He Tian - Blog Posts
i know it's kinda late for a halloween au right now, but what about the venom and 19 days crossover?
redhead's over 30, and he still sweats blood — mom is already 54, now it's difficult for her to work as much as before. they live in a cheap shitty apartment on the outskirts of the city. guan shan knows perfectly well how dangerous these streets can be, but he can't do anything about it. he just needs money. they need.
one night mo notices an unconcious man lying next to a garbage dump. it's dark and windy, so redhead decides to help, before anything happens to this poor guy.
the thing is, something has already happened.
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mo guan shan doesn't understand what's going on. he is hot, and cold, and exhausted, and hungry... and that vile noise in the back of his mind. guan shan thinks he is going to die. guan shan hopes his mother will get out of this filthy hole and live a happy long life.
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eventually, he's still almost fine. his mom seems ok with black shiny tendrils appearing right out of his skin all the fucking time, she's ok with a bloody alien parasite living inside of her son and dating (?) him. sometimes it seems to redhead that she likes this chickendick better than him. charming bastard.
tian doesn't like to work or deal with other people without chopping off their heads, but for the sake of a separate apartment with good sound isolation and for his other, he is ready to do anything.
the end?.. a little crumpled, but i tried really hard, because english is not my first language🖤
i understand your anticipation, but I'm almost sure that in the next chapter they won't pierce mo guan shan's ear because they don't have an earring. they could have gone to the store, but redhead's in such a terrible state right now... he tian simply won't let him go.
he tian: do you have two tongues in your mouth? mo guan shan: no. he tian: do you want to?
one day mo guan shan will intertwine his fingers with he tian in return.
evil mo guan shan be like: dickchicken
mitski 🤝 arctic monkeys
being tianshan anthem
I’m sorry but why does it look like Mo is peeing in this panel? Like….
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No to zoom in on Mo’s ass like this but is that She Li??
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Not Mo kicking this guy in the nuts. Like look at the angle of his knee and foot in comparison to how the guys legs are positioned. That foot has been express mailed to the crotch
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Ok but does anyone else think SheLi looks a little scared in this frame? Almost like he realizes he might have gone too far? I don’t like him and I’m not trying to excuse what he did. That being said, it really looks like (to me at least) he is realizing the extent of the damage he has done and may even regret it. Even the group of people around him look terrified. You’d think that they would attack HeTian to prevent him from saving Jian but they don’t. They all just kind of look horrified.
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Me: *checks for an update*
*goes to make minute rice*
*check for an update while eating rice*
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Do you guys think He Tian confronted She Li? He looks like he has blood on his lips.. I feel like he got into a fight.
Me ranting to my roommates about all the meanings imbedded in the new update when they have never heard of 19 days
Evening Off
So this is probs gonna be trash. No worries tho
“He Tian get off me!” Mo yelled as the larger man pinned him to the couch.
“Stop being mad then little mo. You’ll make frown lines on your forehead.” He Tian cooed.
It had been some time since He Tian had been able to get away from his “family business” to see his little red ball of fluff. But tonight he finally got home at a decent time and he certainly was going to enjoy this evening with Mo. Walking in the door, however, he saw his boyfriend asleep on the couch and couldn’t resist the chance to surprise him.
“You fuck face!”
“Ooo that’s a good idea little mo.” He said planting a kiss on Mo Guanshans neck (knowing full well that was a weak spot for him).
Mo’s voice hitched as he protested, “Tian! Stop it!” He kicked his feet and bucked his hips; anything to get He Tian to stop teasing.
“Be careful how hard you’re grinding little mo. You’ll get me excited.” He Tian whispered into his ear before giving it a small nip.
“Chicken dick get-!” His voice caught in his throat as He Tian started to suck on a particularly sensitive patch of skin.
After a few more minutes of torturing his little fluff He Tian sat up to survey the damage. Mo was completely flushed red with hickeys going down his neck. Out of breath and panting, GunaShan turned his head and tried to cover his face with his arms. The sight when straight to He Tians crotch.
Noticing that Mo’s crotch was handling the situation the same way He Tian decided to keep going. He held Shan’s chin gently and brushed the arms away from his face, “You’re so beautiful Mo.” This deepened his blush.
“I hate you..” Mo said with a small smile. Suddenly He Tian was being pushed back on the couch.
“Hey!”
Red climbed on top of him and flashed a smile that drove He Tian wild, “Karmas a bitch.” Mo kissed his neck and He Tian was struck by the fact that there were too many clothes on his boyfriend right now. Sliding his hands under Mo’s shirt, He Tian began to pull the shirt up his toros. Mo complied and sat up to fling the white T into some random corner to be found at a later time.
He Tian pulled him back down and their lips smashed into each other. Not really caring, they started an awkward dance of lips staying together and hands trying to take off articles of clothing. He Tian sat up with Mo on his lap to discard his own T shirt while GuanShan tried his best to reposition himself.
Now, being pressed against the back of the couch, He Tian felt Mo grind into him slowly and methodically (knowing full well this was He Tians weakness). A groan escaped Tians lips between kisses as he started to pull on Red’s sweatpants helplessly. Mo broke the kiss and started to untie his sweatpants while He Tian attacked his neck again.
Once they were untied He Tian stood up with Mo in his arms. Mo let out a small gasp. “Jeez warn me before you do that.”
“Sorry baby.” Tian said placing a small kiss on his lips.
“Well how am I supposed to get my pants off now smart guy?”
He Tian chuckled, “I’ve got a great plan.” In once fluid motion He Tian threw Mo over his shoulder and whipped the gray sweatpants off. GuanShan blushed and laughed as He Tian walked into the bedroom and tossed him onto the bed.
“How was that a great plan? And how the fuck can you carry me so easily?”
“The couch was too crowded so I had to get you to the bed. And the sweatpants needed to come off. Two birds one stone. And you’re pretty light babe.” He Tian said crawling on top of him and placing a kiss on his lips.
“I am not light. You’re just a fucking steroid junkie.” Mo said deepening the kiss. “Now stop fucking around I missed you.”
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The morning came and Mo was curled into He Tian with his head laying on his chest. GuanShan woke up to see Tian still sleeping with one arm around him and the other supporting his head. Placing a small kiss on He Tians jaw line, all Mo could think was “He should take the evenings off more often”.
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So that was my attempt at cute tianshan nsfw? I dunno. It’s probably not the best ever and doesn’t flow super well but I’m proud of it.
Oh and thanks to @i-got-these-words for being an inspiring writer XD
Head canon
Mo gets really bratty/snippy with He Tian (more than usual) if he doesn’t get enough attention
(This may or may not turn into a fic.... May or may not be nsfw....)
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Actually video evidence of He Tian and Mo GuanShan interacting
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Tianshan Fluff
Imagine He Tian waking up in the morning to random music and singing coming from in his kitchen and going to investigate. Him seeing Mo GuanShan making breakfast while dancing and singing to a song (like stupid dancing and singing. Being a total goof singing along to some obscure pop/alternative song). And he tian standing in the door way with his head leaning against it just watching his little Mo have the time of his life being able to actually move around and stuff in this big kitchen. And mo not noticing him at all so when the softer part of the song comes He Tian sings it with Mo and it’s like this cute/awkward moment. Also He Tian has a really nice voice and Mo doesn’t know what to do about it
I’ve had this head cannon for a really long time and I wanna try to draw it (???) or something but for right now this is what I’m thinking of and I feel like the fandom needs this fluff XD
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I have mixed emotions about this. Like yay a possible new chapter that came really soon! But also low key flash backs to when Old Xian was in the hospital from over working themself. I just hope that they are going at their own pace and not feeling pressured to put out more chapters •~• please please please stay healthy!!!
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Old Xian’s new post:
If I can finish it,then I will update tomorrow.
@guanshanbabyfox
Wowie Zowie you guys really liked the sandwich lol. So here he is traveling to work with me (ignore my very red apron but Mo would be proud). Lol this could be a thing I do if you all want? The travels of the sandwich XD I’m a dork
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Hey my name is Troy and I got a *19 days fans burst through the ceiling* UPDATE TOMORROW!!!
(If you know you know)
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TianShan Trash
—— Description of panic attack! Please no read if you’re sensitive to that <3 ——
The lights flickered in Mo’s apartment constantly. When he was younger it bothered him but now he’s grown accustom to it. Due to the shitty wiring, sometimes the lights would completely shut off for a couple minutes. He can even recall times when they would shut off for hours. Because of this GuanShan had learned how to do things without light. As a kid he thought it was a super power but now he knows it’s just muscle memory.
Learning how to cut onions in the dark, shower with little to no light, or even walking around his home in pitch black darkness were skills that he was sure he’d never use later in life. This was until he met He Tian. Until tonight.
As usual, He Tian was at Mo’s house “studying”. It was more of Mo trying to study while He Tian annoys him into making food. Usually GuanShans mother would have food already made for them but she would be away for a few days visiting family members. Mo had opted out of going by saying he had a large test he needed to study for. The test he was trying to study for currently but a certain annoying dark haired boy was whining in his ear about how hungry he was.
“Mo~pleaseeeeeee~ I’m starving to death! I haven’t eaten since lunch~”
“Do I look like I give one single fuck? Go look in the fridge.”
“But I want you to make food~ it tastes better when you make it~”
“He Tian I don’t care. Go be annoying somewhere else.”
“Aww GuanShan you’ve cut me deep!” He Tian fainted onto Mo’s lap, pushing a very expensive calculator onto the ground, causing the back to come off and four small batteries to scatter everywhere.
“You chicken dick!! Look what you did!” Mo yelled, pushing He Tian off him and dropping to the ground. “Great! They rolled under the couch! I can’t fucking get them!”
He Tian chuckled at his angry red fluff reaching under the couch. He picked up the calculator and it’s back, “I’ll get new ones. Where do you keep them?”
“In the freezer.”
A loud laugh escaped He Tian, “What??”
Red blushed violently, “They last longer!”
“Whatever you s-“ The lights cut out for a few seconds and He Tian stopped dead in his tracks. When they came back on Mo caught a look of panick on his face. “What the hell was that?”
Mo stared at him blankly, “What was what?”
“The lights. Why did they cut out like that?”
“Oh.” GuanShan had forgotten that lights don’t normally do that. “Shitty wiring. Don’t worry about it.”
“Yeah..” He Tian grabbed the batteries and put them into the calculator.
A few hours passed and He Tian once again had his head in Mo’s lap. This was a regular occurrence for them so he just ignored it. Glancing at the clock he realized it was almost 10 o’clock. “Fuck.. Hey chicken dick! Wake up! Time to go home!”
He Tian rolled over and buried his face in Mo’s stomach and mumbled, “nooo. Let me crash here tonight. I’ll pay you.”
As a knee jerk reaction, from someone touching his stomach, GuanShan pushed the sleeping boy off his lap and onto the floor. “Get off!” He Tians head hit the floor hard and his eyes darted at Mo. They went from confused and bewildered to furious and menacing.
“Fuck fuck fuck!!” Mo yelled as he jumped over the back of the couch, recognizing that look without a second glance. It was his signature ‘you’re gonna eat shit for that’ look. He Tian grabbed him by the back of his shirt just as he jumped and fell over with him. “Let go!!” Red screamed as the toppled over each other fighting for dominance. He Tian tried to pin him and Mo tried his best to get away but eventually He Tain pressed Mo to the ground, straddling the smaller boy with his wrists held above his head.
“Don’t fight back little Mo. It’ll only make it worse.” He Tian sneered.
Suddenly the lights went out and He Tians grip immediately loosened. Taking this chance he was granted, Red pushed He Tian off of his lap and scurried around the couch. When the lights came back on neither of them said anything. After a few seconds Mo peered over the couch to see He Tian sprawled on the floor on his back, breathing heavily. Panic written all over his face.
“Hey... are you good?” Mo questioned cautiously.
“...I’m... I’m good... just... need a sec...” He answered slowly.
“Alright just-“ The lights went out again and Mo could hear He Tian move around frantically. There was an odd “powering down” noise in the ceiling and Mo knew it meant that the lights would be off for a while. “Fuck. The lights just blew out. So much for trying to study... He Tian?”
He Tians breath increased rapidly. In a shaky voice he called out, “M..mo... h- hel..help..” That’s all it took. Two little words and Mo was over the couch, landing right next to He Tian. Reaching blindly for his hands, but realizing Tian was too curled into himself, Mo wrapped his arms around him.
Remembering how his mother use to talk to him, Mo began to mimic her, “Hey it’s ok... calm down He Tian... you’re fine... I’m here... I’m right here... I won’t go anywhere this time ok? I won’t leave you.” Mo’s cooing seemed to be calming He Tian down so he kept going, ignoring the fact that his shirt was becoming wet with He Tians frightened tears. “You’re safe. I’m not going anywhere. I promise.”
After a few minutes He Tian had calmed down, but still clung to GuanShan, who didn’t mind. Slowly running his hands through the shaking boy’s dark hair, Mo asked, “I can go get some candles but I’d have to get up for a second. Is that ok? Or do you want to come with?”
He Tian sniffed and mumbled softly, “come with..”
“Alright. Do you need help getting up?” He Tian nodded his head, which was pressed into Mo’s chest. “Ok here take my hand.” Red said getting into a kneeling position. He Tian reached out for his hands and grabbed both of them. Slowly but surely, Mo go He Tian onto his feet. “Ok there are some candles in the drawer. If you-“
“Not- in... the freezer?” The joke came out botched and messy, not with He Tians usual charm and fluidity, but GuanShan was happy just to hear He Tian make the joke.
A small smile crept over his face, “You’re an idiot, you know that?” He Tian laughed a little and Mo felt his face heat up with a blush. “Come on.” Keeping a firm grip on He Tians hand, GuanShan led his bubbling child into the kitchen. Grabbing each candle one by one, to ensure they kept holding hands so He Tian wouldn’t feel lost, Mo put them on the counter and lit a couple.
Then he got a good look at He Tians face. It was tear stained and red from the crying and the hyperventilating. Reds heart wrenched from him. How terrifying must it be for him to deal with this alone. How much comfort must Mo have brought to him? He Tian held Mo’s other hand lightly and put his head on his shoulder. “Thank you.”
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So this was kinda inspired by a drawing I saw a while ago by @derekstile. Personally, anxiety is a big struggle for me and I feel like He Tian might also struggle with it too? I dunno. Lol the drawing just made me start thinking and this is the outcome.
Once again not the greatest writer but it’s an interesting idea for a very interesting drawing.
Being torn between wanting a new update but also wanting Old Xian to take their time and stay mentally and physically healthy
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I was wearing this outfit yesterday and it reminded me of Mo soooooo (ps those things behind him are bushes XD I can’t draw those)
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So this is pretty long but it’s my first edit XD the song is really pretty and it fit He Tians story well so tada! It’s kinda sad though.... lol you’ve been warned
Song: My Friends by Oh Wonder
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Unpopular Opinion!
Sorry if I step on anyone’s toesssss
Ok but she Li is a dick and really doesn’t have any redeeming qualities that we’ve been shown so far. No I don’t have any medical knowledge so I’ve got no idea how his condition affects him mentally or emotionally but he doesn’t have the right to PIERCE SOMEONES EARS WITH A PUSH PIN LIKE WHAT?!?! YOU CANNOT MAKE ANY EXCUSE FOR THAT BEHAVIOR NO MATTER WHAT. LIKE NO. I UNDERSTAND THAT HE HAD A TRAUMATIC CHILDHOOD BUT LITERALLY SO DID THE OTHER BOYS IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER AND NONE OF THEM BEHAVE THE WAY HE DOES.
Once again I could be completely wrong on what his condition does but in my mind he just can’t feel pain in his hands and feet and it could eventually progress so he can’t move but he does have treatment. I also think that he’s sort of got sociopathic tendencies. Like he doesn’t feel emotions such as empathy and that mixed with not feeling pain makes kind of a robot? In the sense that most of his “human” likeness? is gone? (Can’t find the right word).
The most human things are pain and emotions. Take that away and what do you have? Someone who doesn’t know how to function is that the rest of the world. And I’m not in any way saying people with sosiopathic tendencies are bad but how severe She Lis must be is insane. The worst part is he doesn’t see anything wrong with his actions. It’s just the twisted part of him trying to feel emotions through Mo.
Even though She Lis reality is horrible and super sad, it doesn’t excuse him from hurting people and manipulating them. I would feel a little bit more sad for him if he EVER. JUST ONCE SHOWED A HINT OF REMORSE FOR HIS ACTIONS but he hasn’t. And a part of me thinks he won’t.
Also I’m completely against that “oh but what if She Li and Mo were friends when they were younger” idea. Remember when Mo had that flash back of people in his class saying he stole something (pencils I think?) because his dad was in jail and no one listened to him? If She Li was his friend back then don’t you think he would have stood up for Mo? Like how ZZX would stand up for little Jian Yi?
I’m not sure. I think that people naturally want to forgive characters because that’s what happened with He Tian and Mo and they turned out to be awesome. But She Li is another type of bad. He Tian and Mo both have someone in their life that they care about deeply. He Tian is “bad” because he was raised to be that way. Mo is “bad” because he had to grow up that way. She Li is bad because he chooses to be that way. But once again I don’t know. Certain conditions affect people certain ways but if a person doesn’t ever show a willingness to try to change than trusting them/giving them a second chance is a bad idea. Especially if they’ve always pulled the wool over your eyes and manipulated you
Lol this is way longer than I thought it would be.
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Sit Up
He Tian: Mo you should really sit up when you eat
Mo: *munchin on a sandwich in bed* naw. It’s more comfortable like this
He Tian: you’re gonna choke
Mo: that’s an old wives tale for little kids who are inexperienced swallowers.
He Tian: ........ ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) oh yeah?
Mo: WaIT NoOoOoO nOt WhAt I mEaNt
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More rants~
Ok so I had this thought and maybe I’m on to something, maybe I’m not.
So remember this panel:
Mo calls out for his dad during what seems to be the destruction of their restaurant and maybe the attemptted kidnapping of baby Mo? (Or just someone trying to hurt him I dunno) either way. Mo calls out for is dad and immediately his dad comes and Randy Ortons this guy through a table to save Mo. Little Mo had that sense of physical security with his father.
With his mother he still had that sense of security but it was mostly like emotional:
Especially in that one panel with baby She Li (I would find it but I’m too lazy) where she’s trying to calm Mo down and telling him it will stop hurting soon. I think as a kid Mo felt physically protected by his mother but eventually when he started to grow he realized that he had to protect his mom. So he was never really able to have that sense of security (thus he got so callous and distant from everyone). I think Mo just thought that he was on his own but deep down he was probably still scared out of his mind.
So when he met She Li he was like “hey you’re a good source of protection because you have so many people who look out for each other.” Naively, Mo probably would have joined the gang for that purpose, to be safe. And maybe somewhere along the line She Li did actually save him from someone trying to hurt/take him again (not because he actually cared but because he wanted something from Mo). And maybe that’s why he joined, I’m not sure. But this would explain why She Li is always has that “I’m the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition” vibe going on:
BBBBUUUUTTTTT then Mo met He Tian. And at first he tian was a jerk and just another person trying to take advantage of Mo (like with the whole kiss thing with the water bottle). But then the relationship started to evolve. I think when He Tian actually did physically protect Mo is when the scales in Mo’s mind started tipping.
Now Mo actually has friends and He Tian to protect him. He finally found what he wanted all along. That group of people who are looking out for each other.
ANNYYWWAAAYYYYYYY if you’ve read this far thanks for listening to my horribly long rant!
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Excuse the horrible sketch and disproportionate bodies but I had too. Lol
OK BUT LIKE THEIR EYES
Can we just take a moment to appreciate the contrast of their eyes. First panel is more on He Tian’s and the second is more on She Li’s.
How She Li’s look crazy and almost animal-like. Unpredictable and wild. Like he’s a hyena looking at a dead carcus. While He Tian’s look more like stone. They’re fixed and deadly. More so unreadable than anything else. Like smoke.
I absolutely love the work that Old puts into these updates. Just the artistic progress and effort that each panel has is amazing to me. Let alone the plot and how both (plot and art) work so well together to help emphasize the other. It’s so amazing to me.
Ok artist rant over
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