Just Thoughts - Blog Posts
badly formatted bucket list or something idk this stuff sounds neat and i wanna try:
learn the drums or relearn electric violin and perhaps find a local rock or metal band to vibe with
streaming??? art streams would be nice for body doubling reasons & pngtubing/vtubing seems intriguing
finish that one tween mv for that one song. maybe do more of those too
i. could work with my local regional center to provide free art resources, etc for other folks getting services from that org. might actually even be a decent job??? combines art and supporting other neurodivergent folks in the community
figure out long term commissions/non emergency commissions
maybe ask my brother to help me learn coding
flesh out various character and world building shit in my world building passion project (maybe even research how languages work and develop one for my own purposes
relearn russian, learn welsh, and/or learn polish
scout out that one area that i’m thinking i’d move to in the long term
maybe learn to be a tattoo artist?? also gettin tattoos and more piercings, 10/10 gender euphoria
hone my kayaking skills, maybe learn to become a whitewater kayaking instructor?
participate in the protests for palestine happening in my area
so many possibilities… idk it’s nice to set goals for the future as a wee young person who’s passionate about things
that moment when the nickname you’ve been known as for years is no longer applicable but it’s too iconic to ditch
a number of people call me coffee, which arose when i used to have a coffee addiction, but now even one cup’s worth of caffeine is too much for my lil ole heart so my blood pressure drops LMAO
hot artists don't gatekeep
I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard
Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.
Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.
Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.
Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.
SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.
SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.
Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.
Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.
Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.
Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.
Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.
gotta try this rahh
i watched one (1) video on how to draw hands that changed my life forever. like. i can suddenly draw hands again
these were all drawn without reference btw. i can just. Understand Hands now (for the most part, im sure theres definitely inaccuracies). im a little baffled
no these dynamics are so fun kajajjdjdw
making a collection
this is a lifesaver, my technique is legit just “fuck around and find out” 😌👍
I forgot I have to be active here so here’s my Twitter tutorial on how to draw folds I made a while back to help a friend!
apocalypse orchestra is a really really interesting rock/metal(?) band that blends centuries-old instruments with modern hard guitar n shit, highly recommend the band :3
if i had a nickel for every time i got into a band that had connections to this one guy™️ (serj tankian) without knowing it i’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s weird it happened twice (viza, dog fashion disco)
don’t know much about the people behind the bands but the music itself is insanely good istg— i feel like atp i should listen to system of a down’s stuff (where serj is the lead singer)
I kind of want to see a live action series of Banana Fish. Just like they did in One Piece. This thought started from when I first found out who Ash and Eiji were based off on. I’m really just wondering. I do think it has potential. If any of you disagree it’s fine ofc. I’m just curious is all.
This weather seems to have made me freeze today, just as I froze at the beginning of November. Then I didn't believe it could be cold outside already, and today I didn't believe it could be cold still...🥲
I think we all have scars in our souls (I don't like high-flown words, but there's no other way to put it) that have already healed, but they will ache every time the weather turns bad. In such a case I know what to do. As my doctor friend says, "If you have a headache, you take a pill without waiting for a migraine." And I usually do.
I know which films I will never watch, I know which tables in cafes I will politely avert my eyes from, I know which conversations I will listen to without noticing the words and then change the subject or make a joke (thank heavens for my sense of humour☺️).
But it happens... It happens that playfully, jokingly, a light breeze comes and affectionately touches what should not be touched... It seems to me that if you touch (even gently) a scar on the skin, it echoes on the level of impulses. There is something left where it once hurt a lot...
The unexpected afflicts you, trows you out of the track, whatever... And you realize that even a thousand sweaters won't help and warm you in the moment.
P.S. I was a few minutes late for the sunset, I knew I'd be late 🤣 but the colour of the sky beckoned and I'm glad I went... I think I caught what I wanted to catch ☀️
All day today I've been trying to finish writing a chapter (and I will finish it, I know!) and I've also been lost in thoughts about the connection between reality and a virtual reality. At what point does the line between the two become blurred and is it possible to limit it, especially for creative people?
"Your stories soothe and comfort me every time I read them. They heal my wounded heart. The realisation that I’m gonna open the app and continue reading one of your stories at the end of the day makes me feel excited and inspired."
When I received a message with these words, my heart melted and I almost cried, because I realized how my little virtual creativity influences a person's real life and makes it сosier.
What can I say, I myself used to run to the park once a week, buy an Americano and impatiently open a new chapter from the author of the story that had captured my heart. And it's also a mixture of reality and creativity. Needless to say, I was really sad when the author deleted his story and decided not to finish it. In real life, I stared at the screen and thought, why? But it served as the inspiration for the very story whose chapter I am trying to finish today.
Reality and the virtual world... They have long been intertwined, and only man can keep them in balance. We work online, we make friends online, we love online.
I met my husband 17 years ago on social media, and we started a family. My best friend, who has known me since I was 7, has lived in another country for a few years now, but almost every morning we start with a video for each other. My brother and his family live in another city, we communicate through these invisible networks that have enveloped our lives, and here I am baking cookies and sending a piece of my reality by post. I met a girl by liking a photo of her interior, we chatted online and one day we met at a community yoga class coincidentally. We chatted for over three hours in real life, then had a picnic in the park together and now my soul mate lives in Spain...
So is there a connection? Could one be without the other? All day long I keep rolling these thoughts around like shiny balls in the palm of my hand... And yes, I'm finishing a chapter 💛
Today I went for an evening walk with one of my twins, as the other is still sick...
We walked through the nearest park, we were going to a cafe to eat burgers (I promised...), I had some soft music playing in one of my headphones, I was all in my thoughts, but tried to answer the child's questions in time...
"Mummy, mummy, look how beautiful it is..." I didn't immediately understand what he was pointing at, but then I raised my head and my eyes saw the moon in the clouds...
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" my son asked excitedly and I just nodded.
"Nature is the best artist," I like to say to myself.
P.S. Unfortunately I didn't have a chance to take my own photo.
My feet led me here, it's sunny today... They say it takes 21 days to form a habit, I wonder how long it takes to break it?
Words are scarce, and the ones I have I will try not to waste, but to use in my texts.
Sometimes naive, or maybe just too trusting I am. Funny, I guess.
I think I will be given a lot of inspiration to write more and more often again. It happens.
Writing fanfiction for me is about...
...Giving back missed opportunities to favourite characters, taking away cruel phrases, teaching them how to build something special... Yes, it's like putting whole universes in your head and giving them a home on paper... ✨