Illusions - Blog Posts
UNTITLED (gooey) | 25″ x 31″ | graphite, charcoal, acetate, acrylic, packing tape on mixed paper | 2015
28th Sep '21
Dear brain,
The past and future are illusions; a structure of time.
What matters is now, the present.
So stop thinking over and over again about what has happened and what will happen tomorrow.
Just sleep.
Neptunean
A dreaming girl and a woman so dreamy. This placement gives the capability for a woman to be elusive, witty and glamorous.
In the situation that this woman has more piscean placements this woman is not easily grasped, especially whilst in contact with the same generations. In truth a healthy man or woman is not in the need or want of such suffocation and control of her as a child and as a woman. As a child she eludes capture as the pretty bright fish that she is might do. She of painting with the brilliance of her colours as she swims in clean or filthy ponds no differently, her iridescent soul is safe.
These people are stunning artists and writers. And if they get into politics they may start movements.
Such thorough and deep in soul individuals that you don't hold them in the know, whether as family or friend or lover. You hold them in arms or in hearts knowing fully you can never define them. Horrorshow to want to.
As a warning I must warn you these people think and feel very unconsciously. So they are very absorbing of their environment. This means mantras, prayer, yoga or other habits associated with spirituality will help them deeply to aid and avoid mental health issues.
"I adored you without thinking of you physically. I kissed your smile and adored your illusions."
Julia de Burgos, Song of the Simple Truth: The Complete Poems of Julia de Burgos
I Need My Feet to Forget
I need my feet to forget what motion feels like
Moving unnaturally fast
I need to stay rooted right now
I need time to think
My feet need to forget
What flying feels like
Because I keep nose diving
And maybe its just a part of learning
Maybe I have to suck first
It just seems like others don’t suck
And I'm the only one
Left behind in the dust
I cant stand up because
My feet refuse to forget
Silly feet,
Don’t you know that flying is unnatural?
Dear feet,
Please leave the job of flying
To the wings
Dear feet, you can run
I need my balance
I so should stick to the ground for now
I'm tired of being dizzy
And feeling bigger than I actually am
I'm tired of your illusion
I am the kind of person
That is dangerous
Once I know speed
So I need my feet to forget
What they now know
My feet need to forget the sky
And instead feel the grass, dirt, and tar
I'd love it if more people understood the difference between hallucinations and illusions. So let me try to explain with examples. [TW: examples of auditory hallucinations and illusions described as you experiencing them]
1. Imagine you are home alone with your windows closed and it's silent. And then you hear unfamiliar voices talking about you, it sounds like they are coming from another room. You go to check but no one is there. Your brain created entire voices of people out of thin air. This is a hallucination. There is nothing but your brain creates something.
2. Now imagine you are in the same scenario but your windows are open but the curtains are closed. You hear your neighbors having a conversation, and you hear it as them talking about what you are doing in that moment. They couldn't possibly see what you are doing, so realistically they can't be talking about you, but your brain makes you change the words and hear it that way. This is an illusion. There is something but your brain changes the real thing into something unreal.
It's not always easy to know the difference when you are experiencing it. But if you do know which one it is (nothing there and something unreal appears or something there changes to something unreal) then I think it can be really helpful to label the symptom accurately.
For me it was helpful to gage the effectiveness of my medication. I noticed that I have more illusions than hallucinations, and for me that was a sign of improvement. It can also go the other way, to see if your psychosis is getting more severe.