums 💔
Jecka’s mums name is Ellie, and her dads name is Adam.
She’s emotionally distant but does spend SOME time with her daughter.
They tried a lot of times to have kids, having five miscarriages before finally having Jecka, but by that time Ellie has somewhat given up and had already started doing heroin.
She has a hate-love relationship with her husband
Shouts a lot, mainly at her husband but a lot at jecka to.
Has chronic migraines.
@p34ch-t34 @st4rlight-kayz @silverwasafukintrainwreck :3
Im begging u pls ask me about my hcs stuff im so bored
Wait NO stop this is actually so good!}!?! .zc,mcasleij UM yeah. I really like it 💕 and I really like the beauty pageant hc!!!
Idk how much you think about this as much as I do, but like, I saw ur art of jecka’s mom and im actually like, 🤭🤭 so uh, do you have any like, headcanons? About jecka’s relationship w her and stuff or how she is as a parent (I can’t remember if it states in the game their relationship but it’s 5;44 am rn and I haven’t slept) 😋 anyway ur art is super yummy
I actually do have some headcanons about Jecka's mom. Since I've been drawing her a lot more lately, these are just a mix of headcanons all together so it's not in order.
• Jecka's mom was a teen mom
• she was an aspiring model before she got pregnant
• she met Jecka's dad in high school so they're high school sweethearts
• she doesn't like nicole
• her and Jecka often buttheads due to her being extremely passive-aggressive and kind of cruel. Also, she was barely their emotionally
• she does want the best for Jecka, but doesn't know where to draw the line between discipline and abuse
• if Jecka were to have lived with her instead of her dad she would've paid for Jecka's college on her own, only if Jecka kept her grades up
• took her huge stash of prescriptions with her when she moved out which then left Jecka having to buy her own drugs yet again
• she was actually the breadwinner in the family, which made her husband insecure
• extremely insecure about her age and looks, thanks to Jecka's dad
• she hates Emily for obvious reasons
• Jecka's dad went for Emily because she reminded him of a younger version of Jecka's mom
• inadvertently blames Jecka and her husband for making her give up her modeling dreams
• put Jecka in beauty pageants until she was 8 so she can develop more confidence
• secretly meets up with Nicole's mom to discuss certain things together
• went into a long and very soul crushing depressive spiral after being married to Jecka's dad for so long she became a shell of a woman
• Jecka's mom was your typical depressed drunk wine mom with an open drug addiction
That's about as many off the top of my head, I'd like to read whatever you think Jecka's mom would be like, since I do have a lot of fun thinking about her as a character. Also thank you! I've been told my art looks like it'd taste like sour gummies whatever that means ☺️
OKAY OKAY RHEA... like.. ummm would you share Jeckemily hcs?? Like they're my opt😽😽 and your hcs are SO good
Ty babe 🤞😼
- Emily loves laying on Jecka’s chest. She’ll do it whenever but mainly when she’s tired or upset
- When Emily starts distancing herself from everyone, or lashing out, Jecka feels SLIGHTLY insecure about their relationship
- Jecka swears it’s a secret relationship but everyone knows they hookup in the third floor bathroom.
- Emily gives her a discount on addies (25% off)
- Jecka’s not that big on pet names, but she’ll call Emily ‘babe’, ‘em’ or if she’s drunk then ‘baby’. Emily fw everything so she doesn’t mind but she called jecka loads of different ones, but it’s mainly ‘babe’, ‘baby’, ‘pretty’, and stuff along those lines - unless they’re getting freaky.
- Emily actually praises Jecka’s body a lot, sometimes too much and jecka gets weirded out but she secretly fw it cus she low-key has body dysmorphia
- Emily has carved Jecka’s initials into her body somewhere.
- Jecka paints both of their nails, and they do face masks together but it’s like, cute and wtf at the same time because Emily has 🧿🧿 eyes and jecka has 👁️👁️
- bites x doesnt like to be bitten
- Emily is always kissing Jecka when they cuddle, like it doesn’t matter where - her neck, shoulders, collarbone, chest, stomach, ear, jaw WHEREEVER. She just liked being affectionate
- Jecka showers with a shit ton of fancy products from her mom, and Emily’s been using the same shampoo since she was 10.
- Emily’s apart of those vip scene kid groups on MySpace and jecka sometimes looks over her shoulder and sees what’s happening ands like “….”
- If were to think about them with others - They’re both still attracted to Nicole, but Nicole is infatuated by the fact Ari will let her do whatever, but actually tells her to fuck off when a line has been crossed.
- They both get insanely jealous of other people with each over because all they have to go off is their parents fucked up marriages
- If were to think when they’re adults - Jecka becomes something in the medical field, and Emily is unemployed because jecka said no to selling drugs 💔
- Emily likes to cling in her sleep during the summer and distance herself in the winter. Jecka gets very frustrated and confused.
- in a modern au, where their teens in like, modern - you get it - they both run the schools TikTok page with all the muggies of people and jokes of teachers , and they haven’t been caught yet.
- Sometimes Jecka is actually worried for her safety being with Emily, and then she’ll see the odd picture of Emily when she was little or all the scars she has, or her crying or just her being vulnerable and remember that Emily is also her age and trying to survibe through the fucked up worldd they live in so it kinda fades but not completely.
- constantly on and off but always end back with each over
- they. Get freaky a lot. 👩🏿🦰
Please send me asks or I might cut myself /hj (Ari mentioned?!?!?)
@st4rlight-kayz @silverwasafukintrainwreck
@st4rlight-kayz okay so YK how I was lwk infatuated for like an hour about British co09?? Because (I will never get over this) MY FUCKASS ACCOUNT GOT TERMINATED FOR SOMETHING I DIDINT EVEN DOOOO ⛓️⛓️😔🖤👩🎤 im going to doMORE headcanons.. 👅
Anyway
Nicole
Year 10
Her attendance is 72.1%
Uniform consists of: untucked, creased grey-white shirt with the top button undone, fat tie, jumper, rolled up way too high skirt, socks and adidas trainers
In iso 3/5 days a week and basically an after school almost every day 💔
Has no bag, and is surviving off of floor loot.
Pushes past everyone in the corridors and doesn’t give a fuck
Always skipping with jecka
Emily gave her a stick n poke heart on her hand
Always eating in lessons (stolen from a year 7 or ari)
Constantly safeguarded
Picked history, art, music and photography for GSCE (along with English, maths and science)
Middle set for science, bottom set for maths and English
Jecka
Year 10
Attendance is 89.2%
Uniform consists of: tailored blazer, tailored shirt, top button undone, FAT tie, rolled way too high skirt, knee high socks, slip on shoes.
Skips lessons she isn’t taking for GCSE
In iso 2/5 days and lots of detentions 💔
Has a somewhat nice handbag, and most of her equipment (Nicole and Emily r stealing her highlighters 💔)
Asthmatics worst nightmare - always spraying something
Always brushing her hair
Best friends with her french teacher
Always has drama
Constantly safeguarded
Picked triple science, higher french, history and psychology for GCSE
Top set for everything
Emily
year 10
Attendance is 54.3%
If she is at school, shes in iso or on a flexible time table, or skipping.
Uniform consists of: untucked shirt with no top button, no tie, no jumper, no blazer, knee high socks and nike trainers
No bag, also surviving off of floor loot and Ari.
Fights all the time
Shoving year 7’s, 8’s, and 9’s down the stairs and hallways so she can get to the canteen first 💔
Has a toilet pass
Stick n poke heart on her hand from Nicole
Constantly safeguarded
Picked Geography, Art, food tech and PE for GSCE
Bottom set for everything
Ari
Year 10
Attendance is 95%
Uniform consists of: blazer, shirt, medium tie, skirt JUST above her knees, knee high socks and Mary Jane’s
Has an actual bag with loads of charms on it from Megan or Kelly (does get bullied by Nicole, Jecka and Emily for it)
Had a villain arc in year 8
Nicole normally bully’s her into buying lunch for her.
Actually on okay terms with jecka, they just don’t speak a lot
Often chosen to be new kids partners to show them around
Got safeguarded once and never recovered because they were so bad 💔
Picked Geography, art, music and drama for GSCE
In top set for English and maths, middle set for science
Nicole and Jecka are in a talking stage, and like .. that close to dating.
Ari has a FAT crush on Emily but still hasn’t recovered from Nicole, and Emily is too busy scamming year 7’s with empty vapes
Kylar with shove jeffery down the stairs and start crashing out when he gets screamed at WHATSAHSK I DIDNT WVEN DO ANYTHINGJNDJCN??!?
Megan and hunter are like THE couple atm but Megan hasn’t realised her crush on Kelly yet
Kelly is friends with everyone and their mums and always has a face full of makeup
Jeffery has never been late for a lesson before and has 100% attendance
Hunter got beat up by a year 8
Karen is getting nearly £20 a week for doing everyone’s homework, and is friends with the dinner ladies.
Emily and Nicole have beef with the safeguarding leader, and made a hate page about her on TikTok
SLT tremble when they see Nicole, Jecka and Emily enter the school gates 💔
Gotta repost my old art cus my fuckass account got terminated 💔
adult jeckole as the butch pizza delivery girl and lipstick lesbian with no money for the pizza
is class of 09 still popular 🤨
