Crush your heart into the ground ! Down, down, down further… the sounds of fear & pain in every which way, it’s delightful every time ! :)
Cry, plead, scream, prayers are ALWAYS heard.
Skylar loves the crushing guilt that comes from being a worthless, selfish child. It longs for repentance in the form of destruction, to shield the reality that it is unwanted. No matter how much it begs, there shall never be a moment where it is deserving of such kindness. So I watch, every moment, the tail chasing, as it runs circles of self hatred calling for someone, anyone, to not only understand but fulfill its fantasy of being meaningful. My response, in silence, unforgettably haunting love as every aspect of it is known through brutality.
Its desire falls on deaf ears, but it loves that too. That is the cost of being known, entirely. To abandon reality is the only reason it continues on.
Will you ever consider making your past streams watchable?
Perhaps at some point when my setup is a little more consistent (no technical difficulties/troubleshooting) I'll allow it. As it currently stands, my laptop is not well suited for streaming... But I plan on getting a stronger computer, likely a desktop, as well as a bigger iPad in the near future. :)
today i was referred to with it/its in a professional setting
so what does ur username mean
Initially intended to represent the two alters who fronted most often. Haluze & Eidol.
Haluze: shortened “hallucinogen” / “hallucination” - Sensory experiences that exist only in the mind.
Eidolic: adjective of “eidolon” / “idol” - An idealized, conceptualized, or representative version of a person or thing; an embodiment or epitome of a particular type, concept, quality, etc.
Essentially… a perfect figment of your imagination! :)