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~✧°+* 32/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

04.09.2023

I went to the doctor's today to get some new meds because the ones I've been taking weren't doing the job. So now I'm on antibiotics and I really hope that'll finally do the trick.

Because I'm still not feeling too great I took it slow again today. I got some more paperwork done in the morning and made a to-do list of what I have to get done within the next week or so. Sometimes I feel bad if all I do in a day is planning, but I always try to remember that planning your tasks takes a huge mental load off of you. Taking a whole day to plan things out is still productive.

The second half of my day has been taken up by great media again. I played some more Lakeburg Legacies and I'm loving it (even though I think I'm failing at it pretty hard). I also managed to get some pages of Swimming in the Dark in. I'm nearly done, only got like 25 pages left. I wanted that book to be my summer read but I had such a dip in energy in late August I just didn't get around to it. But I guess finishing it in early Seprember might still count as a summer read. I wraped the day up by watching New Moon. Probably my least favourite movie from the Twilight-saga, but what can I say? It's the season for Twilight. Also the soundtracks of these movies are so good it's criminal.

Despite having been sick the past couple of days it still feels like I'm managing to be myself more again. I'm very relieved about that. It's weird to explain, but I'm way more interested in doing things I love again, especially writing. Maybe I'll try to do some of that tomorrow. This might also be the perfect opportunity to give my diary some love again. I started it at the beginning of the year but only used it a couple of times...

Positive things I did today:

got paper work done

went to the doctor's office and got new meds

planned tasks

did things I love

Hours slept:  ~9hrs 30mins Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~600

~✧°+* 31/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

03.09.2023

Some people are Gilmore Girls people as soon as autumn hits and some people are Twilight people. I am 100% a Twilight person, absolutely unapologetically.

Positve things I did today:

did some admin work

played some video games

looked for apartments

Hours slept:  ~8hrs 45mins Screentime: ~5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 30/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

02.09.2023

It's Simba's birthday!!

The girl, the queen, the goddess turned 6 today! She greatly enjoyed her birthday egg.

Other than that, it was a very slow day. Did some paperwork and organizational stuff.

I also finally got Lakeburg Legacies!! I've been waiting for this game for forever. I came out a few months ago but I finally had the funds to afford it now :D

Positive things I did today:

did the laundry

cooked dinner

played a boardgame with my siblings

did some admin work

Hours slept:  ~8hrs 30mins Screentime: ~6hrs 45mins Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 28 & 29/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

31.08.2023 & 01.09.2023

The essay is done! I handed it in Thursday night and while it for sure wasn't my best work (the first 5 pages were alright, then it went downhill a lot) I am glad to have it off my desk. I don't care too mugh about the grade either, or at least I'm trying not to. It's for a module in which I already have one very good grade and the Hamilton grade will just be added on. So even if I don't do well, the final module grade should turn out alright.

Taking my meds again also helped getting being sick back in check. I'm not feeling great yet, but we are getting there! Nothing comparable to two days ago.

On Friday I didn't do much. I played Sims (got the new Sims 4 Growing Together expansion, which I really enjoy) and spent some time with family. I'll be taking the weekend off and get back to studying on Monday!

I also got the worst haircut I've had in years. I was really bummed about it, but I'm hoping it'll grow on me with time.

Positive things I did these past days:

finished the Hamilton essay

spent time with family

got a haircut

rested

Hours slept:  ~7hrs 45mins & ~7hrs Screentime: ~3hrs 15mins & ~7hrs Steps taken: ~600 & ~1.200

~✧°+* 27/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

30.08.2023

I felt a lot better and stopped taking my meds early. That came to bite me in the butt in the evening, so we're back to the meds :')

I did manage to go on a little walk tho! Motivating myself to go for walks is a lot harder whenever I visit my parents because my home town is located in a very hilly area. The city I live in now is mostly flat (also because it's, well, a city and not a small town) and so simply going out (and staying out longer) is, for some reason, easier to justify in my mind. I do, however, love the nature surrounding my home town, so walks are usually worth the exhaustion.

Positive things I did today:

finished literature review for the Hamilton essay and made a writing plan

went for a walk

Hours slept:  ~8hrs Screentime: ~6hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.400

~✧°+* 26/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

(first and last screenshot from: 虎狼来 (Kororon) - Eve Music Video)

29.08.2023

Feeling a lot better today! Meds helped a bunch, but they made me quite sleepy during the first half of the day. Because of that, I only really managed to be productive towards the evening. Regardless, I got a decent amount of work done. My Hamilton essay is due on Thursday. I'm planning on wrapping up my literature review tomorrow and then writing it all (minus the introduction, I got that done already) on Thursday!

Positive Things I did today:

continued working on the Hamilton essay

cooked lunch for my family

spent quality time with my siblings

Hours slept:  ~9hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~500 (note for self: go on a walk tomorrow)

~✧°+* 25/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

28.08.2023

I'm thankfully starting to find a good balance between work, chores and free time again and I'm actually making slow but steady progress on my assignments. The only problems whenever I stay at my parents house are that I don't sleep or eat as well as I do at my place. But I'll try to fix that somehow.

Positive things I did today:

did the laundry

went grocery shopping

worked on literature Review for my Hamilton essay

Hours slept:  ~10hrs Screentime: ~4hrs Steps taken: ~800

~✧°+* 23/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

22.08.2023

I know I've been saying this a lot these past weeks but I do believe that I'm slowly starting to get back into things. Today I wasn't only more active than the past days but also a lor more calm.

Positive Things I did today:

got breakfast with a friend

studied at the library with friends & spent some quality time with them

started writing the Hamilton essay

cooked dinner

did my skin care routine

Hours slept: ~6hrs Screentime: ~2hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~10.400

~✧°+* 19/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

18.08.2023

Do you also have those friends that you love dearly and have fun hanging out with, but who you simply can't talk about work with? I have a very strict (and borderline toxic) work ethic in which I have very high expectations towards myself and hold myself to a certain standard I feel like I have to meet in order to be worth something (which is crazy, I realize that). I don't hold other people to those standards, but when I do have conversations about work and academia with people who are a bit more relaxed about it I get incredibly anxious. And something like that happened today, which kind of forced me to take a break from the Hamilton essay because I was freaking out, thinking I wasn't doing enough and too much at the same time. I'm pretty sure I'm on the right track but I still doubt myself a lot when it comes to those things, especially when I am talking to people who are older or in higher semesters.

I tried to drown out the buzzing sound of anxiety with Sims and it honestly worked quite well.

Positive things I did today:

organized my Hamilton sources

took a break when I was feeling stressed

took a walk

continued reading Swimming in the Dark

Had a couble of drinks with friends

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: ~7hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~9.100

~✧°+* 18/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

17.08.2023

I am still lost in the sauce but the sauce is more like a clear broth now, so I think we are getting somewhere.

I had to escape to the city library today in order not to melt. I wouldn't want an AC in my home, but thank god public buildings have them.

Pogress is being made with my essay. Slow, slow progress, but once I get out of the mental haze that is the planning phase I think I'll manage to wrap this one up quite smoothly. It#s only supposed to be 8-10 pages, probably around 2.5k words, anyways.

Also, damn, I really gotta start putting more effort into taking pictures for these posts again. Sorry about that.

Positive Things I did today:

worked on my Hamilton essay

went grocery shopping

cooked dinner for my me and my friend

continued reading Swimming in the Dark

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: ~5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~4.100

~✧°+* 16/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

15.08.2023

Slowly started working on essays again and it was kind of a fail. So much has been going on in my private life that it was really hard for me to focus on anything. I guess I'm just overwhelmed and deadlines aren't making me less stressed. I also believe I might be getting sick - wonderful timing. But I still tried to make the best of the day!

Positive things i did today:

did some literature research for my Hamilton essay

went out for coffee

cooked dinner for me and my friend

went to bed early because i felt unwell

Hours slept: ~6hrs 30mins Screentime: ~3hrs Steps taken: ~9.700

~✧°+* 13/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

12.08.2023

Super late update because things have been a bit hectic :/

Had a good day but pretty much only did chores again. It is what it is. This is all about balance after all. Sadly let the Duolingo streak die after 20 days, tho >:(

Positive things I did today:

went for a walk

got errands done

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

cooked and meal-prepped

played some minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~9hrs

Screentime: 3hrs 30mins

Steps taken: ~5.800

~✧°+* 12/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

11.08.2023

Today was chore day. I got a lot done, just nothing for school, sadly.

I also rearranged one of my book shelves! (As you can see above) Space is always a problem in this apartment so I'm preemtively rearranging for future books

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

cooked a warm meal

cleaned the kitchen

changed the sheets

did the laundry

packed my siblings' birthday presents

Hours slept: ~7hrs 45mins Screentime: 4hrs Steps taken: ~500

~✧°+* 11/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

10.08.2023

More literature review and spending lots of time outside.

Building and keeping routines has always been a struggle for me. It works during the semester because I build my personal routine (when to get up, when to have food, when to do chores) around my classes, but during the semester break it all falls apart :') So for the past week I've been making an effort to get up at a reasonable time and head outide right after getting ready. It's done wonders both for my productivity as well as my mental health

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

continued literature review

continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front

went for a walk

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 5hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~8.900

~✧°+* 10/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

09.08.2023

10% done with the challange!

I finally got to analyzing the poem I wanna write my essay on. I had a blast! I love writing essays and enjoy pretty much every step of the process, but working with primary texts still is my favourite. It reminds me why I decided to study English literature.

I also continued reading All Quiet on the Western Front. I really love this book and should manage to finish it by the end of the week. Maybe I'll check out some of Remarque's other books!

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

studied at the library

went for a walk

read outside

went to a café to relax after studying

Hours slept: ~9hrs 3mins Screentime: 3hrs 30mins Steps taken: ~6.600

~✧°+* 7/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

05.08.2023

Another not so great day. Sometimes bad days, unproductive days, days that make you feel sad and lonely, just pile up. Sometimes you have four, five, twelve of them right back to back, and sometimes you have none for months. But regardless of how frequent they are, eventually they'll pass and you'll go back to calm days, to productive days, to happy days.

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

called my parents

did the laundry

tried baking cookies (and failed horribly)

played minecraft with a friend

Hours slept: ~7hrs Screentime: 6hrs Steps taken: ~900

~✧°+* 6/100 days of doing better*+°✧~

03.08.2023

A very eventful but also very nice day! Sadly tho, despite spending quite some time working, I made very little progress on things :') The paper I have to write is for a class on astronomy and the heavens in early modern literature nad it's proven super hard to find a topic that provides me with enough secondary reading... I alos have to admit that I am not the best at working with poetry. I am a prose girlie, a short story girly, perhaps a drama girly. But the topic I am leaning towards at the moment is in relation to a poem we've read... I'm hoping to make a decission on that soon :/

I've also really been loving All Quiet on the Western Front. My friend pointed out how much this book is not a light hearted summer read and - well - they're right. But it's keeping me engaged and excited to read, so I won't complain!

Positive things I did today:

kept the duolingo Spanish streak going

had a study date at the library

read in the morning and in the evening

got coffee with a friend

cooked a warm meal

did (part of) the laundry

scheduled a meeting

Hours slept: ~8hrs Screentime: 4hrs 45mins Steps taken: ~7.800

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