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For Christmas this year, I got a Jurassic Park Velociraptor toy, and even though it’s now a few days past Christmas, I decided to make this stopmotion video because I couldn’t stop laughing at the idea. Enjoy!
Animated with Stop Motion Studio Pro app on my iPad.
Ash & Eiji’s Mysterious History Of Love Affairs With Women
Could it be that they are virgins!?
Whenever the main characters of a manga are two boys around their age, it’s common for a lady to get involved. However, in BANANA FISH, no woman gets involved with any of the main characters. Far from it — there are very few female characters and they all have perfectly minor roles. Because of that, there might be worries that all of the characters would get frustrated.
So, I became intrigued by Ash and Eiji’s love affairs with women up until now and decided to analyze them.
Firstly, Ash. He doesn’t seem to be gay but he’s been attacked by perverted old men countless times. That being said, Ash was never the one to lead them on (although he did seduce men during his operation), and there were no scenes of him calling out to a woman either. There was only one time when he talked about girls with Eiji, while drinking beer on a Halloween night. To Eiji’s “you were popular with women, weren’t you?” (why did he use the past tense?), Ash nonchalantly replied with a “yeah, sort of”. As there are plenty of women who want to be the boss’ lady, he could pick and choose whoever he wanted if he felt like it. But Ash coolly stated that “he would refuse those unsightly women even if asked”. From his words, it can be understood that not only old men, but also many women had approached and made a pass at him. He may have been raped or attacked by an older woman.
Actually, when he was 14, he maintained a sexual relationship with a 42-year-old female tutor in Golzine’s mansion. The tutor justified her actions by claiming that “Ash was the one who seduced her” and was dismissed by Golzine. Based on these facts, it can be be inferred that Ash has at least some experience with women. Whether he had sex out of his own volition and desire apart, it’s unthinkable that he might be a virgin. If the women who approached him in his early teens were lining up, Ash would surely get wobbly. Since he “could pick and choose whoever he wanted if he felt like it”, there must’ve been nights when he was into it after all.
But during this same Halloween night, he told Eiji another part of his past — a very sad one. At 14, Ash came to really like this one girl, but, as she was mistaken for Ash’s woman, she ended up getting killed. Chances are that Ash had never even kissed her. Ever since this incident, he absolutely stopped himself from falling in love or dating anyone else. Being in his position, the likelihood of exposing anyone he came to love to danger was huge; alternatively, situations in which he thought he was loved but realized that the other party was actually expecting something in return happened quite a few times. Because of that, it seems that Ash ended up having a tendency to be unsuitable for love. Considering the situation, Eiji was surely the only one truly special to Ash.
Meanwhile, this very Eiji is strongly suspected of being a virgin. Eiji was a high school student in the countryside of Izumo city¹, Shimane prefecture. Besides, he spent all of his time practicing, day after day, as a serious member of the track and field club. Even though it wasn’t mentioned whether it was an all-boys high school, there were absolutely no girls in the school scenes, nor in the pictures taken by Ibe. There were only boys around. Since he had a cute face and was a promising high jump athlete, Eiji undoubtedly had some fangirls; but he was the sort of high school student who really had no interest in such things.
After graduating from high school, Eiji went on to university with a sports recommendation. Eiji seems to have actively joined the track and field club — this also left no time for him to enjoy mixers with college girls. On top of that, he got injured soon after joining and ended up slipping into a slump. In such cases, people would commonly become desperate and visit soaplands or hang around a woman’s place, but Eiji isn’t much of a dexterous type when dealing with his problems. He was in such an indecisive state that Ibe forcibly took him along to the US under the pretext of being a camera assistant. Then, he ended up meeting Ash before he could have some fun with blonde ladies in America — and the rest is history. He has been violated by Golzine, but he has never been approached by a woman.
In addition, as an evidence that backs up the “Virgin Eiji Theory”, there’s one remark from his Halloween night chat with Ash: after being asked whether he had a girlfriend back in Japan, Eiji faltered — he knew that by “girlfriend”, Ash meant “a sexual relationship”. Flustered, he answered “well, if it’s just a friend......” in an attempt to dodge the question. Because he was uncharacteristically jumpy, whether they were really “just friends” seemed quite dubious.
Ash has kissed Eiji once, it happened during the time he was in jail and tried to pass a capsule with a message on to Eiji. (It’s their only direct love scene.) As he watched them, Ibe got worried that it might’ve been Eiji’s first kiss — his guess was probably right on the money. Even if Eiji had ever kissed someone in Japan, it certainly wouldn’t have been voluntary — maybe it was forced onto him by an assertive senior, or someone could’ve stolen a kiss while he was drunk. Far from losing his virginity, Eiji has never even experienced a proper kiss.
However, as Eiji was still in his teens, it was still alright. So how about after Ash’s death? Set sever years later, “Garden of Light” introduces a 28-year-old Eiji. Just as ever, there doesn’t seem to be any woman around; he might still be a virgin, no changes here either. It’s pretty concerning as it feels like he’s remained faithful to Ash.
NOTES:
1. Izumo looks like a very countrysideish city, so dating around doesn’t seem to be as common as it would be in big cities like Tokyo. I guess being from a smaller place made it already hard for Eiji to have had any relationships... It wouldn’t be surprising for him to have barely even talked about those things — considering his devotion to sports. Ash being so used to such subjects (not because he chose to, but still) really widens the gap between the lives they’ve led. I’ve touched upon this before but y’know, I can never stop talking about those two :’)
Video preview for "Solo", an OMORI piano arrangement sheet music book & CD!
I just want to feel genuinely loved
Itch-Part One (Dadneto Fix)
Summary: Peter has to deal with the aftermath of finally telling his father that he is indeed his father.
Word Count: 1k+
An: I love goofy Peter, but in this I explored more of his vulnerabilities and the insecurities he has. Enjoy!
He didn’t expect the itch.
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Team “Catherine Todd deserves the world and a nuanced limited series that explores poverty and the broken American healthcare system”
I'm sorry, but.....
Tw: Pedophilia, zoophilia and incect mentioned.
I hate proshippers/darkshippers so fckin much. You guys are disgusting. You're like, "But these are fictional characters!!" however, technically you are supporting this crap. Stop portraying yourselves as victims, you are just disgusting people who sexualize incest, pedophilia, zoophilia and etc. It's like violence against animals. First animals, then people. I absolutely despise you all.
Stop that!
What fucking happened...
He's so .
Part 9!
You have no idea how much I've been thinking about this topic
Part 1
WHEN I CATCH YOU WHEN I CATCH YOU!!!! AAAAUUUHGHHH
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AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LETS GET MARRIED
Fifth Valentine's Day gift is for @mary-cross
DAAAAM I'M NOT GOING TO LIE, I ALREADY FELT BAD FOR THE 5TH GIFT, I'm leaving the comic that came with the gift, because I already felt bad when everyone is doing something so soft and me, me being me ☠️☠️☠️
fifth gift and half of Valentine's Day is for MY LOVE, MY WIFE, MI PATRONA 💖💖💖
Sooooy the first round of gifts, today ends, I was left wanting to give away gifts, I love those gifts, but I'm exhausted ☠️☠️ if you give me some time, surprises will continue to fall for the month of friendship💖💖💖
How did I not notice this before?
So... I was watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban for like the 100th time and saw something during the scene of the Fat Lady trying to sing. Look at the portraits.
In particular this one.
Now tell me, does that look like Lord Voldemort or what?
Endeavor: Whatever happened to the good old days—when kids were scared to death of their parents?
I had to walk out of that cinema with half of my heart left behind because of the "to be continued"
what am I supposed to do without the next part.
Sometimes, I wish hazmat au was canon, I would be so feral about the astronaut connection.
E X C U S E M E ?
AND LOOK AT HIM-
This is it.
This is a guy I want to marry-
hey so. cola's 15. and seven was 15 when he became a shadow killer. and the only person where he specifically asked someone to protect someone else before leaving chicken island was asking lee zard to protect cola. so like. what if.
Well...
I've just installed Clip Studio paint and I don't know what anything is ajsdajj. This is a drawing of Dazai I made trying things out.
Imagine all the Peters who lost their Harrys stuck in the emotion of wanting to hug their best friend even though it's not their best friend 😭
if gwen is a spiderperson statistically theres probably a harry osborn spiderperson. do you think he ever gets uncomfortable about how many other spiderpeople are constantly in battles to the death with him or his dad. do you think he makes sure to wear his mask because his face has a good chance of giving someone a ptsd flashback. do you think he thinks about how small the chance was of him ever being good
TS4's ending, though rather disliked even by me, makes complete sense.
TS1 was about Woody teaching Buzz he is a toy. He is Andy's toy and Andy needs him, not Woody, but Buzz instead.
TS2 was about giving other toys the aame opportunities he has, to be there for a child. To be played with and have fun!
TS3 was Woody learning to let go. Because even if he can't see or be with Andy, he will always be Andy's toy. It's just Andy doesn't need him and Bonnie does.
TS4 at the beginning comes off as a combo. Teaching Forky to be a toy and helping Gabby Gabby have a chance. But Woody also needs to let go of not just Bonnie but also the gang, his family. Because Bonnie doesn't need him anymore and well what's a toy that isn't played with? So Woody stays, he says goodbye and stays because he's finally being selfish and it hurts but he's finally making a choice for himself. Dolly will watch over the gang, and Buzz will help. And maybe, even if just once a year, he'll get to see them again.
So yeah, it was horribly sad to see Woody stay but it was the right thing for him. Because he is Andy and Bonnie's toy, but he's a toy as well and maybe other kids need him.
ya'll ever just have a really shit day and have been stressed all week, and your friends cancel on you because shit came up, and you know they aren't ghosting you, but then you listen to Nobody and all your depressing thoughts come back and you feel like nobody likes you so you have a mental breakdown?
may I get an illustration of Xu Fu wearing the "live laugh lesbian" shirt from the Target pride collection?
Yu Mei-Ren told her it was cute (she doesn't know what the last word on her T-shirt mean)
Couldn’t help it.
Rest in peace, Narayana Johnson, I hope you'll enjoy music wherever you are
DR 3rd season part 1 in a nutshell
Gallagher x Reader; The Devil in Disguise
Pairings; Reader x Gallagher
Warnings; HUGE SPOILERS FOR THE 2.1 QUEST, also this isn’t canon, in other words the way they implied stuff at the end may be there to throw us off, this is a “what if”, if what was implied is true. Death mention, secrets, suspicions, already established relationship between the two
Creek
You glanced up to see a slightly tired Gallagher enter the room, noticing he looked slightly disheveled, on top of that he was a bit late.
“Gallagher? Are you okay, why are you so messy, didn’t you say you were having a meeting in regards to your job?” You headed over to him to help remove his vest and accessories, suddenly he grabbed your hand a bit frantically but nonetheless gave you a smile,
“I’m fine hon, just a bit of trouble on the way here, some hooligans on the streets were a bit to drunk,” he chuckled, and once again smiled, except it didn’t reach his eyes.
You knew something was up for a few days now, despite the fact that he kept his calm demeanour and relaxed behaviour, you knew something was up, and well it made sense. He explained to you that “Death” was among the dreamers and that a stowaway and the famous singer Robin, had been killed, thus he asked if you could simply stay inside. You knew he was working off the clock to figure out who could be behind it, but even so there was something…off…
You have known him for years now. How he approached you on the streets complementing you and serving you a drink, he wasn’t a bartender then, but he was exceptionally good. You eventually figured out his ties to the bloodhound family, which you didn’t mind but you found it odd how many of his coworkers never recognised him, to which he told you he simply did most of the work in the shadows.
Even with your suspicions you chalked it up to him being exhausted and him trying to prevent “Death” from taking any more people, so you simply kissed his cheek and told him you would prepare dinner, as well as the fact that he should go shower, to which he said he would as he headed for the bathroom.
Once he was in he closed the door and sighed. “Almost got caught,” he thought as he looked down at the inside of his vest and gloves, covered in the goo. He used them to cover up the remains of Sunday but he was also careful you wouldn’t find any of it on him and question him. He sighed again upon thinking of the events that had occurred before.
So what if he killed two prominent members of the family? The family, the supposed family that was open to peace and harmony, the family that had took away so much from many, the family that outed Mikhail as a traitor…Mikhail.
He would be lying to say he was doing all of this solely for Mikhail, but that didn’t mean that wasn’t one of his motives. Guilt eventually came at him for betraying his old companion, and then anger seeped in when figuring out that the family wasn’t all so innocent either. Naturally before he could strike he needed a good alias, and that’s where you came in.
He knew once a killer was a front, people would be less likely to suspect someone who not only was high in terms of security but also someone who had a lover, after all why risk their lover’s security when he planned to kill right? He knew you were the right one when meeting you, he complimented your looks to start small talk, not that he didn’t think you weren’t pretty, you were gorgeous. Then he kept meeting up with you and eventually you agreed to be his lover. At first everything was going according to plan, at least that’s what he thought.
He was using you from the beginning and yet, he grew fond of you, he truly cared about you and knew what he was doing could put you at risk, yet he was to far in deep to turn around and prioritised his plan above all. He wanted to break things off to protect you but at the same time, he couldn’t do it, and he didn’t know why.
He knew he wasn’t a good person, and knew you would be better off if you both were not together, but still. He didn’t know if it was love or simply respect, or anything in between but he truly did want to stay with you.
But it’s fine, all he has to do is to carry out the remaining tasks and finish his plan while also protecting you, and continue being a “minion”, of the enigmata without you knowing. All he has to do was continue to keep up his facade without any suspicion, all he ha-
“Gallagher, honey?” Your voice interrupted his inner monologue, wow he was actually getting into this anti hero role wasn’t he? “Are you okay? Do you need me to come in? You’ve been in there for a while and I didn’t hear any shower, just some mumbling…”
“Don’t worry! I was just zoning out, I’ll be out in a moment love, just give me some time,” he replied almost immediately. After hearing your footsteps leave he cleaned what he could of his clothing and took a nice shower before changing and coming outside to you setting the food on the table. “It’s fine, it will be over soon,” he thought as he headed to the table. Even if it ends with deception, he just needs to be secretive just a tad bit longer and everything will be okay…
“A complete Gallagher,” he recalled Sundays words, yes, he would just have to continue on and be nothing but a Gallagher to his “beloved,” if not for your sake, then for his own.
Once again nothing is canon, just my personal interpretation of him and his lover at the end of the quests, I hope you enjoyed this fic!