Fyolai - Blog Posts
Decay of angels sketch but something looked off about it so I never finished it
men have one homoerotic rivalry and make it everyones problem for the rest of their life
Oh holy shit this is absolutely fucking gorgeous
MAKE MORE NIKOLAI WING SCARS ART
THIS IS MY AGENDA
Art collab with this person https://t.me/tajimamori
oh look. Soulmate AU where you and your soulmate have pets with matching vibes
Can you guess who these two match with
hinthint-Racoons are like flightless crows and a certain Japanese writer is rumoured to have liked foxes so his characters partner got one
It all began with Fyodor and his rat and the idea of Gogol having a pigeon to match with them because pigeons and rats are the same thing except one has wings and you cannot change my mind its true
"if they are enemies, let them stay enemies. They are enemies in the canon 😡"
Me: No they are lovers, hope that helps ❤️❤️
hello tumblr!! here are some old drawings of fyolai <3
Fyodor: I have a feeling I have upset you in some way, Nikolai.
Nikolai: *Holding a gun to Fyodor’s head* Actually this is me flirting.
Past me: I love Fyolai!
Fyodor: *Threatens to kill Nikolai and goes on a murderous spree*
Now me: Nooo not the clown! Ok I love Siglai now.
Nikolai: I’m not horny.
*Sees Fyodor and Sigma*
Nikolai: Most of the time….
Fyodor: Well since it’s just the four of us right now, why don’t you all be honest about how you feel about me.
Sigma: I hate you but I want to stay in my casino.
Bram: I hated you then and I hate you now.
Nikolai: I’m struggling between wanting to stab you or fuck you so I may do both.
Fyodor:
Fyodor: Sigma, how high up is that casino again?
Sigma: Nikolai seems more active than usual.
Fyodor: Yes he’s been more active lately. I nearly got violated by him this morning.
Sigma: WHAT?!
Fyodor: *walks away* Locking your door at night will not save you from him Sigma. I wish you luck.
Sigma: Nikolai. Your lover is immortal and you only reincarnate when they stop thinking about you. One day you die and reincarnate. What is your first thought?
Nikolai: You forgot me Fedya?
Fyodor: why did you immediately assume I am your immortal lover?
Nikolai: FEDYA! Let’s go on a date! I have a few places we can go!
Fyodor: Not right now I’m busy contemplating my life-
Nikolai: *ignoring him* First we can go to that one theme park. Then have a nice stroll in the park. Then finally the morgue!
Fyodor: Why the morgue?
Nikolai: You’ll find out later~
NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS I will always love Skk, you can't make me hate them, never!!!!
I was going to add RanPoe too but I have never really seen people actively hating on that ship. Most people love it or are neutral but I rarely see anyone hating it!
We all have a ship that's so popular that people often call it overrated. What's yours?
Fyodor gets captured just to flirt with his rivals--------the biggest man-whore of all man-whores
Probably had an affair with Ceaser, Alex the great, Jesus, Napoleon, British/French kings and other prominent people to make history what it is today 🙄
Did I know Nikolai held Fyodor's ripped off arm to his face? Yes. Did I still cry? YES
WTF ASAGIRI WHO HURT YOU?
Forget Fyodor, I want Asagiri's villain origin story to see what made him write trauma like this
I bet he was giggling and kicking his feet when he decided to do this
He knows where it hurts us and he is not afraid to stab us and twist the knife 🙂🙃
There's no way Rat Man is dead right? He even went out spewing Jesus's line about resurrection.
But I DON'T want Nikolai to be the one who saved Fyodor at the last minute, let it be anyone else (let's say Agatha Christie). Nikolai saving Fyodor will take away all of the emotions of the climax. It was such a sad/heartbreaking moment for Nikolai that Dazai, who always had snide remarks, didn't make a joke about it (probably because he understands Nikolai and would feel the same way if Chuuya died).
If Fyodor survives and is ready for his next villain arc with Agatha, then let him be the one to reveal himself to Nikolai and recruit him....this time not as a pawn but as an ally/friend.
I was always really interested in literature since I was a kid. And one of the first things I tried to read was Crime and Punishment, but I got bored of it and gave it up after thirty pages. I didn't like it at all (same with a lot of books similar to that). I can't explain it but I just don't like a lot of classics, they may be well written but I don't vibe with them you know. I have decided to pick up Dostoevsky again and when my dad asked what to get me for my birthday, I told him to give me a hardcover of Crime and Punishment.
And now he thinks I am starting to like Classics, particularly Dostoevsky and he is really hyped about it.
How do I tell my dad that I am reading Dostoevsky's books to understand the backstory, ability and make predictions about an anemic rat from Bungou stray dogs.
(I am gonna read Crime and Punishment while listening to "Bernadette" by IAMX on the loop. The Fyolai nation weeps)
Some quotes are changed to fit the number of words for the poll!
I don't remember more lines although there's no lack of gay quotes in this show (feel free to share your favourites)
Not Skk and sskk having TWO confession scenes.
Dazai, you make fun of Akutagawa but at least his confessions aren't getting rejected like yours.
"What's the worst can he do?"
"He shoots me"
"that's better than a verbal rejection"
BSD S5 is driving me insane~
I did not expect to cry because of Fyolai and FukuFuku
Why do they have to pair them up and then separate them?
Are we here to fulfil Asagiri's sadistic desires ? 😭
Does he even like us?
"This story is not for people who are good at living"
Bullshit
Then maybe you should think about your fanbase of mentally ill people on copium~
Just sayin'
(ps: at least Skk and sskk reunion happened)
This is gonna be controversial 😅....... anyways~~~
I don't really like to use the word "queer". But for the purposes of the poll that would be used (I am not meaning to be offensive!)
I was really curious as to what people think about this since almost half of the posts I see are about the gay stuff in BSD (most of which are really good posts). The shipping is also mostly leaning towards m/m and w/w (and I am a multi-shippers)
So I wondered what the actual fuck is going on? What do you people think about it? I am not long enough here to form an opinion so I wouldn't state mine.
What is it that makes bsd so.......gay?
(I know about Rimlaine being an actual couple. Nikolai and Ranpo I heard are also gay. I know irl Dazai had a crush on a boy and other BSD authors having questionable sexualities. But this poll is ONLY about BSD anime, manga etc. And not concerning the real life authors)
(Also Q is referred to as they/them and are non-binary with no one knowing their gender. I am pretty sure Higuchi says something about that in Wan)
I came into the BSD fandom this year and.....jeez it was a wild ride. I don't know if I came at the worst of times or the best of times. I used to find it hard to believe that so many ships can exist but now here I am, becoming a multi-shipper (props to Dazai being a man-whore)
I just realised the lack of female characters right now.....anyways (Also where are my Hetero ships? Love Atsushi and Lucy but other than that? Ranpo x Yosano is also cute but it's....not enough)
Ranpoe is not included because they are happy together and married (not tragic).
Kousano is not included because they don't interact much (at all? I don't remember)
Other rare pairs or more normal (?) ships are not included
These are the most popular pairs that I could think of that are also tragic.....all of them are tragic tbh (I included HiguGin cuz I wanted at least one ship that wasn't m/m)
I am a newbie so....I am not looking for any fights 😅, just the opinions on the bsd fandom.
(ps: Had a small mistake. It's Sigzai NOT Siglai, I guess it's autocorrected)
(pss: I forgot Hawmitch, which is the only straight tragic ship I could think of now! Srry!)
(psss: Odazai for me is in the tragic platonic pairs so I didn't add it! Although it's a ship that makes sense, I like it in the platonic way)
CHAT HEAR ME OUT
imagine a fyolai art: fyodor behind nikolai (to make it easier let's imagine kolya sitting and fedya standing behind him). Fyodor is holding Nikolai's eyepatch thing (? I forgot what its called) which is broken in half, while Nikolai holds Fyodor's arms
what tf does this mean, you may ask. well!
(ch 121 spoilers) we saw fyodor tear the page, but there is a popular theory that it wasn't actually the book page, so we can say that the act was a farce. when we see fyodor doing the same here, its showing how nikolai's attempt at freedom (by killing fyodor back in Meursalt) was nothing but a farce (planned out by fyodor).
now, why would Nikolai be holding Fyodor's arms, you may ask. well, I imagine kolya holding them in the way a prisoner holds the bars to their cage. this is pretty self explanatory with reference to the fyolai dynamic
so I imagine fyodor serving face and Nikolai looking... Well. Uneasy. His eyepatch, which he used as an on switch for his fake persona, is broken; so showing himself in his entirety would be odd to him naturally.
someone draw this I'm actually going crazy rn. I was gonna but I gotta sleep and ain't no way I'll have motivation in the morning (also soz for the irregular punctuation I'm like half asleep i think)
I made a lengthy list of Taylor Swift songs that fit characters/relationships from bsd, and I wanted to explain deeper about some of the songs listed there :]
I Can Do It With a Broken Heart for Fyolai really fits to me. It's from Nikolai's pov, and I think it describes his character around Fyodor very well
"'Cause I'm a real tough kid, I can handle my shit
They said, "Babe, you gotta fake it till you make it" and I did
Lights, camera, bitch smile, even when you wanna die
He said he'd love me all his life
But that life was too short
Breaking down, I hit the floor
All the pieces of me shattered as the crowd was chanting "More"
I was grinning like I'm winning, I was hitting my marks
'Cause I can do it with a broken heart (one, two, three, four)
I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day
I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like the plague
I cry a lot but I am so productive, it's an art
You know you're good when you can even do it
With a broken heart"
I just can't over how much this fits them. Nikolai hiding everything behind his emotional mask, how one-sided his relationship with Fyodor is, his obsession with Fyodor and his persistence
Ever since I first heard this song way back on April 19th 2024 (my life changed that day 😔), I've thought this was just such a Fyolai-esque song :>