Why mother?
why did you tear me apart
when you should have kept me together ?
when you should have held me a bit closer ?
Why father ?
why did you pull me down
and drowned me in my tears
when you should have been my ladder ?
when you should have kept me warm under your wings ?
Why sister ?
why did you spat venom and killed me inside
when you should have been my pillar ?
when you should have hugged me tighter ?
i guess I understand
why they all leave.
i am hard to love
i tried so hard
to keep her away
from the darkness
but
turns out
hard isn't good enough.
I think my biggest regret is not dying, I hate the fact that I’m here yk I see so many people that say they glad they’re not dead after trying to commit cuz shit got better and they realized life is worth living but I can honestly say that for me it’s the complete opposite, my life went to greater shit and life is definitely not worth anything, there’s nothing more miserable that existing
Guess what?!? It’s fucking covid!
I have went 4 years without having this bullshit. I have feel like absolute garbage. I finally went to the doctor today and had a shot of steroids too.
Ugh, I just want to feel better!!!
i’m so fucken sick and i’m exhausted. Don’t know what I’ve got. Could be the absolute piss yellow clouds of pollen? absolutely! Could I have gotten something from the little brats that were near me open mouth coughing- that was definitely a sick cough? yup!
i’m so fucken sick and i’m exhausted. Don’t know what I’ve got. Could be the absolute piss yellow clouds of pollen? absolutely! Could I have gotten something from the little brats that were near me open mouth coughing- that was definitely a sick cough? yup!