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HERE FOR THE AVA 11 PREMIER GANG!!!!!!
How many times do you think Merlin brought in breakfast for Arthur just to find an empty room and a cold bed? How many times did he stumble out of bed in the morning, going to the kitchens without a thought while the cook let him take food became she couldn't bare reminding him? How many times do you think Merlin went to go clean Arthur's room only to find it unchanged since he last entered? How many times do you think Gwen found him there after she switched rooms because she couldn't bare to be there, but when she passed by Merlin always was? How many times did Merlin light a fire or wait at the desk for Arthur, trying to forget that he wouldn't be in that room ever again?
And there it is again. That longing.
Uuhh mmy heart is about to burst with excitement!!! Loooove it! Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I am so touched that you liked my design so much that you decided to draw it... You have an incredibly expressive artstyle! Everyone should see your amazing artworks <3
Maybe I should draw something else on the danganstuck theme…..
@happy6machine 's danganstuck ouma (and my classpect hc for him lol) .... i am seriously in love with this design
here’s my animatic for @lalalaurieart ‘s stobotnik contest! really grateful for this opportunity to actually work on and execute an idea I’ve had for a bit. love torturing this guy with feelings
i made a generator for yall to see what ur genders are
I adore how we don't just get intimacy between Kitty and Pusss. We get intimacy between Puss and Perrito.
Many people have analyzed the film and connected it to toxic masculinity. And I agree! So I adore how they show Puss being close with a guy he sees as his friend. And I mean physically close. It's so sweet to see friends of any gender show affection physically but for some reason, I know men who see it as a weakness. They can't show intimacy with other men. So..... I don't know! I just adore this relationship!!!!
Just went through old photos of me and my ex, I am not okay
an edit i made.
Things That I Needed To Hear But Never Did (Part Two):
- Someone loves you, somewhere. Even if you feel like they don't. They do. They do. I promise you, they do.
- You're important to someone. You're just as important to someone as they are you. To them, you are the first choice.
- Nothing is wrong with you. There is no coding that needs to be fixed.
- You are you, and that is so great and so important, and you are unique and original. No one could ever replace you.
- Someone will fall for you as much as you fall for them. Those sappy notes and letters you write? Someone will do the same for you.
- Hugs are important. Physical affection is important. Not everything results in you getting hurt.
- Someone would die for you as much as you would them.
- You matter in someone else's world. You are apart of their story as they are yours.
- You can and will be found.
- The darkness isn't forever.
- If you disappear, someone will go on a journey to find you.
- There will be someone that will never, ever leave you despite anything you say or go through.
I don't have a cool or interesting post today. Highschool sucks. I have no one. I'm so incredibly lonely it's not even funny. I got my heart broken for the 2nd time by the same person. It feels like the one millionth time. My heart aches. My eyes want to cry, but nothing will come out. The thing is, it's not his fault either. Maybe I just deserve it. Everything. I'm sorry self. I told you I would be better. But the crying won't stop. I'm sorry. When will this go away? When can I feel like me again? I don't even know who I am anymore. This isn't for attention. This is for myself. I tried comforting me, but instead, I'm falling apart.
This is my theme for today;
I was thinking about Grant and Remus (like always tbh) and it makes me very sad that Grant, when Sirius came back, probably felt like he was a replacement, a distraction for Remus in those 12 years. But he remained for him all that time because he loved him and he cared about him the whole time so he put himself out there to get him better and- i'm crying again.
Our poor little Ghoul 🩵
Where You Lay Your Head
[Dew goes silent. Not suitable for younger audiences. Implied/referenced unprovoked violence. I think this is the first time I've kind of written hurt/no comfort? Kind of?] Below the cut.
It's... It's silly really.
Dew idly plucks at the strings of his bass, no rhyme or reason to the pinch and pull, just an excuse to snap them against the fretboard and hear them twang and buzz.
It's stupid.
He coughs and Omega shoots him a worried look, almost dropping the jar of ointment in his hands, "You okay, kit?"
Dew's ear twitches, but that's the only response the older ghoul really gets from the younger, eyes glassy and unfocused, teeth clenched in spite of the large bruise across his chin.
He's fine, he tells himself that much, but when Omega approaches him to treat the split in his brow, he flinches.
"I'm not going to hurt you." Omega assures him, unable to get the smaller man to meet his gaze.
Buzz.
Dew bows his head, letting Omega prod at his face, continuing to fiddle with the strings between his fingers.
Twang.
He hasn't let go of it since the incident.
Not since Alpha attacked him.
Snap.
Not since Ifrit picked him up off the floor.
Buzz...
Mist tried to take it from him when she saw the state of him, tried to get him to let go for just a second so she could check on him, but he wouldn't let her.
His nails are a little dirty...
Dew's stomach swims.
...Twang...
"I need to see your hands, Dewdrop."
He shakes his head.
"Dew, I have to-"
He shakes his head.
"Dewdrop."
Omega pulls the bass from his grip, it doesn't take much force at all, the way Dew's fingers are cramped and sore.
"Dew..."
His hands continue to twitch, but his eyes lose their fog, replaced by the misty shimmer of tears.
...SNAP.
"Oh, oh, kit, it's okay..."
It's not.
It's really not.
A week passes.
Alpha hasn't shown his face anywhere near the ghouls' den.
Probably won't be back for a long time.
If ever.
But it doesn't stop Dew from looking.
Doesn't change that he can't seem to find his words.
His hands shake when they're not holding something, but Mist won't give him back his bass, and Omega keeps him away from the practice rooms, saying he needs to stop.
Needs to rest.
Needs to do something...
Something else.
"For just a little while, okay?"
The larger ghoul is stressed, and trying hard not to let it show.
Dew blames himself, and he knows the others suspect as much, but so long as he keeps his mouth shut, it's all just hearsay.
Another week passes, and he thinks he's better.
He still...
Still can't talk.
But!
But he can play!
...Right?
Mist gives him back his bass, and it feels like a piece of him has been returned to him.
He feels more confident with it in front of him.
Safe.
Almost.
Practice goes well.
Real progress.
...and then Ifrit gets too close.
It's not his fault, how Dew reacts.
His hand comes up to clap him on the shoulder and Dew panics thinking he's about to be hit.
Omega has to carry him out of the practice room because he can't move his legs.
But... but he can move his fingers.
Even if they just uselessly paw at the air mimicking that...
Buzz.
Twang.
Snap.
Dew would like to say he got "better".
That he pushed through and that he's "okay" now.
But he's not.
He can talk, most of the time, but he can't talk about it.
Never talks about it.
When Omega visits and gives him a look he knows all too well, one that tells him, "You can talk to me."
He avoids him.
Avoids the questions.
The comments.
The concerns.
He pretends like he's not that same person who was hurt.
That he's not still... scared.
That when the other ghouls get too close, his anger is all play, and not just a façade to cover up his fear.
"It's called fight or flight, Dew, but there's a third reaction and-"
Dew isn't the same pussy ass water ghoul who froze up on stage when Alpha swiped at him.
He's not.
He's not.
He's-
He worries the fat strings of his old bass between his fingers, ignoring the deep scratch along the body that lines up a little too well with the line of scars that extend from the tip of his pinkie, across his chest and stop abruptly at his brow.
Buzz.
Aether finds Dew alone in his room, legs crossed on his bed, fiddling with the tuning pegs, loosening the strings.
Twang.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
.
.
.
"No."
Snap.
the mighty nein - critical role
this is a place where i don't feel alone. this is a place where i feel at home.
✨ you already know ✨
Little prince
Tw: Child abuse
While I don’t envision Harry to be a particularly jealous person in the books, I can’t help but think about certain situations with Severitus where that emotion might come out.
I especially think about it when fanfics depict Severus as a protector for abused children in slytherin or Hogwarts as a whole. I think Harry seeing how Snape treats other children compared to him would enrage him.
Just seeing everything that he could have if things were just a little bit different, if he was sorted into slytherin, or if he just had a different father, or some other insignificant thing, he could have had the love, care and protection he always wanted. He could have had someone on his side who actually fought for him, was willing to do the hard stuff for him.
But he doesn’t just get jealous of how Snape treats other children, he gets jealous of the fact that Snape FINDS OUT about the other children’s abuse. He sees how easily Severus seems to pick up on other kids flinching, hiding injuries, or peculiar behavior, taking them aside after class within the first year, first month of school. Yet, after years of knowing him, Snape seems to have no clue. He sees that and can’t help but think why not him as well, he gets so so angry.
The anger and jealousy doesn’t stick however as he just ends up thinking maybe the way the dursleys treat him isn’t so bad, after all, if the number one person in the school for detecting abuse can’t see it, maybe it’s not actually abuse. And anyways, he should be grateful the other kids have someone to go to.
And somewhere deep down he thinks it’s his fault, because he has gotten rather good at covering up their tracks over the years. How can he blame the Professor when he purposefully hides the evidence?
Anyways hope yall enjoyed this rant :D
I'M ACTUALLY GONNA CRY OMG
Emily loved JJ too early
JJ loved emily too late
Valentine's day...
Crosshair and Omega in TBB S3 E8
MY HEART! Are you KIDDING ME?!
I'm gonna be watching the second one all day.
Rest in Peace, King 👑
Just Technoblade being a tsundere owo
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