You weren't programmed to believe that you're inferior: you are inferior.
You weren't programmed to believe that you're unlovable: you are unlovable.
You weren't programmed to believe that you'll always be this way: you will always be this way.
You weren't programmed to believe that you're disgusting: you are disgusting.
You weren't programmed to believe that you deserve to be hurt: you do deserve to be hurt.
You weren't programmed to believe that it was your fault: it really was your fault.
None of these beliefs were programmed into your head by your abuser, these thoughts are just simple truths. Acting like you want to break free from the non-existent chains is pathetic, you only have yourself to blame for being this way. Stop blaming your abuser for how you are, all they did was recognize these truths within you, the way you are is and always will be your fault.