It Scares Me - Blog Posts
Ok, I’m immortal. I’ve fallen off so many cliffs that my adrenaline doesn’t even kick in anymore, I’ve accidentally ingested 5X the lethal dose of caffeine, I’ve accidentally drank bleach and wasn’t even nauseous (I said ‘2/10, wouldn’t try again’), Ive lost so much blood that I should’ve been at the ER but was just fine and cleaned it up, I’ve been hit by a semi truck (only like 25MPH tho, I still got knocked pretty far) and got up and was just really dizzy, etc.
I thought it was luck, but the lethal doses scratched that out. I thought it was plot armor, that was obviously out the window pretty quick. I thought it was one of the Eldritch deities I have the favor of (don’t ask, I’m not really sure how it happened either.) they didn’t do it. I was so confused… until I remembered
I always say ‘I LIVE OUT OF PURE SPITE FOR REALITY’
I CAN LITERALLY INFLUENCE REALITY IF I PUT IN ENOUGH EFFORT BUT I DIDNT REALIZE I COULD JUST FORCE SOME RULES OF REALITY TO NOT APPLY TO ME
IVE BEEN LITERALLY IMMORTAL OUT OF SPITE SINCE I WAS NINE- HOW DID THIS HAPPEN????
All Bluetooth headphones either make beeps to indicate stuff or have a passive aggressive Asian woman that says things. ‘Low battery, charge up’ I KNOW, I SEE THE PERCENTAGE ON MY PHONE-
I think the reason that it’s always that voice has to do with voice synthesis, since it was first made in Japan, it would be best adapted to Asian accents and stuff.
Sometimes my writing's bad, sometimes it's good. But sometimes, IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A GOD.
I was reviewing my writing and I found this gem(??) And I can't believe I of all people wrote it. Like damb, i'm quezy about it and i'm not even in the story. Here it is, btw, with a bit of editing to make the characters anonymous:
(Character A) remained quiet after that, afraid of another terrible stumble. They were a disastrous person and never could go without a stupid, clumsy act. (Character B) observed the mortal named (Character a). Trying to figure out (Character A)'s motives and weaknesses. They never looked at (Character B) until (Character B) suddenly grabbed (Character A)'s face.
"Interesting." (Character B)'s dead-set observant stare into (Character A)'s eyes had them anxious.
"What?"
"Your eyes are the color of the sky. I haven't seen the sun-filled sky for a long time." Amazement, wonder, nostalgia, and so many other emotions flowed into and out of (Character B).
"Oh, do you miss it?" (Character A) relaxed into (Character B)'s hold. Gazing back into (Character B)'s maroon eyes.
"Dearly."
Like FELLO????? Which romantic literature god/goddess possessed me??? If only I could write like this when I really needed to, like school 😭 and even better they have their own versions so it gets more romantic!
No my fear of microwaves isn't irrational? It's the most rational thing ever on of these days it's going to kill me and it's going to be on one of the days I forgot to ask it not to before I use it I just know it
for the theory rubric - jon snows real name is aemon
i have gotten so many jon name ones i am just going to rank the contenders i’ve seen so far:
1. Jon has no secret targaryen name- He’s Ned’s son more than he ever was Rhaegar’s and Ned named his adopted son after his adopted father that’s literally everything that’s love that’s Ned’s promise. He has no secret Targaryen name because you can’t look back there’s no grand prince-hood to return to and just like he learns in his per-book identity crises he has always and only ever been Jon Snow, just himself.
2. Jon has no secret targaryen name but Lyanna happened to give him a secret stark name before she died and that name happened to be Theon- lol. lmao even
3. Jon’s real name is secretly Aemon- My favorite targ contender, I think the connection is knight of the laughing tree Lyanna being a little bit of a knight nerd and naming her kid after Aemon the dragonknight is cute (even though i’m an aemon hater). But where it comes through for me is jon ending up being named for maester aemon it IS cute :)
4. Jon’s name is really Jon but after Jon Connington- Hilarious, but cannot see Lyanna being down for this and it’s not like Rhaegar was there to name his own kid. Or that Rhaegar was even that emotionally attached to his closest friend to do that.
5. Jon’s name is secretly Daeron after Daenys the dreamer- Like all Daerons before him, Jon is bisexual, so this is definitely plausible. Plus he’s named after the young dragon his personal idol. Fun but unlikely
6. Jon’s name was supposed to be Visenya but he was a surprise so his name is Viserys- I think his name was supposed to be Visenya regardless but I refuse to believe Jon is a Viserys they can’t do that to me
7. Jon’s is a secret second (seventh) Aegon- The show was so foul for this one come on. Not only is Aegon the most boring option for a Targaryen name, but Rhaegar deciding the first Aegon wasn’t cool enough so he went out and made a second is just comically terrible.
8. literally anything else
9. Jaehaerys- i cannot STAND this one. NO teenage girl (Jaehaerys’ greatest enemies) would ever consider naming a child after him. I think naming him after the misogynist dynasty-builder runs counter to the whole theme that Dany is the last of the targaryen dynasty and there is no monarchical restoration coming because she is going to break that wheel. Pretty sure it is just a contender because of the alliteration but it’s just unbelievably corny to me. booooo
despite posting on tumblr since 595 days ago i still genuinely have no idea how to use it