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poetry a day... day 3
If The Problems Move On
growing up an over thinker
this is something i most fear
if the problems move on
will i disappear?
// short one but i wrote this in my journal back in april and it’s stuck with me. i am the problem. all i am is problems- everyone is full of problems. it’s human nature. i wish i knew that back in april though. :)
MELODRAMA FOREVER
(this took me so longgggg)
poetry a day. day 2
A Conversation With My Ceiling
i sat on my bedroom floor today- talking to the ceiling.
i told him all my secrets and all the feelings i wish i weren’t feeling.
he stared seductively, not saying what i wanted to hear,
it’s almost as if he was making fun of me because he knows it’s the silent types i fear.
i held onto the carpet as i insulted him for not saying a thing
but then all my feelings were changing as my knuckles were beginning to sting.
i know now that the ceiling wasn’t talking but listening without acknowledging
i know now he wanted my anger to released
because he’s tired of feeling nothing
i know now why he wasn’t talking.
it’s because he was absorbing.
//AHH i made that up on the spot in 5 minutes but i like it. today i was home alone and a mess so i sat and started talking to the ceiling and i said “i wish someone could just take away these feelings ... ceiling you can have them because i know you feel nothing” and thus a poem was born.
poetry a day. day 1
i missed you
i thought i wouldn’t bare the sight of you
all of the misplaced words and petty little wars
to be honest i thought i hated you
and although it’s still a fresh wound
i can put a plaster on it
cause i am not afraid to admit
i missed you
i missed you a little bit
let’s not start from the beginning
let’s start right now
i ignore your grinning
how are you doing
are you doing okay
let’s go through the small talk
we can talk about our day
take a walk into the rain
oh how i missed you although never even left my brain
//i’m completely new to tumblr and i’m super god damn bored so BAM poetry
it’s about a boy i argued with really badly about two months ago and i hated his guts and tbh low-key still do. somehow with these feelings of anger and pure hatred - i can’t keep him off my mind. i miss him but i hate him.
15.02.22
the first part of the day was so productive but it became a cheat day soon oops-
did my french notes
wrote out three applications in non-cursive
actually went and finished some official work at school
shoutout to @recedinghorizons who inspired me to do this post !
🎶 side to side by ariana grande