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“In front of my mother and my sister, I pretend love is cheap and vulgar. I act like it’s a sin–I pretend that love is for women on a dark path. But at night I dream of a love so heavy it makes my spine throb. I dream up a lover who makes love like he is separating salt from water.”
― Salma Deera
Me: I love being exhausted at the end of each day, trying to be normal.
Narrator: She in fact did not love killing herself to be normal but had to because neurotypicals think silence and no eye contact is shady, spineless, or "antisocial". This has, historically, cost neurodivergent people jobs and relationships from people who do no try to understand them but expect understanding for their own failures.
My new first-time ever therapist attacked me today 🙄 You don't need to peg my entire lift down in one chart ma'am. Even if it is all somewhat VERY true.
May you never be the reason why someone who loved to sing, doesn’t anymore. Or why someone who dressed so uniquely, now wears plain clothing. Or why someone who always spoke so excitedly about their dreams, is now silent about them. May you never be the reason someone gave up on a part of themselves because you were demotivating, non-appreciative, hypercritical, or even worse sarcastic about it.
—Sharouk Mustafa Ibrahim
Drinking wine, listening to Fall Out Boy at 2am, remembering simpler time before bills, work, feelings and shit
Aside from the the beautiful colors, animation and skin tones
Watching Abuela talk in this movie was like watching every toxic trait my Cuban family has come to life. The toxic traits that cause you to hide/question career choices, lifestyle choices, your sexuality just so you can remain in ✨la familia✨. Never truly being yourself because you want to appeal to an old woman with dusty ass traditions that mean NOTHING in the modern world. Because you don't want to end up like Bruno right? I am SICK of the intergenerational trauma Latinos put on their kids, especially their girls. To all my fellow, proud Latinas, please break free. Nobody and nothing is worth sacrificing yourself over. Kiss that boy/girl, take that job in another country, live alone, do everything they say you "can't" do because they are too afraid to do it themselves.
This was me when I was little. My priest grew frustrated with me when I asked if Mary truly had any choice in having Jesus. Worst of all, if I was a good girl would this happen to me? Sooo... I did everything not to be his type, following my previous priest's list of offenses women can commits. Which is somehow longer than it is for men for some reason, of course 🙄
My list of offenses
Tattoos/Piercings
Bisexual
Dark Clothes
Spoke my mind in Church
Believe in Evolution/Science
Being single
Doesn't want kids
Refuses to respect racist/stupid elders in my family, their tits/balls sagging ≠ wisdom, and cutting them out of my life after I moved out of the family home
In that same vein, calling my "sainted father" a fucking asshole for verbally abusing my mom, sister and me all our lives
and the list will continue to grow as I get older and give less of a fuck. The magic sky man, really a human man with a power kink, can get bent before they think they can control me.
“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” ― Haruki Murakami
Postcards I accumulated traveling and studying in Europe, attached to a cork board
source @kmriscos
"If you truly love Nature, you will find beauty everywhere.
- Van Gogh.
Pictures source: @kmriscos
When the existential crisis hits you hard for the 4th time this week✌️
“The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.” – Janet Fitch
A Town with an Ocean View
For anyone with anxiety and that loves Studio Ghibli have a listen to these ambiances, you'll feel better 😊
Kokiri's Green house: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X8x_DFFOglg&t=590s
Ursula's Cabin: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mt6iFE2dMEk
The book that started my ongoing obsession with travel and discovery. If I could go back in time for anything it would be to explore the world when it was so mysterious and new.
Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions. Albert Einstein
Things That I Needed To Hear But Never Did (Part Two):
- Someone loves you, somewhere. Even if you feel like they don't. They do. They do. I promise you, they do.
- You're important to someone. You're just as important to someone as they are you. To them, you are the first choice.
- Nothing is wrong with you. There is no coding that needs to be fixed.
- You are you, and that is so great and so important, and you are unique and original. No one could ever replace you.
- Someone will fall for you as much as you fall for them. Those sappy notes and letters you write? Someone will do the same for you.
- Hugs are important. Physical affection is important. Not everything results in you getting hurt.
- Someone would die for you as much as you would them.
- You matter in someone else's world. You are apart of their story as they are yours.
- You can and will be found.
- The darkness isn't forever.
- If you disappear, someone will go on a journey to find you.
- There will be someone that will never, ever leave you despite anything you say or go through.
Fun Facts About Me (Part Two):
- I fall for the shy and quiet nerds >:D watch out
- I also fall for the funny extroverts
- My favorite Pokémon is Ninetales
- I once ate a dandelion
- I once jumped down a whole flight of stairs
- Scaring me is incredibly easy if I trust you
- If I don't, I already expect it so beWARE
- Animals are drawn to me for some reason?
- I'm bad at convos
- I say 'y'all' when referencing people at my school
- I will say "I hate you" to your face if I mean it
- I have no regrets
- My family is actually super poor
- My house is always a mess except my room
- I am the only introvert surronded by extroverts in my family.
Fun Facts About Me (Part One):
- I am most certainly a heartbreaker, but I always feel bad about it
- I wear my heart on my sleeve
- Sometimes if you listen closely, I'm singing
- Catch me walking anywhere and I'm also singing
- I also randomly dance
- I drink a lot of water. A lot.
- I have a scar on my left hand from clawing myself with my own fingernail
- My fingernails are pointed upwards on purpose
- I have an iconic fashion style
- And by that I mean I only wear black, purple, and blue
- I have tiny arms
- I have tiny hands
- I'm really smol
- Smoller than most. It looks kinda unhealthy
- I have an awkward hunch
- My eyes are very intimidating
Where To Find Me If I've Disappeared:
-Sitting under a tree, reading a book
-Basking in moonlight
-Stargazing
-Wandering in a forest
-Sitting by an ocean/jumping in the ocean
-Looking up in the sky
-Getting lost in thought/daydreaming, anywhere
-Writing poems in the rain
-Jumping in puddles in the rain
-Writing during a storm
-Crying, anywhere
-Being captured by aliens
-Being locked up in my room, watching anime
-Spending time with any animal to exsist. Ever.
-Sketching at a coffee shop
-Spending time with the best people in the world, AKA my friends
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Does my soulmate know I'm dancing with him at midnight, alone in my room While I should be studying IPC!?
No!?!?
Oh Comeon!!! What a shame!!!